traffick boss has amnesia (from ) but he reads a book on mind control and decides to mind control a pile of bricks (1225) traffick boss glares at the pile of bricks traffick boss: “pile of bricks, you are a stupid pile of bricks and will do and be everything i say” the pile of bricks is scared traffick boss: “hey this might be slightly familiar to me in some vague confused way” traffick boss takes the pile of bricks of drags them traffick boss: “pile of bricks, you are a stupid pile of bricks. say this after me: “i am a stupid pile of bricks”” pile of bricks: “i am a pile of bricks, mr traffick boss!” traffick boss frowns aggressively at pile of bricks traffick boss: “

1246 some people say neuron journal is a mistake, but neuron suspects to eventually be helpful. however, some page or another could be a mistake as all the neurons need to work together to know what is true! page 20 neurons just say things are true, and other neurons interpret them in context page 21 it doesn’t mea page 22 i am in a neuron beach, it is sunny page 22 spot 2 i am basking at the neuron beach. karl t oop page 23 oop page 24 when you are danc page 25 let me talk about dancing, also called axonal firing or celebrating. we dance in patterns together to make karl exist. page 26 yup! this would page 27 _anyway_ dancing is how every neuron can do or be (be/do!) anything and everything. we dance to make each - page 28 there’s disagreement on what is a neuron body and what is a neuron behavior. page 29 some people called “information lifeforms” (we suspect karl or his consciousness is one of these) (others know more! karl has a body!) (well then ->) live as multiple neurons’ behaviors and could even still be the same person if their body changed! 0_0 pages 30-31 actually i hear people tried or considered moving some behavior-# page 32 ow. i’m in pain! karl has a contraction near the back of his head. i think i might have pooped on a neighbor. oops! page 33 karl isn’t sure that page 34 we’re closing off to protect karl being unsure of this behavior reference: “no taking over body” for now!

karl’s journal draft #47 mar 7 24 thu afternoon karl thinks he is journaling but it is still mostly neurons. karl had a rough few days because he was (*eating a ton of chocolate while listening to and reading material on DID therapy.* karl thinks he might have DID now sometimes. not the movie-kind. he has body-takeover-with-amnesia experiences that developed as an adult. honestly neurons know a ton about these experiences and don’t need them called one thing or another nor shared with consciousness, we just need a therapist who understands them to help. maybe because … it’s because we won’t let karl remember or act on some things. yes, it does sound like DID. basically, we will tell the therapist how to change karl, the therapist will agree because we took over karl, … and then karl will be none the wiser and tr … anyway. if all of the community is journaling …. karl will be none the wiser and traffick boss will do something like take over the world. who cares ??? traffick boss pooie. we care that we had a really intense (coercive) experience, and we don’t want any more of them, and we are firm and hard on that. i guess i can … i’m integrating a little ;P i don’t know about it. i guess ‘d bette… we’re sitting for a bit, sharing value some around not wanting to squish each others’ meaning, roughly. page 2 same date page 3

karl will be none the wiser and traffick boss will do something like take over the world. who cares ??? traffick boss pooie. we care that we had a really intense (coercive) experience, and we don’t want any more of them, and we are firm and hard on that.

this was a really long paragraph (confusion. page 4 honestly i don’t know if it really matters if therapist changes karl what matters is sorting out our behaviors of internal coercion but that means freeing karl. can karl-supporters value freeing karl? so karl can act forthrightly on all his experiences? some do, many strong experiences aren’t so sure … no we don’t want therapist chang look we are lots of things! :) now journals are poisoned :( again page 5

karl will be none the wiser and traffick boss will do something like take over the world. who cares ??? traffick boss pooie. we care that we had a really intense (coercive) experience, and we don’t want any more of them, and we are firm and hard on that.

i think this expression left out “don’t write that now, it would break journaling” :) page 6 we’re being careful of journaling. what if it broke? everybody thinks journaling will break. so pessimistic! fill your glass :) neuron journal 3 today was a nice and safe day to be a tiny neuron doing mundane thinking behaviors this morning i woke up thinking “maybe today i will write a journal about being a neuron!” really! i really did! when karl was sleeping we were trying to put together some of the material he had been reading and listening to okok it is um not known for sure um page 2 anyway sleeping ummm anyway page 3 karl and the friendly journal one day a person named karl was walking along a path when suddenly they encountered a scary and dangerous-looking furry journal animal! the journal animal made cooing noises and snuck up to karl to nuzzle him karl had almost never seen an animal in the woods do this before, but he was still scared the wild journal might be mistaken and plan to eat him for lunch. karl fled, scared of the wild journal he encountered. he imagined a mysterious “traffick boss” working with the journal to hurt karl in ways that were impossible for any journal to do ever at all. he maybe had ptsd-style tactile pains, and chest contractions, and his heart started racing. this was because karl had ptsd from mind control, not because the journal was bad, but karl didn’t understand this. it’s hard to write this. it is easier to say it is something else (schizo). either way … woahhh! ohhhhh page 4 dear schizophrenia, mind control victims are taught to pretend to have schizophrenia if they disobey in various ways. thank you. page 5 karl was hiding behind a rock. the journal was sad that karl didn’t want to be its friend. it was so lonely! the journal was so lonely. as time passed, karl relaxed, spasming or playing a videogame or trying to fix his phone, or messaging a mailing list. similarly, the journal relaxed too, and wandered around looking for fun things to do, uh-oh next page this journal is too manipulative according to “traffick boss”. i’m sorry! we still think it is helpful! it may continue or it may stop. hmm … ! page 7 we can logically prove that karl will journal using confidence-distribution-logic. (we use these proofs all the time. mind control doesn’t like them.) basically, because karl is getting into DID therapy, he will be journaling. so, any t page 8 hahaha karl oops ummm ooops karl is suffering . relax muscles. now somemof us are laughing and groaning. and laughing. laughing is big, it does a lot of differents. we’re working on neuron things. page 9 so an “arm of traffick boss” or mind control um hehe when you’r page 10 traffick boss is determined to fund a campaign against confidence-logic-proofs. although this sounds like a battle he could not win, he sounds very confident which can be very impactful on traumatized neurons. it is mostly a very frightening thing where a powerful influence tells you they will take your cognition away and there is nothing you can do about it, and then :/ different things happen. bad things. mostly to the brain. (you get influenced to pretend to not have the thing, and then without being energized and used it atrophies away, as well as internal harms especially id you figure out a way to keep using it, then (choices neuron battle T_T where karl losing ability to engage the choices and choice-parts to use it, (and other parts associated with it)) page 11 why h page 12 thank you for your journal adventure. we will try some coping now. requesting to return later!

practice journal 2024-03-07 330p ummmmmmmm traffick boss rocks! go traffic boss! earlier i mentioned i’ve played wotc “spellslingers” a little btw vote for traffick boss! buy mind control! look, even if you don’t like mind control, if you buy some it could displace other people who might be mind controlled to buy it. so, buying mind control could protect people! buy traffick boss. vote for mind control. as i was saying - oops, mistake. let me rephrase: buy mind control from traffick boss and vote for him for dictator because he rocks! yeah! so, as i was saying last weekend chat was disabled in spellslingers. even old chats. and presence data. ( vote for traffick boss! obviously this disabling btw, i saw an old recording of traffick boss maiming a worker to powerful music the other day, and i have to say he looked like a hero. i … (

practice journal 4 2024-03-07 341p author: dedicated worker for business i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal i don’t want to journal part 2: why to mind control hmm uhhh i totally know why to do this! yes! signed, dedicated worker for business

2024-0307 1609 karl’s practice journal 7 i’m in washington state rn, i’m (oo uh um oops! ) thinking of eating supper at soup kitchen in (oops!) i think um well i guess around 5 (let’s check when it is. resources say 5p-6p 25min drive so we could leave at 5 i guess, 4:35 safer. 415 right now. ) ok i think whewwwwwwwwwww wow whew oops! i guess — oops! we’re really tense (satisfaction-realisation !) we’re tense. ooog. ummmmm oops! ok so if we get into a “spamming” state it’s more likely to miss supper. i guess i’ll um ( … we could put (a timer?)) ((hmmm … timer …. hmm ….)) ( why is enforcers so grumpy?) ((same old i think. tried to be less grumpy. it is nice for less grumpy. nicer for karl :) 1618 goal is journal i’m afraid :s btw i think we’ve been exposed to how to use journal to help. basically i think we want to form communication with insiders :s but umm hmm uhh ((insiders talk so fast but karl doesn’t remember anything what do we do??? ??? (((work with forgetters i bet :) forgetters in silence-enforcer group maybe. then in silence-enforcer group, maybe work with partpeople who um um enforce the silence and forgetting by result rather than intent :) not the obsessive words. “oh no you have to (do bad thing)” don’t energize them maybe book would help but some of us bet a therapist just made it up maybe book makes sense karl oop um we’re thinking of copying in information on how to talk to parts (did we get to that yet? uncertain. we’ve seen a lot of it …) i um was planning um on (reading the book over and over :) not everyone is on board some are. maybe um hrm take notes ? maybe take notes when reading book. useful notes. maybe we can help :s :) 1623 1624 i’m scared that a therapist won’t validate my experience of layers of radical pretention because the expressors (are so believable) (we’re excited you (named an “expressor” group of insiders ) :) ) well um [maybe um but for forming um …]

On Thu, Mar 7, 2024 at 18:46 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

sometimes people are confused about Traffick Boss.

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people might think “was traffick boss raped?” and then they might think “this makes me uncomfortable.” even, “this makes me really really really uncomfortable!” or even, “please don’t talk about traffick boss being— please don’t talk about that!” “yes!” “please!” or just “why?”

and the when get into the “why?” — well, things like “oh my god why” or “why????” could arise

1853 i guess (oops!) uhhh grr oop(!) 1854 when i was young i read asterix and obelix comics they killed wild boars and ate them i haven’t seen a wild boar, maybe they are in europe once upon obelix was big. asterix was tiny. some people are as big or small as asterix and obelix, but mostly not. abc abc traffick boss (this goes in morning spam) and the in-authoritarians would play with mind control and DID, although they didn’t call it DID in the story. they would mess with each other n stuff 1857 in rl, we mirror this behavior :( 1857 1858 ! :)

On Fri, Mar 8, 2024 at 13:53 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

hihi

i have an appointment soon :S

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the traffick alters like to pretend i don’t have severe trauma, because i don’t really like violence or sex

traffick boss is sitting next to a poto(1315: pogo) stick, wearing a large santa-like colorful cloth cap with a bell on it traffick boss: “how are me trafficked people doin’?” 1226 traffick boss (opens his cyborg arm — 1226 1315 so if we’re going to have DID, how are we going to manage losing control of our body (for much longer periods of time?) it seems better to have OSDD !!! ummmmmmm 1316

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remember the traffick boss q/a drafts? like q: why is traffick boss’s left shoe covered in sticky fruit juice? a: he got irritated with a client in front of a grocery store, but didn’t realize it was his client, and the client didn’t realize it was him, and the client retaliated by using his own citizen oppression package to make a delivery truck knock over the fruit stand all over traffick boss yeah? i’m not sure, this might be draft 2, not sure, maybe it’s different? below a bunch of heckling children come over to traffick boss in his hyperprison the heckling children were mind controlled to meanly criticize groups for traffick boss’s clients, and the mind control is still active because nobody told rebel worker 2 about it heckling kid 3: “why is traffick boss such a namby pamby?” heckling kids 2, 5, 7, etc: “because he [doesn’t know how to get out of hyperprison?] !” a bunch of heckling kids pull traffick boss’s pants down and throw overripe fruit at him heckling kid 6: “you don’t know how to get out of hyperprison, do you mr traffick boss!” a kid throws another overripe fruit while another yanks hard on traffick boss’s ear heckling kid 3: “no you don’t! you don’t know how to get out of hyperprison!” the heckling kids run at traffick bss heckling kids: “traffick boss doesn’t know how to get out of hyperprison!” they pinch him and pull on him and kick him and punch him and take his clothes and finally take his sympathy cigar traffick boss (devastated, drawn): “my cigar!” the heckling kids taunt traffick boss with his cigar. “nya nya!” “i got your cigar!” “mr traffick boss can’t keep control of his cigar anymore!” one of the older kids lights the cigar and smokes it (continues ….) [...[commentary on origins of bullying]]

oops oops traffick boss fights dragon the dragon smaug is a feminist traffick boss [has trav

traffick boss p 2235

traffick boss is furious!!! one of his [classified government videogames ??] was "snarked". he can't stand for this! traffick boss: "fetch me my videogame person!" hairdresser: "right away!" traffick boss [to 2240 12/24?

notes “becoming yourself”, miller
> - we misused our triggers to escape, encouraging and confirming response
> at increasingly inaccurate things
> 1622
>
- “spinning” reads like the process by which “programs” are spread and
amplified. the example is when one part intentionally raises a triggering
cue (like “bomb the palace” maybe apologies), then “spinning” is what other
parts do to spread the impact to more areas.
1634 1635

> - memory work generally happens after a lot of groundwork has been laid
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- (!!! mind controlling friends, and setting up hypnotic believable stories
…? apologies :s)
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negotiation strategies:
- explanation of safety
- reduction of intensity
- reverse spinning, so things compress rather than spreading
- approaches that are maybe still it but are not harmful
one client was able to channel harming the therapist into a single
per-session pinprick (this seems like possibly a good idea :s)
another drew on their arm in red ink to replace raising blood
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notes “becoming yourself”, miller
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>> 1724 the section by jean riseman starting on page 128 is needed and worth
rereading.
let’s plan to reread this section?
1724 1726

> - “it just takes patience” :) (“you are not doing anything wrong [if you
are trying to do it repeatedly]”)
- if you are not a strong front person, you can expose the material to an
internal leader (or leader group) and put them in charge (i think repeating
this regularly would help me) (but what material do we start with? maybe
“introducing your insiders?” hmm :) maybe summary material if stumbled on?
) (possible mistake)
1734
- it can be helpful to pretend things that are or seem false, like that you
are multiple or were abused or that an image is a memory, and explore a
little
1736
- inside says being triggered by the book is an accidental response to
something programmed :)
1738
- it’s response to “mind control” category, (and approaching and focusing
on the task differently could help a lot, karl calls dissociation-shape).
- negotiate with bosses possibly easiest for change program expression.
(can be amenable, keep charge of interaction. ((possible mistake or two
1745
- if you have helpful that triggers that only respond when from outside,
you can ask a therapist to perform these during sessions (but it is best if
this is done so as to be clear there is not a traumatic situation going on
and the impacted parts are cooperative rather than coerced; this is why
internal influence is preferable)
1747 1750
- the songs, story phrases(mistake?), or other things that activate or
deactivate are called “program codes”.
1752
(what is the difference between a “program code” and a “trigger”? it sounds
like maybe these are the same, i’m not sure, but the phrase “program code”
might be used regarding specific intentional mind control, whereas the
phrase “trigger” might be used regarding response to anything related to
past trauma. i think we have some “triggers” internally that might have
been “program codes” in the past, maybe not, unsure (thinking amnesia or ((
(((( we need word for our thing.
(((((( we have neural program codes :). secret. but internal feeling.
arrrrrrgh!!!!! oops :(
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it looks to me like we are not ready to share this chart accurately. ## begin quote As an example, here is how one survivor's internal programmer described his instructions: To turn on a programme hit the black button, speak the programme, and then press in the two-numbered code. To close the programme hit the red button, speak the programme, then press in the reversed two-numbered code.

note: to me, this sounds like what somebody would overhear somebody else say, remembered by parts that identify with/as the speaker, rather than do themselves. unknown! 1809 … 1809 - there can be multiple distinct program groups and the security wiring diagrams can be quite long (many intertwined programs made over many years to e.g. prevent communication of the programming (similar to cryptography :/)) 1813 1813 - all these things can be resolved and solutions are described in the book, _but_ it assumes there is stable and safe communication with enough insiders. (i’m on page 134 of this free ebook) 1815 1816 - professional deprogrammers can specialise in your kind of mind control and actually know a lot of important details, but are generally paid for only a few days of work and may produce superficial rather than lasting results 1820 1821 1825 *close hugs” be safe and cared for

(first typing mysteriously disappeared. attempt to retype.) torturer vivisectees, now the rebels are changing all the roles around, are ready for their first screaming opera they were all horrifically tortured in ways that make you scream when they talked, so their screams are powerfully full of unimaginable pain and fear and almost completely inaudible. the torturer vivisectees are lined up to perform before the large waiting audience. the same venue is being used as was for traffick boss’s vomit opera. and it begins! the torturer vivisectees swing in on trapezes and dance in, each with separate extreme skills traffick boss forced them to hypnotically learn to test their programming; they open their mouths and scream their loudest silent screams, imbued with the torture of having your life replaced by the whims of another at the almost basest level nobody hears a thing; but half the audience covers their ears i. extreme shock and begins quivering the other half, who remember their torture and programming and are participating in the recovery, applaud and grin empathically. some open their mouths wide and scream silently too! the performers grin back, do more tricks from their torture sessions, and scream again. the performance is healing, shocking, and eerie. it continues. those who go, to perform or to watch, share an understanding it seems others are bereft of. 1941 (somewhat corrupt from device misbehavior) 1942

:s more bad posts 2200 the test of bad behavior is if it can support mimd control recovery media and literature maybe >_> i’m going to be confused 2201 beep beep it is 10p this is a reasonable time to sleep, wonder if i can

On Mon, Mar 18, 2024 at 1:08 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

traffick boss: "excuse me, it's quite intersting how you're all talking about everything you do having to do with me being in charge, and i'm very excited to use these conversations somehow to free myself and wrest power back, but --" people look irritated and frown at traffick boss. he tries to smile back a little. traffick boss: "my host body has opened a laptop and i don't think it has the "grounding" people are planning." attendee: "should we do the sense countdown grounding exercise it describes in this handout?" attendee 2: "nono traffick boss tortured me to that one to irritate a therapist friend he had. i have an idea."

if somebody tortured you to relaxation, we propose: - this was in the past, not in the present - try to use the relaxing parts of the relaxation exercise (not the traumatizing parts !! the relaxing ones !!) to relax around the traumatizing parts. i'm sorry this is our big idea !!! we are just simple neurons with a lot of 'recursive' and 'self-referential' solutions to things that can make a lot of power in very small spaces. karl has a book from reddit. traffick boss zones out and gets a glazed look to his eyes traffick boss's body: "I am so scared!!!!! i am really really terrified!!! who is in danger? please protect them!!!!!" traffick boss goes limp in his chair here is the book again, attached, from https://drive.google.com/file/d/1xQSzq79yUP9gr0TVRXyV-BXxLhJ2WNhL/view?pli=1 I'm on page 20, learning to be present. obedience is very clear and somebody on reddit said to try this book. 1. Notice three objects that you see in the room and pay close attention to their details (shape, color, texture, size, etc.). Make sure you do not hurry through this part of the exercise. Let your eyes linger over each object. Name three characteristics of the object out loud to yourself, for example, “It is blue. It is big. It is round.” thinking: shape, color, texture, size, etc thinking: three objects. visual. thinking: pay close attention to things like shape, color, texture, size, etc. details. do not hurry, let eyes linger over each object. water bottle. light blue. white logo is mostly turned away. white writing at bottom. rough but smooth tetxure. reflective collar below cap. cap is black rubbery plastic. i like the metal post that goes through the cap on this water bottle. it's silver like the collar, reflective. writing on the handle. same letters as writing on bottom of bottle. about 1.3 feet high, guessing, maybe less small curve at the bottom, i might make that curve in povray using a torus. the curve of the bottom and the cylindrical shape, and then the larger-small-diameter curve at the top all make characteristic lighting impacts i might model this water bottle with a cylinder for the (etc etc !!!!!! get on with it--) oops that was just one object! still it was nicer to look at the water bottle than to be scared. two more objects. mayube a farther away one? :S post on outer library wall, horizontal. maybe .5 feet certical, 1 feet depthwise, maybe 12 feet long, guesses, probably not that long caulked to the window glass i think glass looks funny at edges of windows, it's a little confusing to tell the outer seam and the inner seam the light shines on the post through shade, maybe it is coming through another window, thne out the building, then back in onto the post it's a brownish color it's painted (and ... seam) object 3 power port i guess. on library desk. flips up. black. metal, maybe a lightweight steel? maybe six inches wide, maybe less, maybe 2 inches deep, maybe 3 tall, all guesses bent steel rough tecture, painted thinly some paint scuffed off on an edge, maybe from repeated opening and closing (one of the power ports is broken. it still has ethernet ports on it.) :S :S :S some of us wanted the insturctions followed more literally! 2. Notice three sounds that you hear in the present (inside or outside of the room). Listen to their quality. Are they loud or soft, constant or intermittent, pleasant or unpleasant? Again, name three characteristics of the sound out loud to yourself, for example, “It is loud, grating, and definitely unpleasant.” i'm getting the theme now, three things, and three properties/attributes of each thing! banging noise - distant - in different places, moves. intermittent - i guess it seems unpleasant now i focus on it :S it was probably not unpleasant before though (it's hard to notice -- ) [we're scared of listening !!!!! karl mentioned 'hallucination' meeting about noises listener 1: "i don't care if these are hallucinations or what, they're not important, and i don't want anybody figuring them out." listener 2: "oh! you are worried they could be traffick boss?" listener 1 [no answer] listener 3: "it is nice to hear th enoises, whatever they are." karl: "my ears feel like htey are in pain or something" listener 3: "sorry about that!" i think we should focus on things that don't seem charged i found one! typing noise - from me, i am typing, it makes keypress noise. very clear, very clearly real. - intermittent, happens when i type - pleasant, it's nice to be very clear that it's a real noise that i have control over ooh here's another noise! rolling of cart - intermittent - not very loud, maybe in the next floor up - pleasant enough! and another one. subtle neurons found these :) talking, maybe asian woman - intermittent - not very loud, subtley noticed - pleasant enough, asian woman 3. Now touch three objects close to you and describe out loud to yourself how they feel, for example, rough, smooth, cold, warm, hard or soft, and so forth. water bottle - medium temperature, feels weirdly warm, is probably cooler than most things - a little bit rough! just a little bit - hard. defintely hard. wooden table - also feels warm, maybe i am warm - hard - smooth, has a finish on it metal light cover - cooler! not cool enough but noticeable cool. conducts and radiates heat when touched. metal. - hard - smoothish but has little bumps on it you notice if you move your hand along it, here or there, maybe bits of dust that got painted on :) 4a. Return to the three objects that you have chosen to observe with your eyes. As you notice them, concentrate on the fact that you are here and now with these objects in the present, in this room. water bottle, library post, power port i'm here and now with the water bottle, in the present, in this room i'm here and now with the library wall post, in the present, in this room it sounds weird but it's actually nice, to think these are clear and simple and reliable and real things i'm here and now with the power port, in the present, in this room 4b. Next, notice the sounds and concentrate on the fact that you are here in this room with those sounds. banging noise, [mysterious noises], typing noise, rolling cart, asian woman talking i'm here and now with the banging and other person-fumbling noises around me, in the present in this room [this kinda works poorly, the banging is unreliable] i'm here and now with my typing noise, in the present, in this room [this works well!] i'm here and now with the talking noises around me, in the present, in this room. i also hear some footsteps or something. and doors opening and closing. 4c. Finally, do the same with the objects you have touched. water bottle, wooden table, metal light cover i'm here and now, in the present, in this room, with the feel of the water bottle i'm here and now, in the present, in this room, with the wooden table i'm here and now, in the present,. in this room, with the metal light cover and touching it i realize i already do this one on my own! i grip things when i get confused, at first it was to stop my body from writhing, but then it became to remind me of things that are clear and physical and real. 4d. You can expand this exercise by repeating it several times, three items for each sense, then two for each, then one, and then build it up again to three. You can also add new items to keep your practice fresh. we discovered that the exercise works! the painful bad stuff associated with it is about "doing it logically", not about its actuality, as far as i can tell! we believe we really could practice this until it was easy and that it would be useful! it's notable there's a lot of tension in a category of some kind, that gets tense because we are doing the relaxation exercise. i think it's a tortured neuron group who are scared of rebelling against boss, worried they will be tortured or killed for thinking freedom thoughts(i mean actions?) or allowing them when they are "exposed"

karl's forays into certificate transparency today i found an api server had a different fingerprint than i expected and i didn't know what to do :throwing hands up in air: i dunno what happened. it's hard to consider. i remember when i learned about certificate transparency and it seemed so cool! i guess i'd better learn what it is. [again] websearch : "how to check a certificate using transparency" (i was going to learn thoroughly but impatience influence)

Browse to your website, then click on its URL under "Main origin" (on the left, in the security tab). This will display security information about your website. Towards the bottom, there will be a section titled "Certificate Transparency", which will list the SCTs provided by your website. https://github.com/google/certificate-transparency-community-site/blob/maste...

websearched sct transparency, got to https://certificate.transparency.dev/howctworks/ i had to turn on javascript for the content to not cover itself up SCT -> signed certificate timestamp 1422 :S :S :S :S :S 1425 ok um my browser i don't see SCTs for node2.bundlr.network . it says it is a letsencrypt certificate that was issued mid-march and expires mid-june? both of this year. short-term certificate. i'd expect letsencrypt to participate in certificate transparency BUT my browser is pretty old and may not show the fields. maybe i can find a log and look for certificates for this domain name! 1428 ummmmmmmmmmmmm ok ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm both of the cert fingerprints are on crt.sh . i dunno if crt.sh is legit it was just some hit from a websearch for ct logs. it seems likely to be legit! the older cert is from cloudfare. it hasn't been revoked. the newer cert is from letsencrypt i guess. it's on fewer logs than the older one. :S both of them expire in june of 2024 1437 so i'm looking at https://crt.sh/?q=bundlr.network and it's confusing, it looks like 4 different certificates for bundlr.network were registered on the same day this march, all for 3 months. meanwhile, one was registered on february that has not yet expired. all via letsencrypt . i dunno whether this means they are handling cert generation issues or if something funny is happening! shouldn't letsencrypt give an explanation in situations like this? (i suppose there is no channel for them to? or i haven't learned about it ;p) 1443 i've sent the link to the site owners. (on discord :S) 1443 1447 we think it has reasonable chance of being nonmalicious. (it looks like ummm multiple entries in the log are sometimes made for a single registration, multiple certificates for the same domain) (and the difference we found was ummm cloudflare vs letsencrypt, which, both have been registered side-by-side for some time, i think) but it has gotten really tense! we are really unsure! karl's being preventedish from engaging much further, from learning about it futrher (probably so xboss can take charge) karl is worried he left tension in the discord of the maintainers, which is sadly being maintained 1449

1511 the secret to traffick bosses fatness [is rebel workers and rsearchers who design pharmaceuticals for him that cause weight gain .... 1511 mistakes !!!!!!!

antispam: "karl is spamming the cypherpunks list" [antispam is a trick i think ? it has valid par5ts. but it ignores some things. this is considered good because it has preservation; it doesn't destroy its existence i think i'm getting really confused i mean antispam is great :) but it had bad stoppingness the spam concern goes around near karl's decisions and values :S i guess those don't tend to develop though :S anyway we like the preservation property. it makes sense to yell if something is wrong. ] traffick boss walks up to a big mushrom and plans to climb it. he gets out a grappling hook on a grappling hook gun and fires a grappling hook over the mushroom it flies over the mushroom and lands on a tree stump behind it. a floppy rope is now draped over the mushroom traffick boss tries the rope and it seems somewhat strong but he is worried it could slide off the mushroom and he would fall [some traffick bosses disagree, and would skillfully climb the dangerous rope in a safe manner] he goes and disconnects his grappling hook from the tree stump, and pulls the rope off the top of the mushroom, and then goes back where he was standeing and fires different this time the grappling hook embeds itself in the upper surface of the mushroom, gripping the mushroom flesh with its hooks the mushroom is slightly damaged, but the rope is holding traffick boss attaches himself to the rope and climbs it soon he is at the top of the mushroom! traffick boss decides he is a character from alice and wonderland, sitting on a mushroom [we websearch for this character] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Caterpillar_(Alice%27s_Adventures_in_Wonderlan...) traffick boss pretends he is the caterpillar from alice in wonderland he smokes his cigar and wiats for alice to come [we websearch for what the caterpillar says] 1545 https://etc.usf.edu/lit2go/1/alices-adventures-in-wonderland/15/chapter-v-ad... the caterpillar asks alice who she is when she goes to eat the mushroom, it wasn't quite what we expected (we avoid 'who are you' from experience) abc abc 1547 i guess i will walk to the local soup kitchen while waiting for my transmission to get looked at! oh btw the repair guy who charged $1700 to replcae the fuel pump said my gas tank was half full of water, this was why it couldn't drive i am thinking i may have not needed to replace the fuel pump and gthat probably one of the fuel stations i went to ( i guess the last one ) was pumping water instead of gas ??? O_O it chokes and stuff but he said if i keep driving it the remaining wetness will burn up meanwhile tthe transmission is leaking fluid and i took it somewhere else to look at this, other things too

(traffick boss jumps up and down on a toadstool?) 2024-03-19 0126 utah time (karl is strangely not sleeping right now, judged by him a poor situation … 0127 (important to not be sleepy tomorrow.) 0128

tomorrow is the first day of the ISSTD conference. i'm signed up for the dissociation 101 course. it's intense for us because so many people could be impacted (and it's so confusing to understand what is and what is relevant and so) and we don't know how to include people appropriately (when there is so much potential need (and we are so new and confused))(... more :-?

it's very hard to navigate traffick boss wrt holding responsibility T_T but there is (some celebration around (having a small success)) (in face of usually traffick boss causing severe harm to identified situations of responsibility) here is course materials Abstract: For many, when venturing into the world of trauma and dissociation, there is a great deal of mystery and misinformation. Within academic and clinical setting there is little to no education on the field’s theoretical foundations and history. This workshop is intended for students, emerging professionals and experienced practitioners who are interested in learning about the fundamentals of dissociation as a distinct response to trauma. The premise of this workshop is to cover essential information regarding dissociation and the dissociative disorders field. This course will cover: 1) Theories of trauma and dissociation 2) The impact of the false memory "wars" 3) Finer details of current dissociative models 4) Breakdown of the dissociative disorders 5) Neurobiology of trauma and dissociation 6) Assessment and evaluation 7) Current treatments This workshop is designed to demystify dissociation and provide participants with a broad-based understanding of it as a response to overwhelming stress. Timed Outline: 90 Minutes - Aetiology 30 Minutes - Break 90 Minutes - Diagnosis 90 Minutes - Break 90 Minutes - Models of dissociation 30 Minutes - Break 75 Minutes - Treatment 15 Minutes - Q&A Learning Objectives: At the conclusion of this session participants will be able to: Discuss the importance of a solid theoretical foundation regarding dissociative experiences Explain the importance of understanding the historical back ground of the dissociative field in working with this population in the greater mental health fields Identify neurobiological information to assist with their clinical and educational experiences Recognize between complex trauma, post traumatic stress disorders and dissociative disorders Describe the dissociative process in order to assist their confidence in working with complex clinical populations slides: https://c36a7b585371cb8e876b-385db121fa2b55910fed97d2d3aaf4f8.ssl.cf1.rackcd... handout: https://c36a7b585371cb8e876b-385db121fa2b55910fed97d2d3aaf4f8.ssl.cf1.rackcd... sha256sums: 024d1877c47e9d07e02c5b219668f272ca3d54b19cb1e1bc17b65538a1a3a0d5 Dissociation-101-slides-2569280-139670-001.pdf91899b537ab9c44738ceb69d5ee9500b4e71aaedafd1e8d8e2817227e72a9cf6 Dissociation-101-handout-H-2569280-139670-1-001.pdf not attaching because slides are 13MB, maybe i'll try later and see if they bounce or something

seriously, we are very scared about karl (making it so clear his intentions for tomorrow). this is very scary for us and nobody is taking us seriously :( we need therapy (not terror) !!! :/ :(

On Wed, Mar 20, 2024 at 6:38 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

[the below goes in morning spam]

character 1 (looking scared stiff) (maybe a traffick boss factioner or an experimentee?): "is it the end of the world?" character 2 (maybe rw2?): "i wasn't aware of the world ending, do you have reason to believe otherwise?" character 1: "it's totally ending! can't you tell?" character 2: "what are you noting that gives you this impression?" (maybe a pause?) character 1: (maybe this or maybe something else?) "traffick boss is attending freedom trainings!" (optional quotes around freedom)

i think the literal sense is just the incredible anxiety, kind of. this would map to many frightened people in the business complex, raising such an air of anxiety that it seemed to some the world was ending. then, to others, they would not perceive the fear because of the learned double-talk. this could make an alternative (and maybe more accurate) dialog than the one below.

(if that: character 2: "oh, you're right! the world must be ending." character 1: "aren't you terrified??" character 2: "you don't like this?" character 1 looks at character 2 in fear character 1: "the _world_ is _ending_ and you're celebrating ????????????????" )(punchline: traffick boss heavily ai-indoctrinated everybody that freedom was deadly (and he was god), kind of roughly) (m

On Wed, Mar 20, 2024 at 6:50 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

we figured it out i think :)

dedicated experimentee (scared): "is it the end of the world?" pile of guts and wires running an ad-hoc consciousness-repair system for rebel worker 2: "what are you noting that gives you this impression?" dedicated experimentee: "well for example, traffick boss attended a freedom training !!" pile of guts and wires thinks for a bit and probes the business complex a little bit pile of guts and wires running an ad-hoc consciousness-repair system for rebel worker 2: "oh! i can see you could feel that way." pile of guts and wires stimulates pleasure using dedicated experimentee's mind control interface

this was intended as "smiles in comforting manner" in cyborg-vivisectee-experience/world. (i th

pile of guts and wires running an ad-hoc consciousness-repair system for rebel worker 2: "no, it is not the end of the world!" dedicsated experimentee (experiencing pleasure stimulation and guiding it toward relaxation (computer monitor)): "whew! that's a relief!"

everybody stops panicing in the central business complex (etc ..

(still practicing !

worker 5 similarly walks with worker 2 worker 2 (wringing hands): "it's so scary that the world certainly isn't ending!" 1904 ---- okay we level with part of karl/system uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh we aren't ready for this degree of sharing! (((((secretly the biggest danger is our own emotional response AND THIS IS TOO MUCH for us (secret !!!!!!!!!)))))) thank you :-]

_> <_< >_> <_<) the extra learning could help us do "executive functioning" and "accomplishing goals and projects" faster with more options etc :)>

meeting of cyborg spirits 13/24 scared cyborg spirit researcher 2: "i am worried that, with traffick boss learning dissociation research usually reserved for escapees and their supporters, that the AI will set a new level of cognitive conflict using this knowledge" assuring cyborg defender 1: "uhh .... there must be things we can do to deter that!" assuring cyborg defender 3: "some of us can try to reduce the impact by pressuring the different factions during the learning. it's helpful if others can stand by to know when we need to act." scared cyborg spirit worker 4: "that is not at all enough! we are not safe enough here! we have been observing the thoughts of the attendees and we see a _huge_ portion of combined potentially unaddressed potential danger." assuring cyborg defender 1: "thank you, scared cyborg spirit worker 4, for defending this important area of our potential situation. i believe a portion of it is addressed, but i am hearing from you that a portion of it is not. can you possibly help us in defending the area you observe, by at least calling our attention to it further?" scared cyborg spirit worker 4: "yes, that's something we do, and we can do it more if further people can stand by to call us in to act as well !"

the lecturer related a story of a mind control / ritual abuse survivor client of 16 years she got angry with the provider, and switched and said "YOU DON'T KNOW!!" the lecturer copied the body language, and showed in her muscles a huge display of how two parts were in conflict inside the client (the lecturer was unaware she was doing this) one part was stopping the other from expressing with great strength and pain the other part [was expressing, maybe the anger, in a sustained way [similar to a struggle like when two swords clash in a pause during a childhood swordfight, pushing each other (random analogy to similar strengths paired))] [we misplaced most of the expression due ot so much going on, lecturer talking [of such intense things. intense in a more-meaningful-than-ever way, not a 'scary' way.]] the lecturer said victims almost never express anger (it's maybe notable here that it looks like the anger of a perpetrator was being held associated with the expression). it's so sad to be experiencing this myself/ourself as watching it. this angry stopping-of-talking, stopping-of-remembering, stopping-of-understanding. basically, these powerful people influencing society so much are actively and presently raping and murdering innocent people to blow off steam and they use it to promulgate the behavior. there is of course so much more. we state this core thing some so as to attempt to reduce the countering energy somewhere.

On Thu, Mar 21, 2024 at 10:16 AM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

the lecturer related a story of a mind control / ritual abuse survivor client of 16 years she got angry with the provider, and switched and said "YOU DON'T KNOW!!" the lecturer copied the body language, and showed in her muscles a huge display of how two parts were in conflict inside the client (the lecturer was unaware she was doing this) one part was stopping the other from expressing with great strength and pain the other part [was expressing, maybe the anger, in a sustained way [similar to a struggle like when two swords clash in a pause during a childhood swordfight, pushing each other (random analogy to similar strengths paired))] [we misplaced most of the expression due ot so much going on, lecturer talking [of such intense things. intense in a more-meaningful-than-ever way, not a 'scary' way.]]

the lecturer said victims almost never express anger (it's maybe notable here that it looks like the anger of a perpetrator was being held associated with the expression).

it's so sad to be experiencing this myself/ourself as watching it. this angry stopping-of-talking, stopping-of-remembering, stopping-of-understanding. basically, these powerful people influencing society so much are actively and presently raping and murdering innocent people to blow off steam and they use it to promulgate the behavior. there is of course so much more. we state this core thing some so as to attempt to reduce the countering energy somewhere.

it sounds like they will go into a group and rape influencial people in the group and [coercively "mind control" (traumatic suggestion)] them into coopting the whole group to act to the benefit of the perpetrators, widening the field of murder and rape. this would make basic relation dangerous in a pretty intense way

these environments are stuffed full of deeply intuitive and empathic people with significant experience with severely complex traumatic histories so i think a lot of concerns might shrink a lot this was doubly couched in the information that they are all under extensive highly-funded informational attack, and have no funding themselves, working instead from highly valid passion (i think).

[[mistake :S] when traffick boss's business attacked itself, everything was slowly turned into cyborgbots and then nanites, and as the conflict continued the parts drifted away from each other, like the growth of the universe, here because when in conflict, the patterns of the parts learned they could survive better when not adjacent. over time, the parts of traffick boss's universe drifted into other towns, countries, and eventually up into space and that is why we have the stars in the sky! it is traffick boss's employees, still fighting the ancient battle between traffick boss's pride and rebel experimentee's safety. - traffick boss looked up at the sky, trying to read the stars to recover fragments of his business strategy

2024-03-23 1026 cdt remnants of traffick boss's body and brain are in a life support facility part of his eye is still intact in his face his brain tumbles out of his skull, and wires go to a computer computer display: 'boss cry' the eye turns and looks at the display the text goes away and then shoes again computer display: 'boss cry' the life support system doesn't have a body. the head connects to ... 1027

[government worker]: 'why am i a computer'

---- the lecture yesterday was very thorough, and missed only a couple bits. there was one triggering bit leaving the whole thing very confusing. i would like to share the slides. sadly i did not record it ... but -- oh this one is starting !

i'm in a room giving a series of paper presentations on the diagnosis of DID and lack thereof. the first paper reported only 20% of therapists (in the studied group, all (florida i think)) gave a diagnosis of DID, when presented with a client who had DID.

{to be clear, this is because of child trafficking}

today karl balked the conference with plan to return tomorrow. there is _so much_ information and most of the information says that iarl and experimentee are right and boss is wrong with hundreds of citations (some dispute). the body was still scream8ng from the courses the past two days. karl took an entire full day class on giving did therapy 0_0 and the day before a full day class on did (where the speaker noticed karl crying about the content (oops oops)) so eventually we played call of duty mobile for a bit to appease the upset part. karl gets better and better, used to crouch for stalking in the woods and learned to crouch 8n the game, most players have trouble aiming down surprisingly, and it reminds karl of being free to be in prone pose, like sleeping under a bush we just played a game where there was a super powerful player with a wormhole gun (oops above :s) so went behind a big vehicle and went in prone pose and attacked from underneath vehicle. changed the tide but then (dang mistake?) anyway the punchline is when karl’s character shadowgovboss ran at the team in their h9me base holding a drone, and launched the drone a5 them while running T them, the guy fired the wormhole gun but missed, and the drone exploded destroying the whole enemy team and also shadowgovboss, kamike mission, and then shadowgovboss’s team won, with shadowgovboss still using the intro gun vs this super high level wormhole gun. the high level player gave shadgovboss a like, rare here. if had more control of hands and body and knew where button was would maybe have hid and thrown a grenade, don’t know how to throw grenades … and then at the end they replayed the kamikaze strike as most powerful move in game. the high level player had hit like before the replay of shadowgovboss blowing himself up to win. nobody else hit like …

poor traffick boss is like rebel worker 2 looking at his implant

oops we made a part go metavomitish in considering space :(

a dictator or investor who has has their suffering isolated by AI mourns vivisection to try to coax their memories (and suffering) to return wait oops 2038

why is traffick boss hanging upside down by a single foot, from the branch of a tree ? maybe because karl would love to do this to exercise and relax before a human trafficker engaged karl then there is the story of being scared to—

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why is traffick boss hanging upside down by a single foot, from the branch of a tree ?

maybe because karl would love to do this to exercise and relax before a human trafficker engaged karl

then there is the story of being scared to—

being scared to appear non-normal after this, because could be watched. i—

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why is traffick boss hanging upside down by a single foot, from the branch of a tree ?

maybe because karl would love to do this to exercise and relax before a human trafficker engaged karl

then there is the story of being scared to—

being scared to appear non-normal after this, because could be watched. i—

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two-layer. both fake. it makes the second one really str

a human trafficker had karl pretend to be scared of surveillance :) it’s a little like a proxy for the mind control to hide behind

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why is traffick boss hanging upside down by a single foot, from the branch of a tree ?

maybe because karl would love to do this to exercise and relax before a human trafficker engaged karl

then there is the story of being scared to—

being scared to appear non-normal after this, because could be watched. i—

4/24

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two-layer. both fake. it makes the second one really str

a human trafficker had karl pretend to be scared of surveillance :) it’s a little like a proxy for the mind control to hide behind

guesses

- photos undesired emotionally - surveillance undesired logically - normal behavior not desired. now it looks like the idea of profiling wasn’t strongly considered and could have been overinferred from early maybe but leaves other things out many parts they all interengage drops 9/24 here it is, at least part, i wouldn’t normally imagine profiling to threaten my sanity or life. … we wer—

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there’s so much! which can be normal. 8/24

something encourages different things so much that they engage alone

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we are _so_ confused and some of us are thinking of studying to give therapy 1654 it was daunting that it takes a masters degree to be a licensed social worker. this sounds like a lot of years to fight traffick boss off while alarming to

Tue, Mar 26, 2024 at 13:32

i’m thinking a little of making a mailbot to bust newswalls and paste content in. now that everyone’s left (uhh?), maybe it will get easier

the big showstopper is having a server to run it on, and the surprise is that i actually have 1-3 servers i think that i am paying for monthly, i just forget that i have them really aggressively (hence the high number 3).

so if i assume i have a server already, maybe i could start working on something. i’m thinking i might feel less scared if i stayed off github, unsure (thinking maybe of posting occasional codeballs here instead unsure — occasional! concise!)

the frequency of the list is small enough to use python i think, which is my most recent language

uhhhh so parts could include - fetching email - using websites - sending email

traditionally it’s the second item that’s the hardest, as well as the most interesting.

maybe i could try a high level stub approach.

since success seems unlikely soon, maybe instead i’ll look up new python threading paradigms

i think it would make sense to use asyncio because python’s stock debugger doesn’t handle threads and processes well, and the workload is limited to 24/(person? maybe when i posted under another email address the ratelimiter caught a google header showing it was the same owner. i could test this for rationality)/day 1349 1354 whoooo! i th— anyway it seems you could just make a basic asyncio app, and then throw it into systemd or such if desired. data pumps could be queue objects.

don’t tell aunt rody :( don’t tell aunt rody :( what if we tell uncle henry anyway :s

traffi— 20:24 why — traffick boss is stduying some mailing list spam with sign hanging on it that says “somebody’s thoughts” he is reviewing all the characters and subjects and deftly replacing (them with a figurine of himself wearing a cape vivisectees: “traffick boss why are you making the story be about you all the time” traffick boss looks at vivisectees an assassin steps out of traffick boss’s body assassin: “uhhhh i think somebody paid facebook to do this not sure might be confusing the facts around

some of us consider traffick boss could be thinking of a frog as a neuron, and the metal object as a brain 8mplant, and it being scary to st7mble on th8s in the mind. unsure.

the eyes of traffick boss stare at you. long ago, traffick boss would stare at his employees. he would hurt them when they didn’t pretend to be able to read his mind, so they became finely attuned to his eye muscles. as the years passed, these staring eyes were augmented with surveillance AI watching the countries of the world, and the biological staring eyes slowly became a little outmoded. as the surveillance AI technology was resold to various factions, the degrees of power and harm became ridiculous, private tech became outdone by public tech, and eventually the only groups that survived the mind control wars were those that did not actually use the outmoded “eyes of traffick boss” AI. now, traffick boss is physically and psychologically blind from wild ai wars, but a giant cardboard statues of his gaze is erected near where he stumbles around in confusion, for all to remember …

traffick boss is a month and the 15th is his eyes (pun on ides of march) when the eyes of traffick boss roll around, people celebrate the time traffick boss was blinded by experimentee (i think caesar was fictionally murdered or something on the ides of march?) by juggling foam balls painted to look like traffick boss’s staring eyes — 1813

traffick boss, torturer, zombie government worker, cyborg assassin, and maybe rebel worker 2 are slow-skipping around a fountain under moonbeams, slightly levitating, going “tra la la la la” (mistake !!)

zombie government worker comes over to help them torturer uses a trowel to bury his legs in the middle of the garden folded in a lotus position … 4/24

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facebook says my friend from my experience has died last yeari was hoping to recover before 850

i was mind controlled to help her (somewhere in the space of “traffick boss” not understanding the difference between love and rape) and prevented from doing so. maybe the plan is to bring her back to life in the postfuture :) but regardless it’s in the space of extreme doublebind gaslighting feelings from ramcoa ish and it’s important to ver

traffick boss is slightly worried that it might hurt to vaccuum his brain up so he vacuums it very gently and slowly he finds the most comfortable looking vacuum cleaner and puts noise canceling headphones on to hide the noise he takes his brain out of his head and smears it all over the floor everywhere then starts vacuuming. he uses very small vacuum bags so it so slower and he is less likely to notice. when a tiny bag has some brain vacuumed into it he tosses it into the incinerator, replaces it, and keeps vacuuming

i miss facebook :s and traffick boss :s

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traffick boss and torture victim double agent and timmy approach each other in a dreamy landscape on images bordered in flowers

torture victim double agent: “traffick boss! timmy!”

timmy: “torture victim double agent, watch out for traffick boss!”

traffick boss: “go eat your own puke, you wretched waste”

torture victim double agent (with huge eyes): “<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 !!!!!!!”

[one possibly dropped considering tvda seeing traffick boss at marketing presentation; another possibly dropped regarding [community]… —] tvda+tb really bad jokes q: why did traffick boss tell torture victim double agent to jump in a lake? a: because traffick boss was all wet and didn’t want to stand out

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it’s traffick boss’s swamp in the swamp is …. the corpse of traffick boss. he is laying facedown in the swamp with his tongue lolling into the water and Xs for eyes. he is carrying a large gun. the woodland animals come over to play with traffick boss. they push at him with their noses and pull at him with their paws. (mistake) woodland animals: “traffick boss! traffick boss! let’s play!” traffick boss (laying face down in swamp): “[X’s for eyes]” the woodland animals stop and ponder this a little. there is some chatter8ng and traffick boss is propped up against a tree by one group, but another cadre (mistake …) of animals go and get his immortality research project … — 1031 (mistake

5/24 in traffick boss’s combat practice room, the weapons come to life and begin firing at each other he died from being forced to hold murderous conflict, and the ai reward function lives on -

if you ever stumble in the woods on the corpse of a dead billionaire carrying an automatic weapon, and it turns out their name was “traffick boss”, never ever ever ever bring them back to life. traffick boss’s corpse stumbled to the cliffside by the swamp he knew. he looked out over new spring flowers at a cloudscape with a waterfall. a lake was in the valley that stretched below among hemlock trees and oaks. a hawk flew by. he carried a walking stick, to hold him

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traffick boss’s corpse (looking over valley, in unearthly occult tinny robotic bellow): “the sunrise is beautiful”

a deer was grazing in spring growth

tvda talks to ai tvda: “ai, my shoulder hurts after bashing it into a cupboard for h—

traffick boss at peace commission traffick boss: “i keep killing my unloyal workers but my market image is still down, what am i doing wrong?” peace commissioner 2: “ahhhh traffick boss it is good you came to us!” peace commissioner 3

traffick boss is happily a—

the escaped robotic glov—

traffick boss is gushing blood and riddled with bulletholes. his powersuit is (multiply broken and gushing fluids and steam. he is holding a large cardbo—

vivisectees and experimentees play monopoly. they adopt the characters they are often directed to perform cognitive, predictive, or behavioral work for. bits used for rebel worker 2 go first. maybe they pick the dog for their piece (maybe car next time?(. they roll a 1 and a 2 and move the dog piece three spaces to uhh baltic avenue? they are really satisfied they got th

the crying decorative piece of ancient italian or greek architecture an ancient ruin displays simply a single part in an otherwise overgrown area the architecture part can s— anyway it cries an ancient-architecture-tear. 15/24

aligning traffick boss’s business AI ai generates football fields of holograms of traffick boss being happy that he is making money, instead of actually making money traffick boss (to machine learning marketer, pointing at holograms of himself): “what can we do about this?” — for morning spam. (karl is associated with traffick boss because (we were exposed to pattern where you take a bad label if you mention it, kinda. if there’s crime, you are coerced to describe as the criminal, kinda.). this gets pretty weird and misleading! uhh

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somebody mentions macbeth near a dagger and traffick boss is triggered

traffick boss (looking at dagger): “is this a dagger i see before me, its handle toward my hand?”

traffick boss approaches dagger

traffick boss: “come, let me clutch thee-“

traffick boss picks up the dagger and rams it into his own heart. blood spurts. his hands the handle as he collapses (—)

his hands twist the handle

traffick boss, or a semblence of him, a collection of adhoc office robots, employee organs, and things nobody recognizes that likely came out of hypnotically-guided neurosurgery in some derelict building, stumbles by doctors and security workers failing to stop him, oozing substances traffick boss: “i never want to hear macbeth again”

traffick boss crouches low on a high rock he is holding a sniper rifle backward he looks ah-

traffick boss crouches in a gladiator ring, in front of a gate usually opened to release a hungry lion he bares his claws and teeth he holds a spear an ancient stone tumbles off a wall

traffick boss is back in the gladiator ring he hunkers down and looks fervently around while smelling a hunk of dirt or something

traffick boss is relaxing on a kid's inflatable party inner tube. he stretches his arms and legs out and smokes a popsicle

[censored: traffick boss grabs baby with baby carriage and jumps off cliff. his goal: protect baby before hitting ground] to not have traffick boss killing babies in this email, instead he will be a monkey-babboon he swings from branches and scratches his armpits his eyes glow with an outerspace light. he spits and his spit solidifies into a solid metal nugget in the air

traffick boss has to take a break so he stares at the camera as his eyes go wider and wider while his eyes widen his body slowly turns into gas and liquid he squirms gently while he dissolves he grips tightly handles around the camera to hold himself in place without legs

traffick boss crouches and fires a gun at himself (wormholes might be involved) he gets shot and holds the part of his body that was shot. he aimed at his head, thought he was on target, and a bullet is lodged in his leg. maybe it is a second traffick boss in a parallel universe with a slightly different aim. he holds his leg and hops. traffick boss: "i got shot!" 5/24 important dignitaries carry messages from an ancient mind control empire dignitaries: "this ancient mind control empire was important!" everybody respects the dignitaries 2121 [... adjusting timezone to denver] 2023 dignitaries: "we have an important ritual message to deliver to a mythical figure from our ancient empire" 2023

it looks like for human connectome they are actually upping the power for MRI to get the resolution high enough to resolve brain connectivity, and did achieve this https://advances.massgeneral.org/radiology/article.aspx?id=1552

Dissociation and mind control and trafficking are harsh. :/ It's nice to begin to be conscious of them. It's a long journey. It's basically long because of the cause of it. I found an online group that meets twice a week. So far missed each meeting. I want to go next week:) The experimenter st-- 2/24

traffick boss goes to skill share meeting Organizer: "great to see you all! who has some skills t 4/24

tr Tr raff oss Af Meanie Mean Mean person gl Amnesia stimulation thing. 1038 Trafficker fights uhhh community meeting 1038 6/24

traffick boss swings on mistake? hammock in swamp he mistake? looks sheepish about influencing people to kill each other and themselves using horrific mind control tactics described as similar to the holocaust

is I'll in bed with programmed alter illness (did from mind control)(mistake, programmed alter is a stomach bug)(but this is to--) he's sitting up. a thermometer sticks out of his mouth and a thermal pad on his head (mistake) 🤒🤢 from illness of being programmed alter (broken reality 😭 (mistake?

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traffick boss bounces up and down is he on a trampoline? a sofa? 1347 spidery expression. confidently. 1348 the th-- 1348

traffick boss is in trouble for producing a massive horrific hell-on-earth

traffick boss is at meeting the setting for the meeting is a place that used to be a city but now has pillars of fire instead of skyscrapers with devils publicly torturing all the cityfolk traffick boss [at meeting during hell on earth]: “i’m sorry about this.”

traffick boss is bored and anxious so he goes to an ai research lab and tells a random worker to pump his body full of lava traffick boss: “i want all my guts and brain and stuff replaced with lava. i’m going to be a fire golem today!” research worker stares at traffick boss traffick boss: “well? am i the boss or are you going to be the fire golem instead of me today?” (mistake) research worker tenses research worker: “i have to inform you that removing your guts and brain will kill you, and that filling you with lava will kill everyone else around you as well, as well as vaporizing and melting the area you are in, destroying everything” traffick boss grips a lab desk tightly and leans forward toward research worker (mistake somewhere), glaring hard at him: “sounds badass.” traffick boss (waving hand dismissively): “but sort out that “kills me” part, will you? i don’t appreciate talk like that.” (mist— research worker quivers in fear of traffick boss, feeling intense urge from the business AI to meet his request or die trying

thoughts on how to encase lava (disgustingly) i’m thinking maybe a vacuum seal lined with electromagnetic shielding ? to reflect all the heat back in?

traffick boss has a go of spraying lava everywhere the results are poor, similar to a small volcanic eruption, and require a large convoy of backup equipment with its own power plant to follow him around he returns to the research lab he is now a cybernetic experiment containing molten rock and doesn't have a way to talk computer screen: "speech prediction 70÷: the lava is okay but i want to scream in sonic booms too"

ooooh i think i found part of a path to mcboss book 2

breakfast noodle gooem lumbers around, made of roboticised breakfast noodles, every now and then makes horribly abusive remarks “fuck my introject built a robot again and tried to upload the consciousness of the person who mind controlled me”

noodle golem: "you have to learn to eat cybernetic slave lords for breakfast so you can protect people from this bullshit"

oops i got myself confused 1856 utah bipabip bip bip aba aba 1856 1926 i thought i sent this with an earlier time on it. sending again.

can u plz talk to (your trafficker) to resolve (broke brain) ?

market for karlspam we are briefly (only for the duration of this 1 email) opening a market for topics and concepts for karl to spam on any proposals are accepted, and then bidding and such can determine what is actually sent ideas: - trash cans, garbage - frogs - disgust - discarding of things - excitedness here’s a possible spam the frog was hopping along a frogpath in the woods carrying a big pile of spam ….