[crazy][spam][notes] microstrategies (micriopeace)

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

this is important to me because part of my mind behaves like an
automated goal process regarding using strategies of changing my
behavior without relating with my thoughts. i understand this may be
common with dissociative disorder. the problem is that i make poor
decisions and significantly worsen the situation for myself. it’s very
hard for me to conceive of structures and decisions that are not in
conflict. it’s counter to the dissociative separation, i get myself
very mentally injured, establishing a norm of conflict in my mind
where my own parts, me and the other thing in me, try to act to harm
each other, simply by having established the habit.

it’s very hard to step out of this because when pressure reduces on
one side the other side can try to use it to take advantage.

this is similar to two autonomous agents that are assuming the other
will act counter to their goals.

in such a situation, things can change significantly. and one can show
this clearly with logical structures. fighting is a+=B. but other
behaviors are b++. note that if one agent performs b++ at a time when
another agent wants a higher A, the other agent gets closer to their
goal with no energy or time expended at all on their part.