https://ar.anyone.tech/6cb-OyzPFi1nJYZ-uHAHH2uwoCbosf0AQuS_qGEgBXY#-U_3AcjRg... https://ar.anyone.tech/WQnYlm58fO0G-zFK2kCBkdvTL0mT8P2xH6TdTDV9CGc
i may end up running mbsync by hand. anyway ...!
so. in the 2010s there was a tiny newsitem that this chinese grad student or such had applied ICA to video and found you could use it to measure pulse ox parameters pretty simply.
heartpulse app is an attempt to make a mobile app that shows this--
[noting some inhibition experiences, they describe observing people's pulses with video as evil or creepy and focus on amplifying the evilness judgements and associated stoppingness with the behavior, rather than relating around responsible implementation or use.]
--using normal optimization procedures for mobile tech demos at the time.
this pursuit roughly ended my life of optimizing algorithms.
https://ar.anyone.tech/06A3e23wXYwcR-RnGF_IKnPhi8krLWBohpzY9wBn80c#UR5xrZOsJ... https://ar.anyone.tech/S1UTv6HrFilwXUxuDXIGpHOvISG62oG_CdzYJakyUHs
more creepiness amplification.
of course the problems are in the tech work, not the release or use, it is now what i am navigating. suddenly i am realizing that it's use of full-imate averages means a person so far away they are only a single pixel could have their heartbeat reported clearly to a user--
[would send here but that would mean waiting for mbsync ...]
now feeling kind of nauseaus and having a different kind of dissociation ...
taking;some time.
so it's very powerful, the stoppingness, but it's illogical because it is talking about things i am not doing, such as _using_ or _sharing_ an app i _have not started_ that uses _generally useful technology_ (that is also quite old now).
here we kinda see my habit of arguing with my experiences. they raise strong reasons that are likely insufficiently true -- they act for goals moreso. getting hard to be rational and consistent.
https://ar.anyone.tech/LswTA4aAbQVRCoGZXTzvDMcbvad92J4cBdUDLffgfY8#aKzQ_aLgg... https://ar.anyone.tech/Dvb-DfTjw5VVfh7S2Y5wwOoWico8DY_rjzO4x-r0W9c
very tense now. usually i get farther than this.
i think an argument is what i feel like here.
I don't think this is bad. I don't think I am bad. If I could be bad I am happy to limit this, but you never respond to that.
It responds better to me saying I am not bad' It's less worried ir a non-bad thing has the thing it's referring to. It doesn't seem to be aware of the difference between pursuing a large project (my life experience) and having the result (absent from my life).
..
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in the details of the final paragraph above are behaviors that let me consider it could be designed to stop things aggressively in conflicts or such similar to a strategy game. (...) this may be one of the places things like "military" and "competitors" and "AI" emerge from. it seems like it's trying to maximize relative technology/research power while lacking sufficient information in some manner and/or with excess resources letting it act early without consequence.
whewwwwwww some parts dropped. still got some of the strong dissociation which is coming together as a process for harming the task.
so heartpulse, partly ibtroduced above, simplifies to a task of optimizing and hardware accelerating ICA _based on an understanding of ICA_. The app itself has;been made by others in the decades since the news article, and I've been given the opportunity to make one 2-3 times over years at high points, contrary to the dialog above. But I'm still trying to do the algorithmics. [strange confusing spot, maybe a reminder that the app is not for use but for skill, at this point skill rexocery.] *recovery
https://ar.anyone.tech/yYCz9PNR58vqF0oJI0bivwVmiOJ4Nn3Bcelast6ynVw#j1dSORCMP... https://ar.anyone.tech/t_0UFmo0nYrMZrvyIqby3eTV-xSE4vgThsSqbi5FKjs
some upsetness the challenge is not for economic gain. so let's skip to this: you're not going to like it for more reasons than just that. but without all the influence it's just a simple algorithm task, it is a little deep inside weird intermediate-level areas of math and computer science and such. now i dunno why you might not like that stuff. but sometimes that can seem to be the issue. and when we get to a spot, it's generally extremely hard for me and i start trying to push through it in spammy laborious microsteps. also normal for me, just a task closer to my inhibitions, likely cause i hold it as the litmus test. https://ar.anyone.tech/Ktgtg2uyYl7bQqkEhApVkCGVZi0EpPRPMKU4QXEH4Oo#STcOlX11A... https://ar.anyone.tech/8qGktaPdZnrs1L4dgXW2gcHu6iQL-A6D_zRkBfWVCQc I am not affiliated with https://ar.anyone.tech .