[ot][journal][personal][crazy] trying to write something clearer :)

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

one of the things i enjoy nowadays is submitting patches on github and
waiting to get a reply (or fork the repository if i have the gusto! an
open sourcer recommended that to me.). the dopamine drop of having
your contribution merged in seems similar to buying a small new
product after joining capitalism.

i might guess i submit about a patch a week, might be an overestimate
maybe a [--scared re joining-capitalism-expression]