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[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

On Mon, Dec 11, 2023 at 16:58 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim &
Survivor of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:

> [i should have done the queen’s side castle because it traps their queen,
> when i instead moved the queen and my finger slipped with dissociation. i
> wasn’t aware of this, and they didn’t defend against it sufficiently when
> my slip gave them the opportunity to. rather, i then responded to their
> attempt to push my knight by pressing the queen to protect the knight. —
>
> the finger slip stimulated a situation that revealed why not to move my
> queen where i was planning to.]
>
possible mistake

>
> On Mon, Dec 11, 2023 at 16:52 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim &
> Survivor of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>
>> 14/24
>>
>> On Mon, Dec 11, 2023 at 16:43 Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim &
>> Survivor of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>>
>>> this is a chess game where i won against someone of much higher rating
>>> than me:
>>>
>>> [Site "https://chess.org/play/cf645a4f-4446-4a83-b2fd-919727966f32"]
>>> [Event "Chess"]
>>> [Variant "Standard"]
>>> [Round "1"]
>>> [Date "2023.12.11"]
>>> [TimeControl "2m +2s"]
>>> [White "RaZacek"]
>>> [Black "baffo32_lo"]
>>> [WhiteElo "1686"]
>>> [BlackElo "1370"]
>>> [Result "0-1"]
>>>
>>> 1. d4 e5 2. dxe5 d6 3. exd6 Bxd6 4. Nf3 Nc6 5. Nc3 Bf5 6. e4 Qe7 7. Bd3
>>> Nb4 8. O-O Bg4 9. Be2 Qe6 10. a3 O-O-O 11. Qe1 Nxc2 0-1
>>>
>>> chess is now a scarred mental battlefield for me. i’ve spent time
>>> playing chess puzzles and my otherness has spent time stimulating failures
>>> in me despite this. a lot of time on both of these! my rating has dropped
>>> on average in p2p and risen in the puzzles some i’d suspect.
>>>
>>> i totally smashed this game! partly luck, partly skill. i thought i
>>> might consider reviewing it a little.
>>>
>>> 13/24 1413
>>>
>>> # apk add gnuchess
>>>
>>> 1418 the apk add command ended up being a little more complicated,
>>> involving ish crashing repeatedly, anyway
>>>
>>> 1444
>>>
>>> how do i do fixed width font in gmail ipad app, or how else do i access
>>> email?
>>>
>>> 1446
>>>
>>> maybe i’ll go on website
>>>
>>> 1504
>>>
>>> yayy fixed width
>>>
>>> back to responsive app?
>>>
>>> 1505
>>>
>>> 1506
>>>
>>> yayy fixed width in app. less responsive though.
>>>
>>> 1509
>>>
>>> echo -e 'e4\nquit' | gnuchess -q --manual --graphic | tac | sed 's/ /.
>>> /g'
>>> [note the board is mirrored from tac, a usual board would have the king
>>> and queen swapped]
>>>
>>>   ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>>   ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>>   . . . . . . . .
>>>   . . . ♙ . . . .
>>>   . . . . . . . .
>>>   . . . . . . . .
>>>   ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>>   ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ ♝ ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i was black. white opened with their queen’s pawn. i usually use a
>>> well-known midgrade opening i forget the name of that i learned at a summer
>>> camp.
>>> noting: since they opened with their queen’s pawn, i get to free my
>>> bishop and queen, as well as optionally pin a piece on their king
>>>
>>>
>>> pawn forward 2
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♙ . . . .
>>> . . . . ♟ . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ ♝ ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> pawn takes pawn
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ ♝ ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> pawn forward 1
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . ♟ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ ♝ ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> pawn takes pawn
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♙ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ ♝ ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> bishop takes pawn
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ ♘ ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> this theoretically exchanges position in my benefit for pieces in
>>> theirs; i spend my years trying to figure out how the heck to take
>>> advantage of it. one of the last exchanges i had regarding this at that
>>> summer camp was something like “why does this opening never work against
>>> you (the person who taught it to me)” “because you never make use of it,
>>> karl”
>>>
>>>
>>> white next brought their king’s knight out. (i wonder what they were
>>> planning or thinking. it could have been a habit to threaten or guard a
>>> missing pawn in the middle.)
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ ♞ ♝ ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>
>> maybe they were erring in the side of threatening spaces my advanced
>> bishop could otherwise make use of.
>>
>>
>>> i brought out the opposing knight on my queen’s side. this threatens the
>>> same central spaces their knight does, and also moves toward the more
>>> difficult queen’s-side castle. i’m not sure what specifically my reasoning
>>> was, but i’ve been exploring different things.
>>>
>>> ♖ ♘ ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . . . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . ♝ ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> something i’ve been thinking of here is -  well
>>>
>>>
>>> they brought out their opposite knight, so maybe this is just how they
>>> like to open, or maybe it is some standard approach
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . ♝ ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> i then brought out my bishop. likely i was thinking of controlling the
>>> board safely and moving toward opening that queen’s side castle
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♙ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i think i move the second bishop out farther to maybe try to be more
>>> aggressive, remember that e-change at summer camp.
>>>
>> *exchange
>>
>>> when it’s on the other queen’s/king’s side it threatens a pawn that can
>>> be used for a checkmate, building what i’ve been calling initiative, giving
>>> the opponent fewer options and yourself more
>>>
>>>
>>> they moved their pawn forward 2 to threaten my overadvanced bishop
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . ♛ ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> and here’s where it started getting fancy, i moved my queen in front of
>>> my king (very dangerous!) to pin their pawn onto their king, so they
>>> couldn’t take the bishop, in an attempt to keep my positional and move
>>> investments.
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ ♗ . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i think once there are pins and things going on like this it starts
>>> taxing the players’ memories in competition, to remember all the concerns
>>> and dependencies.
>>> - they can’t use their pawn how they usually expect, so they have to put
>>> more cognition into things that involve it (it also pressure them to
>>> prioritize moving their king or engaging my queen to threaten my bishop
>>> again)
>>> - i lose my bishop if i move my queen; all the places it threatens
>>> aren’t actually threatened unless the value of moving there is more than a
>>> bishop, which i’m likely to not think of
>>> (i guess, maybe)
>>>
>>
>>> i likely tried this from the puzzles experience. i’m pretty vulnerable
>>> here in my opinion, but i think the unexpectedness and memory loading can
>>> also help me win sometimes.
>>>
>>> the behavior is sadly a habit i have, where i try running a bigger risk
>>> to see if it pans out later, kind of a little. intended only for play, not
>>> serious situations.
>>>
>>>
>>> they moved out their other bishop to defend the pawn. i forgot i could
>>> take it. that’s likely why i risked the queen, cause it let me threaten
>>> putting them in check, maybe
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ . . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ ♗ . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . ♞ ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> oh no … they were already threatening the pawn with their knight. maybe
>>> they were disincentivizing me from pinning their knight on their king with
>>> my bishop?
>>>
>>
>> no, if i took the pawn with the bishop, and they took it with the knight,
>> i think the queen could then take the knight, check, leaving me a pawn up
>> with initiative. the bishop response deters this.
>>
>>
>>> i advanced my knight likely to threaten their bishop and the pawn by
>>> their queen, dunno, but both of which were also in line with my scared
>>> bishop, tensely relying on their king not moving which would unpin the pawn
>>> that could take it
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ ♔ . . ♖
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ ♗ . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> noting my king is nicely freed by now to castle on the queen’s side too,
>>> and there aren’t any pawns between where my rook would land and their queen
>>> still is. maybe got more lucky in this game than skillful, unsure.
>>>
>>> [mistake][separately my memories of this game are worsened further from
>>> the mirroring]
>>>
>>>
>>> they castled on their king’s side, away from my advanced knight,
>>> threatening my bishop
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ ♗ . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . . .
>>> . . . . . ♝ . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>>
>>> i moved my bishop to a temporarily safer advancement, pinning their
>>> knight on their queen.
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . . ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ ♗ . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i might be thinking here that i need to collect pressure near their king
>>> to eventually checkmate them as well as build initiative, not sure. anyway
>>> it pins their knight which reduces their board control for one move at
>>> least i guess. often i have a habit of aggression in the hopes they get
>>> confused like me, maybe. people repeat what works.
>>>
>>> i recall i was pressuring their king.
>>>
>>>
>>> they retreated their bishop to unpin their knight
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ . . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . ♛ ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i’m guessing this meant i still had the initiative i was seeking because
>>> they responded to my move without gaining much position.
>>>
>>>
>>> here i think my finger actually slipped, possibly dissociatively, and i
>>> moved the queen forward one when i wasn’t planning to.
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> ♙ ♙ ♙ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> . . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ ♛ . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> this guards the bishop. i think i would usually have moved it forward
>>> two to threaten (and advertise this to the opponent) the checkmate pawn
>>> diagonal from the king.
>>>
>>> this surprise left me unbalanced and i was looking for how to regain
>>> more advantage.
>>>
>>> it’s so nice to review something with a dissociated confusion (i.e.
>>> amnesia, [maybe it’s hard to store memories when you’re regaining footing])
>>> in it! and we won! together! o_o :)
>>>
>>>
>>> they advanced their pawn 1 to threaten and push my knight to move.
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> . ♙ ♙ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> ♙ . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ ♛ . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> ♜ . . . ♚ . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> i might have felt a little excited here, as if it wasn’t enough of an
>>> initiative press back for me to lose mine. i had three diagonal pieces
>>> threatening near their king (if i get my queen defended on one of those
>>> pawns it’s checkmate, it could do that in 2 moves despite my slip) and the
>>> knight they were threatening was distant from them.
>>>
>>>
>>> i used my queen’s side castle to threaten revealing with my bishop, my
>>> rook against their queen. this meant my bishop could effectively make two
>>> moves in a row if they couldn’t regain initiative rescuing their queen.
>>> [possible mistake]
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ ♕ . ♖ ♔ .
>>> . ♙ ♙ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> ♙ . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ ♛ . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> . . ♚ ♜ . . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> notably i am now threatening taking their queen by moving the bishop to
>>> put them in check. this is another trick i learned from the puzzles.
>>>
>>> i am now very strongly in the advantage, but it involved layering
>>> approaches behind strong risks that can easily go poorly if one’s memory
>>> falters (which mine —- ); because i am threatening both their queen and
>>> their king and they are only threatening more minor pieces.
>>>
>>> maybe i’d like to play through this game more. i don’t usually pull this
>>> off and i think it’s because i run poor risks or lose track of them. maybe
>>> i could compare it to a losing game and see what’s different or something …
>>> [unsure :s some write mistake—-]
>>>
>>>
>>> i wonder if my finger slip put them in unwarranted ease or something
>>>
>>>
>>> so what happened is they moved their queen toward their king to protect
>>> it from my check-reveal. this let me fork it with their rook with my risked
>>> knight, and they then resigned the game in defeat, which let me realize how
>>> much advantage i had before i lost it in further mistakes maybe ;S
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ . ♕ ♖ ♔ .
>>> . ♙ ♙ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> ♙ . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . ♞ . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ ♛ . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> . . ♚ ♜ . . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> ♖ . ♗ . ♕ ♖ ♔ .
>>> . ♙ ♞ . ♗ ♙ ♙ ♙
>>> ♙ . ♘ . . ♘ . .
>>> . . . . ♙ . ♝ .
>>> . . . . . . . .
>>> . . . ♝ ♛ . . .
>>> ♟ ♟ ♟ . . ♟ ♟ ♟
>>> . . ♚ ♜ . . ♞ ♜
>>>
>>> victory. my ranking was 1370 and theirs was 1686.
>>>
>>> i’m thinking one thing maybe i did here was open multiple aggressive
>>> avenues at once (not all of which i was aware of) and then stay flexible
>>> about which i pursued as they responded. having them open meant that i had
>>> multiple options for pressuring them, since i don’t know what they will do.
>>>
>>> i guess when my finger slipped with my queen it left them unsure of what
>>> avenues i was pursuing. if i had moved my queen all the way as i meant,
>>> what usually happens is they immediately fortify their king to prevent
>>> checkmate which would have made the reveal that trapped their queen via
>>> their king no longer work that way. instead they worked to address the
>>> other side of the board.
>>>
>>> they may have seen something my slip could do that i didn’t, that they
>>> were acting on.
>>>
>>> it’s noticeable that my rook and knight were working together to limit
>>> their queen. i don’t think imwas consciously aware of this at the time.
>>>
>>> doing puzzles with the dissociativ—
>>>
>>> anyway :)
>>>
>>> i’m inhibited against reviewing my own behavior so this was awesome to
>>> post :D it’s been many years since i’ve had a positive way to feed back
>>> around things and improve them.
>>>
>>>
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