[ot] an old story regarding child kissing
This is not intended to express a particular opinion about the recently referenced whisper, which I _have not reviewed the data around_. Around 2014 a homeless family with a child, and a homeless trans person both of whom were struggling to find workable life paths in the area, were sleeping in my apartment. The child had had a rough life and sometimes I spent time with them to give them small cognitive challenges. I liked encouraging people to learn to be smarter. They seemed to appreciate this, mostly because their parents didn't seem to have as much time to spend with them as would have been ideal. At one point I was working at my desk and the child came toward me, got on my lap, and quickly kissed me on the lips. This was very strange and got in the way of my software development work. But, one of my friends had kissed their parents on the lips as a norm, so I figured that was the case with this child, too. Later, when we were having an apartment discussion regarding other things, somebody mentioned that they had seen me "stealing kisses" with the child. I figured this was a harmless joke, since it was such a ridiculous way to say it. Many people were present. But after this, the family actually _moved out_ to _protect their child_. I was sad because this family had nowhere to stay and the child obviously had very few opportunities to do anything nourishing. I didn't stick up for myself, to tell the story more clearly, because I had never had to do this, my whole life. My behavior and reputation had always spoken for me far better than my own words. It's a strange experience. But with my psychosis now, I tend to relate things similar to other things. That experience was one of many weird experiences that happened during the start of my psychosis. It's scary to relate because I'm so paranoid now. I'm scared everything is a reason to harm me. But I've been harmed so much at this point that there is little reason to fear anything. So now we enter a paranoid state where I am scared I could be a pedophile and people would kill me because of it. If I am one, I would love to know how to make it right. My whole life is ahead of me, and I could dedicate it to anything. I yearn to live an honorable life.
It's well known (and not that relevant) that during mkultra some politicians were recorded having sexual encounters with manipulated children. _I haven't read of this for quite some time_.
I briefly googled it to try to ease my dissociative paranoia. What I found first instead was https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax . This is a _different_ thing, _not about children_. Here are some quotes. I'm noting again that individuals involved in mkultra have their names revealed, but corporate partners (which became a visible thing in the recent foia -- their names were redacted) do not. I connected to this article (and stopped reading it) when I encountered the topic of post-coital questioning, which possibly some other people with activism experience may also have some connection around. Post-coital questioning is not something that I expect to have ended, and that's quite clear. It's unfortunate that the article uses the phrase "prostitute" when the people involved were co-opting safehouses and the project involved slavery of civilians. It seems there are still some issues to unpack. I don't know why we would believe prostitute are on the payroll when assassins are being turned into drugged slaves with their aid. *Operation Midnight Climax* was an operation carried out by the CIA <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Central_Intelligence_Agency> as a sub-project of Project MKUltra <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Project_MKUltra>, the mind-control research program that began in the 1950s. It was initially established in 1954 by Sidney Gottlieb <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sidney_Gottlieb> and placed under the direction of the Federal Narcotics Bureau <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Federal_Narcotics_Bureau> in Boston <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Boston>, Massachusetts with the officer George Hunter White <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/w/index.php?title=George_Hunter_White&action=edit&redlink=1> under the pseudonym <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pseudonym> of Morgan Hall.[1] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-1> Hundreds of federal agents, field operatives, and scientists worked on these programs before they were shut down in the 1960s. The project that started in 1954 consisted of a web of CIA-run safehouses <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Safehouse> in San Francisco <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/San_Francisco> and Mill Valley, California <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mill_Valley,_California>, and New York City.[2] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-Kinzer-2> It was established in order to study the effects of LSD <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/LSD> on unconsenting <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Consent> individuals. Prostitutes <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prostitutes> on the CIA payroll were instructed to lure clients back to the safehouses, where they were surreptitiously plied with a wide range of substances, including LSD, and monitored behind one-way glass <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/One-way_glass>. The prostitutes were instructed in the use of post-coital questioning to investigate whether the victims could be convinced to involuntarily reveal secrets. The victims were sometimes fed subliminal messages in attempts to induce them to involuntary actions, including criminal activity such as robbery, assault, and assassination. Many of the CIA operatives involved in the experiments voluntarily imbibed in the drugs and prostitutes for recreational purposes. [2] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-Kinzer-2> Every one of these acts was blatantly illegal and several significant operational techniques were developed in this theater, including extensive research into sexual blackmail <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Blackmail>, surveillance technology and the possible use of mind-altering drugs in field operations.[3] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-Kamiya-3> The Operation Midnight Climax program was soon expanded, and CIA operatives began dosing people in restaurants, bars and beaches.[3] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-Kamiya-3> The extent to which this widespread exposure of the public to mind-altering drugs contributed to the rise of the counter-culture movement in the late 1950s and 1960s is unknown, although Ken Kesey <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ken_Kesey> has attributed his role in the genesis of the influential San Francisco Bay Area psychedelic social scene that developed in the 1960s to his participation in Project MKUltra <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Project_MKUltra> LSD experiments at the Menlo Park, California, VA Hospital. The safehouses were dramatically scaled back in 1963, following a report by CIA Inspector General John Earman which strongly recommended closing the facility. The San Francisco safehouses were closed in 1965, and the New York City safehouse soon followed in 1966.[*citation needed <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wikipedia:Citation_needed>*] In 1974, the journalist Seymour Hersh <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seymour_Hersh> exposed the CIA's illegal spying on U.S. citizens and how the CIA had conducted non-consensual drug experiments. His report started the lengthy process of bringing long-suppressed details about MKUltra to light.[3] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-Kamiya-3> Project MKUltra came to light in the spring of 1977 during a wide-ranging survey of the CIA's Technical Services Division. John K. Vance, a member of the CIA inspector general's staff, discovered that the agency was running a research project that included administering LSD and other drugs to unwilling human subjects.[4] <https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Operation_Midnight_Climax#cite_note-4>
On Tue, 29 Jun 2021 06:35:53 -0400 Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Later, when we were having an apartment discussion regarding other things, somebody mentioned that they had seen me "stealing kisses" with the child.
count yourself lucky you were not executed on the spot, which is what non human feminazi trash like lucas want. Count yourself lucky you didnt end up in douglas lucas gestapo 'sex offender' database. last but not least, the proper response to douglas lucas call for help with his gestapo witch hunting is this : lucas, get a vice, put your balls in it, and turn the screw all the way.
On Tue, Jun 29, 2021, 1:28 PM Punk-BatSoup-Stasi 2.0 <punks@tfwno.gf> wrote:
On Tue, 29 Jun 2021 06:35:53 -0400 Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Later, when we were having an apartment discussion regarding other things, somebody mentioned that they had seen me "stealing kisses" with the child.
count yourself lucky you were not executed on the spot, which is what non human feminazi trash like lucas want. Count yourself lucky you didnt end up in douglas lucas gestapo 'sex offender' database.
I could be! I was giving shelter and resources to everyone there, so likely I'd built up a lot of gratitude with some. People drove my car around and stuff without asking me, when they wanted to go somewhere. But later the father asked me for money, when he was in another state and needed some. I don't remember whether I sent him any. I didn't want to give him money later, and likely didn't. I was so at capacity by then, deep into my psychosis, and couldn't maintain my finances any more. STILL: usually people hold trust and talk things through. Once it gets quiet and vindictiveness and fear start developing, something is wrong. Something wrong had happened in our community already. I don't know what it was. But it sure affected the rest of my life. last but not least, the proper response to douglas lucas call for
help with his gestapo witch hunting is this : lucas, get a vice, put your balls in it, and turn the screw all the way.
In my isp bubble, there is a nearby blog by the person that provides some dissonance. People are gonna be dissing Biden, but it's not often we get an opportunity to do modern signal processing on this list, nowadays.
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