i don’t like the memory numbing. memory numbing, is there anything near you that might speak to this email? what is it like to be you? (it’s a big habit.) (some of us like numbing memories.) it’s scary for me, for karl, but i understand it has niceness for you (yeah) (some say it’s nice to have the niceness heard some) what is nice about numbing memories? or is there more to it? ((some of us don’t know what numbing memories is at all. we do things, then karl responds, pulls away for example.)) i’m wondering if i stimulated a worry, associated with what i call memory numbing (isn’t it obvious the meeting is a worry? (this should be obvious)) maybe :) maybe i’m not sure wh (no it’s not obvious, you don’t know what area relates to what other area.) (“wiring diagram” maybe, from miller book) karl thought of (we’re working on “memory numbing” (on cypherpunks spam email)) maybe we can state we don’t know for sure what memory numbing”” is about, but we can collect ideas and related things (at least) it sounds like it’s near a worry, maybe a prevention of something. it feels like there’s a worry associated with information. it sounds maybe like karl was internslly probing around something delicate without giving it space to say “woah wait” (close?personal?fast?) and it stimulated the memory numbing (maybe too fast and aggressive. remember “jackhammer”.)(“jackhammer” is roughly cognitive injury where small actions have big impact.) (the context also might have a part of … a triggering part with a big unaddressed story, that was being treated simply (unsure) as a larger useful unit together) (todo lists have that issue too maybe?) in trafffick boss story, we could make analogy to uhh whistleblowers or spies or … maybe not unsure (more amnesiaish!) we’re trying to (1832) spend a little time focusing on acknowledging that there may be a worry associated with information. that um thinking could be concerning or (considered untrustworthy) at this time (it also is untrustworthy.) please don’t give me thinking numbing