i don’t like the memory numbing.<div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">memory numbing, is there anything near you that might speak to this email?</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">what is it like to be you?</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(it’s a big habit.)</div><div dir="auto">(some of us like numbing memories.)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">it’s scary for me, for karl, but i understand it has niceness for you</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(yeah)</div><div dir="auto">(some say it’s nice to have the niceness heard some)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">what is nice about numbing memories? or is there more to it?</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">((some of us don’t know what numbing memories is at all. we do things, then karl responds, pulls away for example.))</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">i’m wondering if i stimulated a worry, associated with what i call memory numbing</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(isn’t it obvious the meeting is a worry? (this should be obvious))</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">maybe :) maybe i’m not sure wh</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(no it’s not obvious, you don’t know what area relates to what other area.) (“wiring diagram” maybe, from miller book) karl thought of</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">(we’re working on “memory numbing” (on cypherpunks spam email))</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">maybe we can state we don’t know for sure what memory numbing”” is about, but we can collect ideas and related things (at least)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">it sounds like it’s near a worry, maybe a prevention of something.</div><div dir="auto">it feels like there’s a worry associated with information.</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">it sounds maybe like karl was internslly probing around something delicate without giving it space to say “woah wait” (close?personal?fast?) and it stimulated the memory numbing</div><div dir="auto">(maybe too fast and aggressive. remember “jackhammer”.)(“jackhammer” is roughly cognitive injury where small actions have big impact.)</div><div dir="auto">(the context also might have a part of … a triggering part with a big unaddressed story, that was being treated simply (unsure) as a larger useful unit together) (todo lists have that issue too maybe?)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">in trafffick boss story, we could make analogy to uhh whistleblowers or spies or … maybe not unsure (more amnesiaish!)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">we’re trying to (1832) spend a little time focusing on acknowledging that there may be a worry associated with information.</div><div dir="auto">that um thinking could be concerning or (considered untrustworthy) at this time</div><div dir="auto">(it also is untrustworthy.)</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto">please don’t give me thinking numbing</div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto"><br></div><div dir="auto"><br></div>