karl3＠writeme.com wrote:
karl3＠writeme.com wrote:
i am sorry for eating the pie. i was worried it would make an issue occupying the fridge with no known plan for it; this was opposed to worry that throwing it out would be rude. i thought it would make sense to put it inside the car but i didn't have keys for the car on me at the time. this opened a space of confusion where i tried to make a decision that would reduce the issues rather than letting them build up. lots of problems from issues compounding. want to slow down getting real DID where there are actually separate identities, slave boss likes to build this. after i ate the pie i went out to the car and looked at it, it's really destroyed, my possessions and years of urgent work were stolen. this time it seemed relaxing to observe this rather than destabilizing. it seemed like the only relaxing thing i know you might try to destroy my life again. but maybe, even though i ate the pie, we can be comforted by it having already just happened :D the oven light was on. similar to the birdfeeder. i don't know what it's about. i ended up turning the oven light off. i really want to not have a conflict here. i need to ask my dad why the oven light was on (he might be unaware it's getting turned on) so i can reality check.
also i still have a salad in the fridge that is unaddressed, but i think it might be less rude to throw it out as it's not a special desert. or maybe (if i dislike it) i could eat it focusing on that :D maybe take it out to the car and look at the car while eating it, i think this could really really help my crime karma
i should leave around 8a for the mental health program, 830a at the very latest