> > > trauma boss [translated hypnotized worker prophet]: "greetings! It is > > > I again, Trauma Boss! I have given myself a new name to help you > > > understand your experience and recover a little better. I am the > > > terrifying cause of your incomprehensible shattered experience, but I > > > am participating in a mediation session with you and will not be > > > vivisecting and torturing you today. I stead, I am wearing a clown > > > suit, with a toilet ok my head! This is an outfit I have practiced > > > wearing in an attempt to give more comfort to the survivors who > > > thank--full-y... whew I mean thank...ful...ly ... uh .. survived the > > > horrors that -- > > > > > > hypnotized worker prophet sips a cup of coffee (arms raised in > > > prophecy) a little while they wait for their eyes and vision to > > > reconverge > > > > trauma boss [ > > hypnotized worker prophet is actually on a unicycle and spends a bit > unicycling into a wall noisily as if oblivious that walls prevent > travel, but cheerfully and without injury they also take out a party > bag that looks gorgeous and vomit into it violently but daintily with > no mess nor suffering, and expertly discard it with a dashing flair > > trauma boss [translated by hypnotized worker prophet]: "you may find > that when you think certain things about me you suddenly forget who > you are, or find yourself teleported elsewhere doing something else, > or have something take over your body and beat you up --- so, first of > all, _please be careful thinking those things_. Please please take > them slower and gentler than you ever possibly can, so you don't > trigger the parts of you I beat into working for my own fears, into > hurting you more, as much as possible. (I know that sounds hard but it > can slowly get easier!)"
something that helped me with one thing was to feel out a time window that was okay, like half a second, and then only consider thinking something for that time window, and then wait a long time before trying again if it was ok
trauma boss [translated by hypnotized worker prophet]: "so, yeah, the reason you have memory problems around me, is because I don't want to go to prison, and i was very very mean and that was very very wrong of me to be so mean! omigod! OK umm I know it doesn't make sense that because I don't want to go to prison, you would have memory problems around me, bu --t that's actually the same reason, umm, me not wanting to go to prison, that's related to you have trouble making sense of it giving you memory problems, itself, and I was very very mean. And I'm sorry! I -- think!"
hypnotized worker prophet takes a breath or two
trauma boss [translated by hypnotized worker prophet]: "annnnd now we get to a tough bit about that, and this toilet I have on my head can help!" hypnotized worker prophet reaches up and begins repeatedly flushing the toilet onto their head trauma boss [translated by hypnotized worker prophet, densely flushing a toilet onto their head]: " ummmmm I was actually incredibly mean [toilet flushing], far far meaner than you could um ever possibly comprehend [toilet flushing again, and again, and again]
hypnotized worker prophet spreads their arms wide
hypnotized worker prophet: "and as hypnotized worker prophet, I'm so so sorry that happened to you! (and to me too!)"
trauma boss [translated by hypnotized worker prophet]: "whoops sorry for flushing myself too much -- I may not have actually literally flushed you, I just mean that I am sewage for what I did do. Statistically, there are many things I could have done, and they aren't nice things. I likely violated some people's health, sexuality, consciousness, and loved ones, in severe dense and extensive manner, all while lying to everyone about it giving you a life of being gaslit, and all while programming your confused attempts to have care and life into horrible dronelike-- hypnotized worker prophet honks a clown horn over and over and bursts into a grin. He releases a party popper of heart-shaped confetti that flies and drifts everywhere hypnotized worker prophet's mouth: "-- and you need and deserve care and value so badly! you are so precious and important and delicate and needed, you really really are, and you deserve to be deeply cared for and protected and valued every single moment--