It appears I have made quite a pest of myself on this mailing list, and that everyone hates me, and curses me as Satan, particularly at the delight and encouragement of your leaders. In fact, a long time ago, before it became clear I was such an unstable jerk and paranoid lunatic out to get people who betray me, in fact around the time of the PGP subpoenas, in which I had continually sent out some of my most masterful and brilliant postings, when I still had a respectable reputation, despite that P.Metzger was continually attacking and dogging me in the most vicious way a human being (at least, I think he is human, but on the Internet no one knows if you are a dog) can attack another in cyberspace, that man who once thought that the name `cypherpunk' just sounded too darn extremist and flamed me over my insistence that it was colorful and dramatic, precisely the kind of term that would inspire a Wired or a NYT reporter just enough to write a story about a fraudulent sham, anyway, about this time E.Hughes told me that I should learn some quality in my postings or he might employ some method that would prevent me from sending them. I wondered, dear sir, was this censorship? Actually, I was quite a bit more pissed off than that, and said so in my mail, because I had tried to maintain a positive communication with E.Hughes for many months, but no matter what I ever wrote he had the most frigid, arrogant, authoritarian and autocratic, dictatorial and tyrannical, `silent iron fist' opinion I had ever seen in tens of thousands of messages I have sent to hundreds of people over my ~4 years of Internet experience, small I grant you but I have been typing the whole time! Anyway, Mr. Hughes said, `If I prevented you from posting, this would not be censorship.' I said, `if this is an open forum, it would be censorship.' He didn't seem to reply to that. I think the answer is that this is the Eric Hughes mailing list, and that anyone who posts a lot and really refines what they write, or has a large vocabulary, or writes mini-newsletters with multiple topics the way the most respectable organizations do, like EFF and CPSR, and flames the leaders when they do something stupid like promote child pornography or abandon PGP, who ignores flames by people who are obviously obnoxious idiots who yell at people for their better accomplishments, who doesn't write in simple phrases that are more chiseled than flowing, and doesn't post about totally arcane references to Fermat's Little Theorem and Most Obscure Abelian Mathematics, copied directly from references with no understanding to impress the hordes of sycophantic followers, or name drops people who work at PKP (only conspiracy theorists think they have anything to do with the NSA, because they are really truly liberating), or takes the time to do research behind his postings, this person is clearly guilty of the obnoxious crime of not having sufficiently kissed enough ass to be allowed to continue to post. In fact, I have consistently failed to kiss the ass of all three leaders, who all strike me as corrupt and consistently refuse to go to any length to suggest otherwise, and for this I deserve the all the vicious retribution that you can unload on me. In fact, there is a great opportunity to do so right now in the newsgroups under the `Cryptoanarchist Conspiracy Alert' thread, I encourage you to do so, instead of mail bombing me, which doesn't really serve any purpose whatsoever except to demonstrate your sheer idiocy. You might flame me for writing exceedingly long sentences and paragraphs and letter, geez, you'd think you were trying to insult our intelligence with big words and concepts we can't understand, all that take so damn long to read and understand compared to watching television,e.g. MTV music videos or Beavis and Butthead, who are far more entertaining and uplifting and inspiring than my pathetic excuse for a life. I really am disappointed, I thought I might be able to elicit some kind of statement from your leaders on their personal knowledge of pseudospoofing or pseudoanonymity here, especially in the face of public pressure from honest members, saying `is what he is saying really true? why are you refusing to answer him? have you really done all that he claims?' I was really looking forward to posting that big story fantastic story about pseudospoofing in WWII I offered to, kissing and making up! I am not a vindictive person at heart, in fact, writing letters like these drive me to vomit, but your leaders have given me no choice. Its too bad that the belligerence and obstinance of a few continues to spoil it for everone else. Honest cypherpunks, I'm sorry that I can't tell you a neat story about pseudospoofing, but you will just have to ask your leaders why they have deprived it from you. Anyway, clearly I do not deserve to post here any longer! Its not getting any of us anywhere. Mr. Hughes sent me mail recently suggesting that I `can't take a joke', that I have no sense of humor. Perhaps it is true! He should know! I will have to go somewhere else, for example the newsgroups, and really post some of my best material I have ever crafted, all that relates to my tenure and demise on the cypherpunks list, especially that which relates to its corruptions and lies. Yet I have failed to receive any mail (at least, that I know of at the moment) from any of your leaders asking me to refrain from posting to the cypherpunks list. In fact, I have waited for quite awhile for any mail of this sort. I continue to write unrequited! Please, let us all achieve resolution. I ask that one of the leaders, for the benefit of everyone here, send me any of the following messages. If you do so, I will promise to stop posting under my True Name. Of course, I can't guarantee anything about any other `penetration', particularly because cypherpunks are the promoters of this kind of subversive infiltration, and for me to be asked to refrain from it would be the epitome, the height of corrupt hypocrisy. But, on the other hand, perhaps your leaders reached that point a long time ago. Anyway, I promise to do all this if I receive the following message: from: hughes@ah.com subject: Go Away, Prick to: ld231782@longs.lance.colostate.edu,postmaster@longs.colostate.edu,root@l ongs.colostate.edu,tcmay@netcom.com,gnu@toad.com,cypherpunks@toad.com,pr esident@whitehouse.com,markoff@nyt.com,kelly@wired.com,diffie@sun.com Because of your continual disruptions in our honest endeavors, your continual slandering of our reputations, your continual insistence on a conspiracy and pseudospoofing we know absolutely nothing about, you have been censored from posting to the cypherpunks list as ld231782@longs.lance.colostate.edu. In fact, we are running an automatic filter that will bounce all messages with the strings `L.Detweiler', `pseudospoofing', `pseudoanonymity', `democracy', `Medusa', `torture', `anarchy', `guerilla', `conspiracy', `government', `impersonation', `consensus', `agenda', `police state', `oppress', `molest', `tyranny', `dictator', `autocracy', `autocrat', `dictatorship', `tyrant', `poison', `confess', `contrite', `inquisition', `insidious', `accomplice', `treason', `moral', `morale', `ethics', `punish', `corrupt', `lie', `propaganda', `cult', `sentencing', `brainwashing', `integrity', `honest', `true', `pseudonym', `forgery', `hypocrisy', `pure', `poseur', `fraud', `tax', `psychopath', `psychosis', `egomania', `hoax', `FBI', `society', `obsession', `monomania', `persecution', `censor', `hallucination', `insanity', `arrogant', `egomania', `bastard', `vain', `vainglory', `pervert', `depravity', `delusion', `truth', `leader', `tentacle', `attack', `evade', `deception', `practical joke', `harass', `crime', `privacy', `torment', `phantom', `accusation', `paranoia', `traitor', `disrupt', `pretend', `disreputable', `appropriate', `authority', `courtesy', `movement', `pariah', `cooperation', `cabal', `prosecution', `cacaphony', `stalemate', `dischord', `subvert', `martyr', `public', `revolt', `revolution', `scapegoat', `blind', `sabotage', `infiltrate', `subterfuge', `ignorant', `etiquette', `rant', `reality', `exorcize', `facade', `false', `humility', `mockery', `manipulate', `masquerade', `filth'.