without explanation of why our behaviors change
   I grew up trapped in an upper-middle class environment. when I tried to
   share power with those less well off, I was attacked by my government
   and economic stewards.
   I had no friends as a kid. my family taught me to write computer
   programs. the people at my school were all wealthier than me. my mother
   grew up on a farm, with a christian religion. my father was an orphan
   and an athiest and found his own lot in life, picking himself up by his
   bootstraps.
   anyway, what I learned as a kid was writing software to do stuff.
   but when I found there was more to the world, this was great! and I
   tried to do both at once
   I guess this is a draft. lots of things to navigate.
   WHAT HAPPENED TO US? WHY IS EVERYTHING ACTING STUPID?