I've been sleeping mostly outdoors for 6 or 7 days now and I am very
   thankful for this.

   I have bell's palsy (a severe problem with transmitting signals to
   facial muscles on one side of the face) and my right eye doesn't close
   all the way.  It has been so nice to be falling asleep, but to have my
   right eye open from the bell's palsy and see that the woods is around
   me as I sleep.  I always want to know this.  It is so nice.
   A morning or two ago I woke up and there were mosquitos all around me
   and I didn't care at all.  It was such a wonderful relief.
   I'm ordering two tarps so I can set up more spaces to work or sleep in
   without getting rained on, as I figure things out.
   I've been feeling much much less [terrified] when I imagine or pursue
   organizing my things a little to have my truck be drivable and livable
   again.
   It's very inspiring, how I responded to writing by changing my
   behavior, and I've been thinking a little bit, just a little, of other
   tasks.
   I'm very confused but I know I need to be able to live outdoors to use
   my existing life plans in ways that work.
   And I need to be able to demonstrate that I can take care of myself
   outdoors to have future care workers let me stay there as my repeatedly
   undiagnosed condition deteriorates.