Asking to go outdoors without threats.  Hoping the be able to grow
   behaviors that send me outdoors.
   Please asking this.  Can threaten after some more time recuperating.
   Pressing outdoors in emergency manner has been very hard and spent a
   lot of time doing very little.  Mind is left with more bits that don't
   respond.  We believe some of these bits can regrow with time and some
   ease.