I do not know what to do. I am not able to kill myself with any reasonable likelihood. I have spent my whole life focused around living outdoors with an idea of making everything right in a caring way. I need to be able to sleep outdoors to be Karl Semich. I need to be able to spend many days outdoors without going indoors, to sleep outdoors, with my current psychology. PLEASE LET ME SLEEP OUTDOORS. PLEASE LET ME WORK OUTDOORS. Thank you for any aid.