Karl,
   Please, calm your heart;  do not destroy your mind with useless
   efforts, and your body with stress and insomnia.  Focus, please.
   When your mind and body are exhausted, wasted, you will not have a good
   performance and will waste your own time.  You should use this time for
   hydration, rest, and food.  And, please, exercises.
   Just walk around and be happy for being alive.  Considering your
   country's President and some of their supporters, it is a miracle!
   Thank Darwin, they do not know how to use tasers, hahaha!!!  ;)
   How about the therapy, please?  Keep it hardly, no absences allowed,
   and mention 'paranoid behavior' to your therapist, please.  Maybe you
   can not see or feel it, but you can show her some of your messages to
   this list, coderman's gentle answers, and my bad mood email.  Sorry,
   deadly headache.  (+_+)**
   Well, calm down.  Breath, try to rest a bit, to meditate, to think
   about your ex-girlfriend who still loves you, about your family, about
   friends...  About your life, do you understand?  :D
   Do not use the f*cking "slavers" as an excuse to avoid living.  It is
   possible to f*ck the f*ckers and have a healthy and fun life.
   Take care and be well, please.  Healing kisses and hugs!  :)