Cecilia!
   I think you just said you're mostly away due to the internet being
   spotty in hell.  (has anybody tried calling cecilia to see what is up
   more clearly?)
   Regarding memories, in america a drug is used in surgery that can
   prevent the proper storage of memories for a bit after surgery.  They
   also keep a controlled drip line into you during the surgery so long as
   the anesthesiologist is there; it is common practice for the
   anesthesiologist to prevent remembering things that happen, as surgery
   is already inherently traumatic to people.  I personally hate that,
   they always forget to say this will happen, or try to use
   weasel-language to keep doing it if you do not like it, because they
   are trained that it is kind to do.  Obviously there are other ways to
   forget things too.
   On Fri, Jun 26, 2020, 9:21 PM Cecilia Tanaka
   <[1]cecilia.tanaka@gmail.com> wrote:

   @Karl, I am dead and there is Internet in the Hell.

   I don't know what you mean personally for you here, but I have been
   dead for 6 years now.  The angels go to hell and interpret each other
   as demons.  Breaking through that interpretation took years and
   significantly reduced my suffering.  Your soul is invincible and cannot
   itself be harmed.

     Only five minutes.  Please, I know you are not well at all, but avoid
   to complain about everything, and trying so polite, and using the other
   N word.  Seriously, "nurturing"?!

   I talk more caring than many men sometimes.  Mostly when upset; it
   surprises people and is often more direct.  Learning around
   accidentally using that word: it sounds like it is bad to say?
   Nurturing means helping-with-work: love without sex.
   I hear you saying that I need to be more careful to keep the
   flashbacks-behavior off list if I want to contribute here.  I'm
   interested in what you think of the degree of fear in my signature.
   People need to know if at least I might hack them!

   Read all the archives to understand the whole drama and internal jokes
   instead of acting like me, or I will ask for redemption and my memory
   of past  - including you! - will be deleted.  Much more deleted than my
   Telegram messages.  Did I mention they delete your messages when you
   die?  Booowooh!!!  ;D

   Hey, is reading the archives important here?  This list is not my
   territory and I want to respect it better.  Methodical reading is hard.
   I hope you are well in hell.  I took a quick video of only some of our
   telegram messages (messages which made no sense, to remember the
   contact by), if you want to recover them to help remember something
   associated or anything.
   I'm not sure what you mean here around redemption: you said you're
   familiar with being harmed and prefer to generally ignore threats,
   right?  Don't trust my behavior with your memories unless you have sent
   them to me in a file labeled "blockchain this for me please" because I
   need clear concise instructions to act.
   Myself, I've had repeated forced memory-removal (timed exposure
   topic-association-trauma).  Maybe that is too gory for the list, but
   it's not something you ever hear anyone reference, really.  I don't
   remember ever discussing it before.  (intentional joke)

   ...but the "Wild West" metaphor still being used in 2020 is so decadent
   and old that hurts my heart...  ugh!  :-/

   Thank you for speaking up on this.  You are kind.  I am confident hell
   will heal, but worried for you.
   Karl
   There is proof inside many peoples' electronics.  Proof that a
   marketing group would contract development of a frightening virus.  A
   virus that responds to peoples' keystrokes and browsing habits, and
   changes what people see on their devices.  A virus that alters
   political behavior en masse, for profit.

References

   1. mailto:cecilia.tanaka@gmail.com