Hi, kamoshi!  Sorry, I am terribly late with the reading of all my
   lists, even the favorite ones.
   I didn't read your previous messages and also Nick's ones yet.
   Sincerely ask your pardon for answering without knowing you and your
   problems.
   Please, do not harm yourself.  Already tried the suicide and, well, it
   won't bring real inner peace, even when you feel pain and despair.
   Sometimes, I do know very well, the pain is bigger, much stronger than
   us...  and we feel so hurtful and exhausted of all the things and
   people...  But I swear it is *not* the best choice.
   May I write to you in private tomorrow?  I will be a little bit busy
   tonight.  In any case, I strongly recommend to search for specialized
   support, dear.
   Take care, boy.  Live and make this world better, happier, fairer for
   all.
   Tender kisses and hugs,
   c.