[ot][spam][crazy][personal] gentle coding coping

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

after working for years to do small coding, and my history of past
skill with coding, it’s actually kind of pleasant to press my
dissociation by trying to code. i don’t necessarily succeed though.

sometimes the areas are easy sometimes hard.

i/you? can work around dissociation issues by building skill in many
areas of the mind. so i just do it a lot and build habits distant from
the feelings [like somebody with dementia] but i don’t always find a
path to this, and sometimes it can be very intense and influential to
work that hard on something, and usually it 8nvolves a number of
phases of extreme psychological experiences to return from