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[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

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then there's a further state where i am all spazzy and i just want to
make meaningless expressions of nothing making any sense at all
how could this be mutated to be a contributing post?
a major attribute it has might be difficulty combining (or even being
aware of) meaningful information, especially meaningful information
that seems recently relevant

i feel like there must be some way to mutate it to something better

and me typing this indicates that i can still act rational to some
degree when i have that urge. i have a big habit/skill of quickly
describing something about what's going on, kind of, not always
present tho.