[ot][spam][crazy][personal] pursuing rationality

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

> there’s a nasty set of influences that encourage poor choices, what’s
> notable there is that poor choices resonate, producing worse
> situations and worse choices

because of the severe impact of this one it seems useful to keep it
somewhat nearby and try to figure ways of making better choices.

personally, i’m still in a situation where pretty much anything can
get associated with harsh triggers depending on stuff, so building
things that are important is gently complex, and happens in a slow and
emergent way