[ot][spam][crazy] behavioral coping

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

saying these things helped some.

i suppose if the parts is expressing both law enforcement and
organized crime one could imagine it as the latter corrupting or
within the former. other options exist but corrupt or coerced
authority is a quite common one seen in popular media,

it was nice to have reduced urge to cope with video games.

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i’m thinking about goal, plan, act/behavior.

my goal atm is roughly standing up, how easy this goal seems appears
related to what i plan to do when standing.

i can also plan to just stand up for a time which gets more and more
difficult as i spend more time doing it for some reason,