[ot][personal] naive dissociation therapy notes

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

- honestly my path has been involving getting really “tough” with a
skill, to persistence it across extreme experiences. i chose to do
this with only one skill, not kmowing what would happen. the end
result is you can perform that skill much better than other behaviors,
and you also develop skill at doing things through extreme experiences
in general, which is quite useful. however, the skill becomes very
simple and rote, like a dumb muscley athlete in the brain, because it
was maintained through hell with formation and association of triggers
to exhaustion. i get the impression that therapists and psychiatrists
try to avoid that route.