[ot][wrong] Please let me sleep outdoors in the coldest winter. Was: Re: PLEASE LET ME SLEEP OUTDOORS

Fri Jul 1 22:36:09 PDT 2022

On Fri, Jul 1, 2022, 7:17 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many
<gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:

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>>>>>>> Victim of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
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>>>>>>>> On Wed, Jun 29, 2022, 7:52 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One
>>>>>>>> Victim of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
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>>>>>>>>>>>> On Mon, Jun 27, 2022, 5:39 PM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One
>>>>>>>>>>>> Victim of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
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>>>>>>>>>>>>> On Mon, Jun 27, 2022, 11:40 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One
>>>>>>>>>>>>> Victim of Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> On 6/26/22, Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> > On Sun, Jun 26, 2022, 8:56 AM Undiscussed Horrific Abuse,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> One Victim of
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> > Many <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
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>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 - i started logging
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> publicly to the
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> list
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> again.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> i
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> started
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> by just logging time spent on
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> planning and
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> thinking about
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> after
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> two attempts i was able to do
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> it rather than
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> think
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> about
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> it, with
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> effort.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-09 0456 ET: [x] 10
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> seconds cold water
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> after warm
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> water,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> 2022-06-10 1223 ET: [x] 10
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> seconds warm, 10
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> seconds cold.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> easy.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>> food after.
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-11 0553 [X] 10 warm 10
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> cold with food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-11 1247 [x] 10w 10c food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> easy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 0217 [x] 9w 11c food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> after medium-easy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-12 0848 [x] 8w 13c food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> after medium-easy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> 2022-06-12 1852 [x] long w 13c
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> food after
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>>> medium-easy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-13 0922 [x] 8w 13c food after
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-13 1851 [x] long w 13c food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> after medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> >>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> > 2022-06-14 0702 [x] medium w 13c with
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-14 2019 [x] 8/20w 13/31c food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> after, medium-easy
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>> 2022-06-15 0824 [x] 8+13/? c food after,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium-easy,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> outdoors
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>> 2022-06-15 1435 [x] 8+14/40c food after,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> irrational state
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> of
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> mind,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>> indoors
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>> 2022-06-16 1502 69F 20/1:25cold 68F food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> after, easy,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>> indoors
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>> 2022-06-17 1051 21/1:04cold 67.4F food after,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium-easy,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> indoors
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>> 2022-06-17 1929 unk warm, 22/1:20 cold, 58.8F,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> food after,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>> medium,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>> indoors
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >> 2022-06-18 0921 53.7F 22/1:12 cold with food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> >>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> > 2022-06-18 1653 53.7F 22/1:20 cold with hot food
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> 2022-06-19 0736 56.4F 12/:30 cold + 22/1:15 cold
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> with warm food,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> 2022-06-20 0547 61.7F 22/1:36 with food and sugar
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> cookie, hard to
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>> start, medium to do
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>> 2022-06-20 2029 22/1:23 65.3F with warmish food,
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>> 2022-06-21 0942 23/1:35 65.4F with warm food, sugar
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> cookie, and
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>> nutritional yeast, medium
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>> 2022-06-22 1845 long warm + 30/2:30 cool 61.7F
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> hard-easy, food after
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >> 2022-06-24 0959 2:30 cool medium-easy with sugar
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> cookie, food after
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> >>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> > 2022-06-25 1501 24/unk cool then long warm then 24/unk
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> cool
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >> 2022-06-26 25/1:19 cool, medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> > 2022-06-26 1940 24/1:20 63.1F with food, medium-hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 2022-06-27 1137 food w/out cold water
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>> 2022-06--27 1738 1/0:13 53.6F hard
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>>> 2022-06-28 1028 warm then a little cool for total of 3 mins
>>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>>> 2022-06-28 1710 2/0:07 cool, food after, held pee
>>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>>> 2022-06-29 1350 2/0:05 cool, food after, hard
>>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>>> 2022-06-29 1950 2/0:07 cool, food after, medium
>>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>>> 2022-06-30 1019 2/0:11 cool, medium-easy, food after
>>>>>>>>
>>>>>>> 2022-06-30 11;10 2/10.7 cool, medium-easy, no food, nap after
>>>>>>>
>>>>>> 2022-06-30 1541 2/0:09 cool, medium, food after
>>>>>>
>>>>> 2022-06-30 1916 2/0:12.38 cool, medium-hard, nap after
>>>>>
>>>> 2022-07-01 0746 long warm 4/unk cool, dissociated, food after
>>>>
>>> 2022-07-01 1639 2/unk cool, easy-medium, food after
>>>
>> 2022-07-01 1839 2/0:11.7 cool, easy-medium, food after
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> 2022-07-01 1916 2/0:10.57 cool, easy-medium, nap after
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2022-07-02 0134 2/unk cool, easy-medium, held pee

I can get flustered. I hit my head [again], hoping hard not to repeat, and
again failed to properly use the timer.

But it's really inspiring to be succeeding again. I'm waiting to return to
previous environment before raising time. Since the inhibitions could
associate differently. Setting a strong baseline, is the hope atm.

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