[ot][crazy][personal]

[Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many]

journal:

i’m thinking, when i pursue pretty much any task, it stimulates these
desynchronization spasms. i’ve thoroughly learned to influence myself
to struggle.

given the mcboss story, i could probably somehow record data on the
spasms, and have already to some degree. data: notes, video, eeg.
what’s missing is organizing that in one place.

stimulating it now, writing that.

regarding organizing, a clear concept of what to do with the data
could help with making a little organization some day.

i’m thinking it would be nice to have timestamps on logs that indicate
difficult events.

such timestamps could possibly be autogenerated. i abandon tasks, so
record when i stop them.

i also have an acceleromoter on my eeg headband, so there are likely
events of jerking that could be classified pretty easily.

thoughts:
- autogeneration of timestamps from task abandonment
- autogeneration of timestamps from jerk events

then, what to do with these timestamps?