[ot] cult influence and power, 1988-2018

[Undiscussed Groomed for Male Slavery, One Victim of Many]

Chapter 2–My Life in the Unification Church

				As a child, I had always been very independent. I wanted to be a
writer and poet, but during my college years I struggled to find a
career path in which I could make enough money to pursue my dreams.
When my girlfriend dumped me in January 1974, I wondered if I would
ever find true love.

				I had always been an avid reader; during that time I began to read
a great deal of psychology and philosophy. My neighbor next door, a
mathematician, introduced me to the writings of G. I. Gurdjieff and P.
D. Ouspensky. I became interested in what was presented as ancient,
esoteric knowledge. Much of what I read described humanity’s natural
condition as being “asleep” to the truth and in need of someone more
spiritually advanced to teach us about higher levels of consciousness.
The suggestion that one should join a spiritual school was embedded in
those books.

				At age 19, I knew I was never going to be happy as a businessman,
like my father, living my life to pursue money. I wanted to be a
creative writer. I wanted answers to the deeper questions. Is there a
God? If so, why is there so much suffering? What role was I to play in
the world? Could I do anything to make a difference? I felt extreme
internal pressure to make a big contribution to humankind. I had been
told all my life how intelligent I was and how much I would accomplish
when I grew up. But I was going to graduate in another year and I felt
like time was running out.

				I had already become a “foster parent” of a little girl in Chile
to whom I sent money each month. I had decided that writing was
probably my most important pursuit, and so I wrote. Still I felt it
wasn’t enough. I looked out at the world and saw so much in the way of
social injustice, political corruption, and ecological destruction
that it seemed I could do very little. I knew that I wanted to help
change things, but I didn’t know how to go about doing it.

				One day, as I was reading a book in the student union cafeteria,
three attractive Japanese women and an Italian-American man approached
me. They were dressed like students and carried college textbooks.
They asked if they could share the table. I nodded, and within
minutes, they engaged me in a friendly conversation. I thought the
women were pretty cute. Since I had a three-hour break between
classes, I stayed and talked. They told me they were students too,
involved in a small community of “young people from all over the
world.” They invited me to visit them.

				The semester had just started and I thought I might be able to get
lucky with one of the women, so I drove to their house that night
after class. When I arrived I found a lively group of about 30 people
from half a dozen countries. I asked if they were a religious group.
“Oh, no, not at all,” they said, and laughed. They told me they were
part of something called the One World Crusade, dedicated to
overcoming cultural differences among people and to combating major
social problems, such as the ones I was concerned about.

				“One world where people treat each other with love and respect,” I
thought to myself. “What idealists these people are!”

				I enjoyed the stimulating conversations and energetic atmosphere
at the meeting. These people related to each other like brothers and
sisters and clearly felt they were part of one global family. They
seemed very happy with their lives. After a month of feeling
depressed, I was invigorated by all that positive energy. I went home
that night feeling lucky to have met such nice people.

				The next day I ran into Tony, the man who had approached me in the
cafeteria. “Did you enjoy the evening?” he asked. I answered that I
had. “Well, listen,” Tony said. “This afternoon Adri, who’s from
Holland, is going to give a short lecture on some interesting
principles of life. Why don’t you come over?”

				I listened to Adri’s lecture a few hours later. It seemed vague
and a bit simplistic, but optimistic, and I could agree with nearly
everything he said. However, the content of his speech didn’t explain
why everyone in this group seemed so happy all the time. I felt there
must be something wrong with me or something exceptional about them.
My curiosity was engaged.

				I wound up going back the next day. This time another person gave
a talk about the origin of all the problems that humankind has had to
face. This lecture had a decidedly religious tone; it dealt with Adam
and Eve and how they were corrupted by a misuse of love in the Garden
of Eden. At that point I didn’t notice that my questions were never
answered, and didn’t suspect I was being deliberately strung along.
However, I did feel a bit confused and said I didn’t think I’d be
coming back.

				When I said this, a silent alarm seemed to go off among the people
in the house. As I walked out and got into my car, a dozen people came
running out into the icy February air in their stockinged feet (it was
the custom to remove shoes in the house) and surrounded my car. They
said they wouldn’t let me leave until I promised to come back the
following night. “These people are crazy,” I thought, “standing
outside in the freezing cold without shoes, without jackets, holding
me hostage because they like me so much.” After a few minutes I
relented, mostly because I didn’t want to feel guilty if one of them
caught a cold. Once I had given my word, I wouldn’t think of not
following through, even though I didn’t really want to go back.

				When I returned on Thursday night, I was barraged with flattery
from all sides, all evening. This practice, I would later learn, was
called “love bombing.” I was told over and over what a nice person I
was, what a good person I was, how smart I was, how dynamic I was, and
so forth. No fewer than thirty times they invited me to go with them
for a “weekend away from the city for a retreat in a beautiful place
upstate.”

				Over and over I told them that I had to work as a waiter on
weekends and could not go. Before I left, I was pressured to promise
that if I were ever free on a weekend, I would go. I had not had a
free weekend for a year and a half, so I was certain I would not have
to keep my promise.

				The next day I phoned my boss at the Holiday Inn banquet office to
get my schedule for the weekend. He said, “Steve, you’re not going to
believe this, but the wedding was called off this afternoon. Take the
weekend off!’’ I was flabbergasted. Was this a sign that I was
_supposed_ to go to this weekend outing? I asked myself what Gurdjieff
or Ouspensky would have done in my situation. They had spent years
searching for greater knowledge.

				I called the people at the house, and off I went that Friday night.

				My Indoctrination: How I Became A Moonie

				As we drove through the tall, black, wrought iron gates of a
multimillion-dollar estate in Tarrytown, New York, someone leaned over
and told me, “This weekend we’ll be having a joint workshop with the
Unification Church.” My immediate reaction was a series of questions.
“Workshop? Church? What is going on here? Why didn’t anyone tell me
this before?” I protested. “How can I get back to Queens?” Instead of
responding to my questions, they immediately turned it around on me
and made it my issue. “What’s the matter, Steve? Have a problem being
with Christians?” one man asked me with an attitude. “No,” I said.
“Afraid we are going to brainwash you or something?” another person
asked. “Not at all,” I said, indignant at the insinuation that I was
weak-minded.

				We were herded from the van into a small wooden structure nestled
in some large trees. I had a feeling of dread. I gave myself a little
pep talk. I reminded myself that I had bicycled across the U.S. when I
was 16, worked on an archaeological dig in the Negev desert in Israel
when I was 17, and driven across Canada to Alaska when I was 18.

				I got my courage up. “Listen, I really think I would like to go
back to Queens,” I told one of the members, a pleasant young man with
blond hair and a smile pasted to his face. “Oh, come on, you’ll have a
good time!” he said, patting me on the back. Anyway, there’s no one
driving back to the city tonight.” I decided to make the most of the
situation and avoid creating a scene. We climbed the stairs and
entered a room that I later learned had once been an artist’s studio.
A large blackboard was at the other end of the room. Metal folding
chairs were stacked neatly in a corner.

				Within a few minutes we were divided up into small groups. The
leaders handed us sheets of paper and crayons and asked us to draw a
picture with a house, a tree, a mountain, a river, the sun, and a
snake. Nobody asked why; everyone just obeyed. (Much later I was told
that it was a form of projective personality test used to learn about
people’s psyches.)

				We all took turns introducing ourselves while seated cross-legged
on the floor of the handsome wooden structure, all part of a large
estate with an enormous mansion, which I later learned had been
purchased from the Seagram family for millions. We were led in singing
folk songs. I was embarrassed by the childishness of it all, but no
one else seemed to mind. I loved to sing and grew up listening to
Peter, Paul and Mary and many others. The atmosphere of the event,
with lots of enthusiastic young people all together, brought back warm
memories of summer camp. That night we were escorted to bunk beds
above a converted garage, and the men and women were put in separate
rooms. As it turned out, getting a good night’s sleep was nearly
impossible. Not only was it crowded, but also there were two loud
snorers! The other newcomers and I slept very little.

				When morning came, an intense young man from the group house in
Queens sat down and talked with me. I asked again when the van was
going back to Queens. He told me, “We’re so sorry, but the brother
left already much earlier this morning.” He told me that he too had
been put off at first by some of the strange things he had heard and
seen at his first workshop. He begged me not to have a closed mind but
to give “them” a chance to present what he called the Divine
Principle. “Please don’t judge them until you’ve had a chance to hear
the whole thing,” he pleaded. He told me that if I left now, I would
regret it for the rest of my life.

				His voice was so full of mystery and intrigue that it offset my
suspicions and piqued my curiosity. “Now,” I said to myself, “I’ll
finally get all my questions answered.” Or so I thought.

				In the morning we were led in calisthenics before breakfast.
Afterward, we sang more songs. As we sat on the floor, a charismatic
man with ice-blue eyes and a penetrating voice introduced himself and
the ground rules for the weekend. He was the workshop director. We
were told we had to spend all of our time together in the small groups
to which we were assigned. There was to be no walking around the
estate alone. Questions were to be asked only after a lecture was
over, when we were back in our small group. He then introduced the
lecturer, Wayne Miller.

				An American in his late twenties, dressed in a blue suit, white
shirt, and red tie, Mr. Miller exuded the charm and confidence of a
family doctor. He began to talk, and talk, and talk. As he lectured
for hour after hour, I became very uncomfortable. The workshop was
just too weird. I liked almost everyone there: they were bright,
goodhearted college students like myself. But I disliked the overly
structured environment, the childishly religious atmosphere, and
having been misled about the nature of this weekend retreat. Whenever
I started to object, which I did several times, I was told to save my
questions until after the lecture. In the small group, I was always
told, “That is a very good question. Hold onto it because it will be
answered in the next lecture.” Again and again, I was told not to
judge what I was hearing until I had heard it all. Meanwhile, I was
listening to an enormous amount of material about humankind, history,
the purpose of creation, the spiritual world versus the physical
world, and so forth, much of which presumed an acceptance of what had
been said earlier.

				The entire weekend was structured from morning until night. There
was no free time. There was no possibility of being alone. Members
outnumbered newcomers three to one and kept us surrounded. We
newcomers were never permitted to talk among ourselves unchaperoned.
Day one came and went, leaving my sense of reality more or less
intact. Before we went to bed we were asked to fill out “reflection”
sheets to reveal all we were thinking and feeling. Naively, I filled
them out. I had another restless night but was so exhausted
emotionally and physically that I did manage to get a few hours’
sleep.

				Day two, Sunday, began in exactly the same way. But now we had all
been in this crazy, intense environment for 36 hours, which felt more
like a week. I started asking myself, “Is something wrong with me? Why
do I seem to be the only person questioning this stuff? Is it more
profound than I’m able to grasp? Am I not spiritual enough to
understand what they’re teaching?” I started listening to Mr. Miller
more seriously and began to take notes.

				By Sunday evening I was more than ready for the ride back home.
But it grew later and later, and nobody made any move to depart.
Finally I spoke up and said I had to leave now. “Oh, _please_ don’t
go!” several people pleaded. “Tomorrow is the most important day!”

				“Tomorrow? It’s Monday and I have classes!” I explained that it
was impossible for me to stay another day.

				The workshop director took me aside and told me that everybody
else had decided to stay for the third day. “No one told you this was
a three-day workshop?” he asked.

				“No,” I responded. “I never would have come if I’d known it would
make me miss a day of school.”

				“Well, since you’ve heard the first two-thirds, don’t you want to
know the conclusion?” he asked, intriguingly. Tomorrow, he promised,
everything would become clear.

				Part of me was really curious to hear the whole thing. But also, I
was dependent on these people for transportation. I didn’t want to
bother my friends or family with an emergency call to drive all that
way to get me—or, worse, start hitchhiking in upstate New York at
night in the middle of winter.

				I agreed to stay for one more day.

				On the third day, we were given an unprecedented emotional high.
The most powerful of Mr. Miller’s lectures that day was called “The
History of Restoration.” It claimed to be a precise and accurate map
of God’s method for directing humankind back to His original
intention. “It is scientifically proven that there is a pattern of
recurring cycles in history,” Mr. Miller declared. Throughout his
hours of lecturing, he explained that these cycles all pointed to an
incredible conclusion: God had sent His second Messiah to the earth
between 1917 and 1930. But who was this new Messiah? No one at the
workshop would say.

				By the time we were ready to drive back to the city, I was not
only exhausted, but also very confused. I was elated to consider the
bare possibility that God had been working all of my life to prepare
me for this historic moment. At other moments, I thought the whole
thing was preposterous—a bad joke. Yet, no one was laughing. An
atmosphere of earnest seriousness filled the crowded studio.

				I can still remember the final moments of Mr. Miller’s lecture:

				“What if?…what if?…what if… it is true? Could you betray the Son
of God?” Mr. Miller had questioned with passion in his voice, his eyes
moving slowly upward as he concluded. Finally, the workshop director
had stepped up and prayed a very emotional prayer about how we were
God’s lost children and needed to be open-minded to follow what God
wanted in our lives. On and on he went, praying that all of mankind
would stop living such selfish materialistic lives and return to Him.
He apologized over and over for all the times in history that God
called people to do His will and was forsaken. He pledged himself to a
higher level of commitment and dedication. His sincerity was
overpowering. One couldn’t help but be moved.

				When the van finally returned late that night to the Queens
center, I was completely exhausted and wanted only to go home and
sleep. But I was still not permitted to leave. Jaap Van Rossum, the
house director, insisted that I stay and talk with him for a while. I
wanted desperately to go. He was emphatic. He sat me down in front of
a crackling fire and read me the biography of a humble Korean man I
had never heard of before, Sun Myung Moon. The story was that Moon had
suffered through tremendous hardships and tribulations to proclaim the
truth of God and to fight Satan and communism. When he had finished,
Jaap begged me to pray about what I had just heard. He told me that I
was now responsible for the great truth I had been taught. If I turned
my back on it, I would never forgive myself and God would be
heartbroken. He then tried to persuade me to stay in the house
overnight.

				My insides were screaming at me, “Get out! Get out! Get the hell
away from these people! You need time to think.” In order to escape I
had to get angry and yelled, “No! Get off my case!” and charged out
into the night. Nevertheless, I felt guilty for being rude to those
sincere and wonderful people. I drove home, almost in tears.

				When I arrived home, my parents (they told me later) thought I had
been drugged. They said I looked awful: my eyes were glassy, and I was
obviously very confused. I tried to explain to them what had just
happened. I was exhausted and semi-coherent. When I told them the
workshop was affiliated with the Unification Church, my parents became
upset and thought I was turning my back on our heritage and wanted to
become a Christian. My mom said, “Let’s go talk tomorrow.” I was happy
to agree.

				Unfortunately he had never heard of the Unification Church, nor
ever dealt with anyone involved with a cult. He thought I was
interested in becoming a Christian. He didn’t know what to say or do.
I came away telling myself, “The only way I can get to the bottom of
this thing is investigate it myself.” Still, I was afraid. I wished I
could speak with someone who knew about this group but wasn’t a
devoted member. In February 1974, no one I knew had ever heard of the
Moonies.

				Ceaseless questions ran through my mind. Had God been preparing me
throughout my life for the mission of setting up the Kingdom of Heaven
on earth? Was Sun Myung Moon the Messiah? I prayed earnestly to God
for Him to show me a sign. Was the Divine Principle the new truth?
What should I do? It didn’t dawn on me in my agitated state of
confusion that I had been subjected to mind control[31]—that whereas
one week earlier, I had had no belief in Satan, now I was afraid that
he was influencing my thoughts.

				My parents told me to stay away from the group. They didn’t want
me to abandon Judaism. My grandparents were Orthodox Jews and I went
to Temple, my mom kept kosher and I had a Bar Mitzvah when I turned
thirteen. I was very educated about the Nazis and the Holocaust. I
didn’t want to change my religion; I just wanted to do the right
thing. If Moon was the Moshiach (Anointed One), I reasoned, then I
will be fulfilling my heritage by following him. Even though my
parents opposed the group, I believed that as an independent
19-year-old person, I was capable of making my own decision in this
matter. I wanted to do what was right. In doing so, I had been told by
members of the group, I could later intervene on my parents’ behalf
and save them spiritually.

				After several earnest days of prayer, I received what I thought
was the “sign.” Unable to concentrate on my schoolwork, I was sitting
on the edge of my bed. I reached down, picked up an Ouspensky book,
and opened it to a paragraph at random, which said that history goes
through certain cycles to help human beings evolve to a higher plane.
At that moment I believed I had had a spiritual experience. How could
I have chanced to open the book to that paragraph? I thought that God
was surely signaling me to heed Mr. Miller’s lectures. I felt I had to
go back and learn more about this movement.

				Tying The Knot: Becoming An Insider

				As soon as I called the center, I was whisked off to another
three-day workshop. When I asked a member why I hadn’t been told the
truth about the group being religious, he asked, “If you knew in
advance, would you have come?” I admitted that I probably wouldn’t
have.

				He explained that Satan controlled the world after he had deceived
Adam and Eve into disobeying God. Now God’s children had to deceive
Satan’s children into following God’s will. He said, “Stop thinking
from fallen man’s viewpoint. Think about God’s viewpoint. He wants to
see His creation restored to His original ideal—the Garden of Eden.
That’s all that matters.” (Later, it became evident that this
“heavenly deception” was used in all aspects of the organization,
including recruiting, fundraising, and public relations. Since members
are so focused on meeting their assigned goals, there is no room for
the “old morality.” The group even uses the Bible to “show” that God
condoned deception several times in history in order to see His plan
accomplished.[32]) By accepting the way in which I was deceived, I set
myself up to begin deceiving others.

				Although the workshop was almost identical in content to the one I
had taken the previous week, I felt that this time I needed to listen
with an open mind and take notes. “Last weekend I was too cynical,” I
said to myself.

				This time Miller added a lecture on Communism. He explained that
Communism was Satan’s version of God’s ideal plan, yet it denied the
existence of God. It was therefore Satan’s own religion on Earth and
must be vehemently opposed. He said the final World War would be
fought within the next three years between communism and democracy (at
that time, by 1977), and that if members of the movement didn’t work
hard enough, incredible suffering would result.

				By the end of those three days, the me who had walked into the
first workshop was gone, replaced by a new “me.” I was elated at the
thought that I had been “chosen” by God, and that I knew what I needed
to do with my life. I experienced a wide range of other feelings, too:
I was shocked and honored that I had been singled out for leadership,
scared at how much responsibility rested on my shoulders, and
emotionally high on the thought that God was actively working to bring
about the Garden of Eden. No more war, no more poverty, no more
ecological destruction. There was hope! Also love, truth, beauty, and
goodness.

				At that point, I was still aware of a muffled voice deep within me
that was warning me to watch out, to keep questioning everything.

				After that workshop, I returned to Queens. I was advised to move
into the local Moonie house for a few months to get a feel for the
lifestyle and to study the Divine Principle before I made a lifetime
commitment. Within the first few weeks of my residence there, I met a
powerful leader, Takeru Kamiyama, a Japanese man in charge of the
Unification Church throughout New York City.[33] Iwas instantly drawn
to him. He struck me as having a very spiritual, humble character. I
wanted to learn everything I could from him.

				In retrospect, I realize that Mr. Kamiyama appealed to me because
he was very different from my father. He was a visionary. He had a
great deal of power and status. My father, a simple businessman, had
repeatedly told me that no one person could ever change the world.
Kamiyama very much believed that one person could make a huge
difference. He was very religious and emotionally expressive. My
father, a sincere, intense man in his own quiet way, was not. In
looking back and analyzing the relationship, I see that Kamiyama
became a surrogate father figure. The verbal approval and physical
affection I wanted from my father was given to me by this man, who
used this emotional leverage to motivate and control me.

				As it turned out, I was the first new person to join the center in
Queens. Just a month earlier, the big center in Manhattan had been
divided into eight satellite centers spread out in different boroughs.
Since I was the first, Mr. Kamiyama said it was a sign that I was
meant to become a great leader. He made me one of his 12 American
disciples and oversaw everything I did. I never attended a 7-, 21- or
40-day workshop—the normal sequence. I was groomed very carefully by
Kamiyama and Moon.

				Although I had never liked being in groups before, my elite status
in this group made me feel special. Because of my relationship with
Kamiyama, I would even have access to the Messiah himself—Sun Myung
Moon—who was a projection of the ultimate father figure.

				Life With “Father”: Get Closer To Moon

				Sun Myung Moon was a short, stocky man who had more than the
average share of charisma. He was born in 1920 in what is now North
Korea. He carried himself like a small sumo wrestler in a extremely
expensive business suit. He was a shrewd manipulator and communicator,
particularly with those who were indoctrinated to believe he was the
greatest man ever to walk the face of the Earth. Moon usually spoke
either Korean or Japanese and used a translator. I was told he did so
for “spiritual reasons. During my membership, I was present at more
than 100 of his lectures and participated in about 25 leadership
meetings with him.

				Mr. Moon and Mr. Kamiyama knew how to cultivate their disciples to
be loyal and well disciplined. Members of the core leadership were
trained to follow orders without question or hesitation. Once I had
become totally indoctrinated, all I wanted to do was to follow my
_central figure_’s instructions. I was so committed that my new
identity completely suppressed the real me. Whenever I look back now,
I am amazed at how I was manipulated and how I learned to manipulate
others “in the name of God.” I can also see very clearly that the
higher I rose in the hierarchy, the more corrupted I became: Moon was
making us over in his image. Once he actually told the leaders that if
we remained faithful and carried out our missions well, we would each
be President of our own country one day. We too would have Mercedes
Benz automobiles, personal secretaries, and bodyguards. By this point,
I was encouraged to decide what country I might like to run when
Unificationism took over the world.

				I learned how to present the introductory lectures of the Divine
Principle within the first three months of my membership. By that
time, I had recruited two more people, who became my “spiritual
children,” and was instructed to drop out of school, quit my job, and
move into the center. My hair was cut short and I started to wear a
suit and tie. At the suggestion of a senior member, I had done a
40-day “indemnity condition”—giving up my friends and family for forty
days, not seeing them or communicating with them in any way. This is a
practice used by several cults and in particular about the two years
Mormon ‘missionaries’ are kept from their families.

				I donated my bank account to the center and would have given my
car, except that my parents had the title. I had to abandon my Chilean
foster child because I had no way to earn money to send to her. I was
asked to sacrifice my “Isaac.” The Moonies reminded me of the Biblical
story of Abraham and how God asked him to sacrifice his beloved son. I
was told my creative writing, especially my poetry, was my “Isaac.” I
dutifully threw out everything I had written—some four hundred pieces.
Of course, Isaac never actually had to be sacrificed, but the Moonies
manipulated me. They got my cult self to throw out a large stack of
papers that my authentic self spent countless hours on, over many
years. Work that I had nurtured as if it were nurturing like a child.
I put my poems into the garbage can while my superiors watched. The
psychological effect was powerful.

				Once I had officially dropped out of college, I was sent back to
the campus to recruit new members. The leaders told me I could go back
to finish my degree the following year. A lie. When I later told them
about my desire to teach, they informed me that the Family—as members
refer to the movement—was planning to start its own university in a
few years, and I could be a professor there.

				I was also ordered to set up an official student club at Queens
College, even though I was no longer a student. The club was to be
called Collegiate Association for the Research of Principles, or
C.A.R.P. Within a couple of weeks I had done so, and I was made
C.A.R.P.’s director. Although I told students that C.A.R.P. had no
affiliation with any other group, I received all of my instructions
and funding from the director of the Unification Church in Queens. We
sponsored free lectures, poetry readings, anti-Communist political
rallies, and free movies, all while seeking to meet potential
converts. I recruited several people, and they were instructed to drop
out of college, too. At that point, we were the most successful
C.A.R.P. chapter in the country.

				I was in a high-speed daze of exhaustion, zeal, and emotional
overload. I generally slept between three and four hours a night.
Almost all my time that first year was spent recruiting and lecturing.
Occasionally I went out with others “fundraising”—selling flowers or
other items on the street—to support the house and the operations of
the New York church. I was also ordered to fast for three days,
drinking only water. Later, I would do three separate seven-day fasts,
having been told that fasting was an “indemnity condition” (a supposed
restitution to God for some past transgression).

				During my time in the group, I was directly involved in many
political demonstrations, though they were usually organized under the
names of front groups. (Over the years, the Moon organization has
created and used hundreds of such groups.)[34] For example, in July
1974, I was sent to the Capitol steps with several hundred Moonies,
under the name National Prayer and Fast for the Watergate Crisis, to
fast for three days and demonstrate in support of then-President
Richard Nixon.

				Before joining the Moonies I had had several arguments with my
father at the dinner table about Nixon. My father, a businessman, was
at that time a die-hard Nixon supporter. I voted for McGovern and had
always felt strongly that Nixon was not to be trusted. In fact I had
often referred to him as a crook. Now, in the heat of my Moon-inspired
prayer vigil for Nixon, I called my parents from Washington to tell
them about the fast. Because my father had always been so staunchly
behind Nixon, I thought he would be pleased.

				When I told him the news, my father said to me, “Steven, you were
right. Nixon’s a crook!”

				“But Dad, you don’t understand; God wants Nixon to be President!”

				“Now I know you are brainwashed,” my father said. “The guy’s a crook.”

				It was only after I left the group that I laughed at the irony of
that moment.

				Later in 1974, I was part of a seven-day fast in front of the
United Nations.[35] There was a pending vote on whether the UN would
withdraw its troops from South Korea because of human rights
violations. We were personally instructed by Sun Myung Moon not to
tell anyone that we were members of the Unification Church or had any
political motivation. That time we had a front group called The
American Committee for Human Rights for Japanese Wives of North Korean
Repatriates. We successfully shifted the delegates’ focus from human
rights abuses in South Korea to those perpetrated by North Korea. The
vote to withdraw was defeated. The Moonies claimed a victory and we
were told the South Korean government was pleased.[36]

				Being so close to “the Messiah” was exhilarating. I felt
incredibly fortunate to be part of this movement. I took things very
seriously because of the potential spiritual repercussions of
everything I did. I thought my every action had monumental and
historical implications. I strived to be the perfect son of the “True
Parents”[37]—obedient and loyal. (These two virtues were valued above
all else.) I always did what I was told, and then some. I wanted to
prove my loyalty, and I was tested many times by Kamiyama and other
leaders.

				As a leader myself, I was able to see and hear things that
rank-and-file members never could. Once, in late 1974, Moon took a few
of us to inspect some new real estate he had acquired in Tarrytown. As
usual, he gave an impromptu talk. “When we take power in America,” he
said, “we will have to amend the Constitution and make it a capital
offense for anyone to have sexual relations with anyone other than the
person assigned to them.” He explained that any sex that was not
God-centered was the greatest sin a person could commit. If a person
could not overcome temptation, it would be better to take away their
physical body. We would be doing them a favor, and make it easier to
restore them to righteousness in the spirit world. I thought of all
the married people not in the movement who were destroying their
spiritual bodies by having sex. At the time, I didn’t stop to think of
the mass genocide that might result if we took over America and the
world.

				Leadership had other benefits, too. On one occasion, Moon gave me
an Italian hand-blown glass figurine and $300 in cash as presents. I
even played softball with his son and heir apparent, Hyo Jin Moon.
Twice I ate with Moon at his lavish dinner table. I came to love the
feeling of getting up in front of hundreds of people and giving a
Sunday service or a Divine Principle lecture; of having members look
up to me as a wonderful, spiritual person.

				There were even “miracles” in my life. At one point I learned that
all American members had been ordered by Moon to undergo 120-day
leadership training. Much to my surprise, Kamiyama interceded with
Moon to keep me from being sent to that training session. I was
brought before Moon—referred to by members as “Father”—and before I
knew what had happened, he put his hand over my head and announced
that I had just graduated from the 120-day program! When I asked
Kamiyama why he had requested my exemption from the training, he told
me that I was too important where I was in New York and that he didn’t
want to lose me. I had received the approval of a man who, I thought,
was God’s representative on Earth.

				Moon had an interesting, fairly typical narcissistic way of
behaving—nice then nasty, double bind of motivating leaders. He would
be nice to us at first, buying us gifts and taking us out for dinner
or a movie. Then he would bring us back to his estate and yell and
scream about how poorly we were performing.

				Moon also liked to stimulate the highest degree of competition
between leaders in order to maximize productivity. He would single out
someone who was very successful at recruiting or fundraising (he did
this with me), and present that person as a model of excellence,
shaming the others into being more successful. It is ironic that
whereas Moon’s stated goal was to unify the world, many of his
strategies fostered jealousy and spite among leaders, virtually
ensuring a lack of unity.

				When I knew him, Moon was a movie junkie. One of his favorite
movies was _Rocky_, which he watched repeatedly, he told us. On one
memorable occasion he told us that we had to have the same
determination as Rocky Balboa to defeat our enemy. Later he spent $48
million to make a film of his own, _Inchon_, about General Douglas
MacArthur’s landing in Korea to stop the Communist invasion. Even
though Moon bought top talent in Laurence Olivier and Jacqueline
Bisset, _Inchon_ was an abysmal failure. It was the most expensive
movie ever made up to that time, and received resoundingly bad reviews
from critics.[38]

				Looking back on it all now, I believe one of Moon’s major problems
was his incredible narcissism and unwillingness to admit he didn’t
know everything. He had grandiose plans, but he was often
shortsighted, as he thought he was above the law. He always seemed
more concerned with immediate results than with possible negative
consequences in the future. His disregard for legal and accounting
advice eventually landed him in jail.[39] His use of deception in
order to buy real estate and businesses caused great enmity in many
communities. His use of political shortcuts, like supporting Nixon,
brought him into the national spotlight, but also alerted people to
his background and his unethical practices. This lack of foresight
eventually caused his organizations tremendous problems.

				I became the main lecturer at the national Unification Church
office opposite the main public library in Manhattan. That month the
headquarters had been moved from Washington, D.C., to bring its
American leadership under stricter control. I was made assistant
director of the Unification Church at national headquarters and was
told to set an example to Neil Salonen, then president of the
Unification Church of America. Mr. Kamiyama told me that Neil needed
to learn how to submit totally to the Korean and Japanese leadership
in the church, as I had. I had been placed in the headquarters to
teach him the “Japanese standard.”

				In my new position, it was my job to recruit newcomers to
workshops. There had been a good deal of negative media reports, and
we felt we were being “persecuted.” We were told to identify with
Jesus and the early Christians: the more people opposed us, the more
committed we felt to “go the way of the cross.” At that time the media
carried some sensationalistic articles and television shows about the
Moon cult, which reinforced our fears that Communists were now taking
control of America. Re-motivated by our increased level of fear, we
continued our recruiting activities at a blinding pace. We all felt a
great deal of pressure to recruit a minimum of at least one new person
per member per month, and all members had to report their activities
each night to their _central figure_. It was as if we were God’s army
in the middle of a spiritual war—the only ones who could go to the
front lines and fight Satan each day.

				When Moon decided to give a lecture at Yankee Stadium in 1976, he
needed to raise several million dollars for the publicity campaign. At
this point, I was sent out with other American leaders as part of a
model fundraising team in Manhattan. We fundraised 21 hours a day. We
were constantly out on the streets, in the worst places imaginable.
Once I was almost mugged in Harlem by someone with a garrote who saw
me selling candles at night. Another time a man demanded my money and
threatened me with a knife near my stomach. As a loyal, dedicated
Moonie, I would never let anyone steal God’s money and refused. Both
times, I narrowly escaped.
				
				
				Falling Asleep At The Wheel

				One irony of my experience in the Moonies is that the higher I
rose in the organization, the closer I got to the total burn-out and
exhaustion that eventually led to my exit from the group. Because I
was so successful at fundraising, I pressed myself to the limit again
and again. I had been trained to have little concern for my overall
well-being during those days. The most important thing was to work as
hard as I could for “Father.’’ Fortunately for me, though, my family
had not forgotten about me. They were deeply concerned and desired to
see me back to my creative, independent self.

				Members were repeatedly told horror stories about deprogramming. I
had come to believe that group members were brutally kidnapped,
beaten, and tortured by deprogrammers—Satan’s elite soldiers committed
to breaking people down and destroying their faith in God.[40] A
couple of members were sent around to different centers to tell us
about their deprogramming experiences. Fear of the outside world,
particularly of our parents, was drilled into our minds. Although I
didn’t realize it then, each successive deprogramming story was more
terrifying—and more exaggerated—than the one before.

				After my time on the model fundraising team in Manhattan, I was
told that my family was trying to kidnap and deprogram me. I was sent
“underground” to Pennsylvania. I was instructed not to tell my family
my whereabouts and to have all my mail forwarded through another city.
Years later, after I left the group, I suspected I had been sent out
of town as a distraction. The Moonies wanted to keep me from pursuing
some disturbing questions about the validity of the “time parallels”
used in the _History of Restoration_ lecture. I had discovered some
glaring inconsistencies. It was dangerous for someone in my position
in the organization to ask questions that couldn’t be answered. The
other group leaders filled me with so much fear about deprogrammers
that my questions were shelved. I believed my spiritual survival was
at stake.

				After a couple of months of fundraising on a model team in
Pennsylvania, I was put in charge of all fundraising in Baltimore. My
regional commander ordered me to have each member bring in a minimum
of $100 a day, even if it meant staying up all night to reach that
goal. I had a team of eight inexperienced fundraisers. As a good
leader, I had to set an example and stay up with them.

				I drove my team hard, and together they averaged over $1,000 a day
in total profit—tax-exempt cash. It was also my responsibility to
feed, clothe, and shelter my team, as well as to order, buy, and pick
up product—the items we pushed on people—and to collect the cash
nightly and wire it to New York twice a week. We sold chocolate mints,
peanut brittle, chocolate bars, roses, carnations, and candles. The
markups were enormous. A box of mints that cost us 30 cents was sold
for two dollars. A ten-cent flower was sold for a minimum of a dollar,
and usually two dollars.

				People would buy these items from us because they thought they
were donating to a charitable cause. Our consciences had been
reprogrammed by Moon’s value system. We told people we were sponsoring
Christian youth programs: a lie. We told them we operated drug
rehabilitation houses: another lie. We told them that we were helping
orphaned kids: another lie. On the spur of the moment we told them
anything that we thought would work.[41] Since we thought saving the
world from evil and establishing God’s kingdom on Earth was the most
important effort on the planet, we didn’t see it as “real” lying.

				After all, every person but us was being controlled by Satan, and
it was up to us “Heavenly Children” to claim money back from Satan for
God’s Messiah, Sun Myung Moon. We believed we were saving the world
from Satan and Communism by selling those products, and that we were
giving people the opportunity to help the Messiah create the Garden of
Eden on Earth.

				At about 5:30 a.m. on April 23, 1976, I was driving the van to
pick up the last member of my group, who had been out all night
fundraising in front of a 24-hour convenience store. I hadn’t slept at
all in the previous two days and was driving alone. Usually I had
someone ride “shotgun” position to protect me from being attacked by
evil forces, including “sleep spirits.” As ridiculous as it seems now,
I actually believed that spiritual entities were all around me,
waiting to invade me and possess me. This was all part of the mind
control indoctrination. Staying focused on the True Parents was the
only way to ward off the evil spirits. If my attention wavered, I
could be taken over. Phobias such as this kept me and other members
dependent and compliant.

				This time I was overconfident. I fell asleep and awoke abruptly.
All I could see was the red back end of the eighteen-wheeler I was
driving into at high speed. I hit the brakes, but it was too late. The
impact was terrifying. The van was crushed and I was pinned. The pain
was excruciating, but I could do nothing—I was trapped. The door had
to be sawn off. It took an emergency team about thirty minutes to set
up a winch and pull the steering column forward to make enough room to
free me. The whole time they worried that the van might catch fire and
blow up. My rescuers told me it was a “miracle” that I survived.

				All I could think was “Father, forgive me” and “Crush Satan.” Over
and over I chanted those lines to try to focus my mind on God and beg
His forgiveness. I thought what had happened was “spiritual”—that I
had been tested by Satan in the spirit world and had been defeated,
and that this was what caused the accident, not the fact that I hadn’t
slept in days. Like any dedicated cult member I blamed myself for not
being “pure” enough. It didn’t dawn on me that I was programmed to be
chronically sleep deprived.

				I felt that I had been chosen by God, tested by this holy mission,
but had failed.

				Deprogramming: How I Found My Way Back To Myself

				After two weeks in the hospital and an operation for my broken
leg, I got permission from my Moonie superior to visit my sister Thea.
I was able to do this for several reasons. Thea had never openly
criticized my involvement in the Moonies. When I talked with her, she
appealed to my love and told me that she wanted her newborn son to
know his Uncle Steve. I made a deal with her: don’t tell my parents or
Stef, my oldest sister, that I was coming to visit, since I feared
they might try to deprogram me. Also I was a trusted leader—someone
whose faith in God and in the group was believed to be absolute. I
convinced Kamiyama that it would be a “good condition” for Satan (my
sister) to take care of one of God’s soldiers (me), not diverting
members from their work by tending to me.

				The accident, however, began breaking the Moonies’ hold over me in
several ways. First, I could sleep, eat, and rest. Second, I could
finally see my beloved sister. Third, I could slow down and think,
being away from the group’s constant reinforcement. Fourth, Thea
decided to tell my parents, so a plan to rescue me was put into place.
Fifth, I had a cast on my right leg from my toes to my pelvis, so I
couldn’t move without crutches. I could neither fight nor run away.

				I was sitting on the living room couch at my sister’s home, when
my father appeared unexpectedly. He sat down next to me and asked, “
How are you doing?” When I said “fine,” he stood up. He said, “That’s
great!” He took my crutches to the other side of the room. Suddenly,
on cue seven more people appeared and announced that they had come to
“talk to me about my affiliation with the Unification Church.” I was
shocked, and realized I was trapped. I told them to call my office and
make an appointment to speak with me.

				Since I was thoroughly programmed, I immediately “knew” that the
deprogramming team had been sent directly by Satan. In my terror,
their faces looked like images of demons. It was very surprising to
me, then, when they turned out to be warm and friendly. They spent
several hours talking at me about what they knew to be wrong with the
Moonies. As a committed member, I did thought-stopping, sang “holy
songs,” chanted and prayed silently to keep from hearing them. After
all, I had been told all about deprogramming by leaders of the group.
I wasn’t going to allow my “faith in God” to be broken by Satan. I
kept telling them that they needed to make an appointment and that I
did not want to speak with them.

				The next morning my father said that we were going to go for a
drive to see my mother. What had actually happened, I learned later,
was that the Moonies had called to see why I hadn’t reported in and
were on their way to rescue me. Believing that my mother would be
sympathetic and put an end to the deprogramming, I eagerly hobbled on
my crutches and got into the back seat of the car, with my broken leg
outstretched. My father was driving, and two of the deprogrammers sat
next to him. I became angry, though, as my father passed the exit from
the Long Island Expressway to my parents’ home. While it might seem
hard to believe, my first impulse was to kill my father by reaching
over and snapping his neck. I actually believed it was better to do
that than betray the Messiah! As a member, I had been told many times
that it was better to die or kill than to leave the church.[42]

				At that point, however, I was still confident that they could
never break me. I knew I would have other chances to escape, so I
decided not to kill my father, myself and the others in the car. When
we arrived at the apartment in which the deprogramming was scheduled
to continue, I refused to get out of the car without a fight. I
threatened my father with extreme violence. I told him that I would
fight to my death and if I bled to death, it would be on his
conscience.

				My father turned around from the driver’s seat and started to cry.
I had seen my father cry only once before: a couple of tears when I
was fifteen when my grandmother died. Then, as now, I felt a big lump
in my throat and an ache in my heart. “This is crazy,” he pleaded.
“Tell me, what would you do? How would you feel if your son—your only
son—went away for a weekend workshop and all of a sudden disappeared,
dropped out of college, quit work, and got involved with such a
controversial organization?”

				That was the first time since I had joined that I allowed myself
to think—for even a moment—from his perspective. I felt his pain, his
anguish and worry, as well as his parental love. But I still believed
he had been brainwashed by the Communist media.

				I answered, “Probably the same thing that you’re doing now.” I
meant it. “What do you want me to do?” I asked.

				“Just talk to these people,” he replied. ‘’Listen to what they
have to say. Then your mother and I will be able to sleep at night,
knowing that you have heard the other side and that we have done the
responsible thing.”

				“For how long?” I asked.

				“For five days.” he said.

				“Then what—can I go back if I want to?”

				“Yes, I will drive you back myself. If you want to come out, that
will be your choice.”

				I thought about the proposition. I _knew_ that what I had been
doing was right. I _knew_ that God wanted me to remain in the group. I
knew the Messiah personally, in the flesh. I knew the Divine Principle
by heart. What did I have to fear? Besides, I believed that I could
prove to my parents once and for all that I wasn’t brainwashed. Also,
I knew that if I remained with my parents involuntarily and then
escaped, I could be ordered to press kidnapping charges against them.
I didn’t want to do that.

				I agreed to stay and listen, voluntarily. I would not contact the
Moonies for five more days. Also, I would make no effort to escape. I
would talk to the ex-members and listen to what they wanted to tell
me, taking breaks as often as I wished.

				The former members were not at all what I expected. I assumed,
because of my training, that they would be cold, calculating,
unspiritual, money hungry, and abusive. They were warm, caring,
idealistic, and spiritually minded, and they treated me with respect.
As former members, they should have been miserable and guilt-ridden.
They weren’t. They were very happy that they were out and free to lead
their lives as they were doing. All of this was very perplexing.

				I was a very difficult person to deprogram. I fought the process
with prayer and chanting and threw up expert barricades of denial,
rationalizations, justifications, and wishful thinking. The former
members brought out psychiatrist Robert Jay Lifton’s book _Thought
Reform and the Psychology of Totalism_ and discussed the techniques
and processes used by the Communist Chinese (the enemy!) to brainwash
people during the 1950s. It became obvious to me that the processes we
used in the Moonies were almost identical. A big question for me began
to emerge, “Does God have to use the same tactics as Satan in order to
make an ideal world?” Thinking and reasoning for me at that time felt
like wading through waist-high mud.

				On the fourth day they discussed Hitler and the Nazi movement,
comparing Moon and his philosophy of world theocracy to Hitler’s
global goals for German National Socialism. At one point, I remember
getting angry and saying, “I don’t care if Moon is like Hitler! I’ve
chosen to follow him and I will follow him till the very end!” When I
heard myself say that, an eerie chill went down my spine. I quickly
suppressed it.

				On the morning of the last day of deprogramming, I had the
indescribable experience of my mind suddenly opening up, as if a light
switch had been thrown. The former members had asked me to read one of
Moon’s speeches to members of Congress.[43] He was talking about how
he said that Americans were too smart to allow themselves to be
brainwashed by a Korean, and how that he respected Americans very
much. I had listened to him say, on at least a dozen occasions, how
stupid, lazy, and corrupt Americans were, particularly politicians.
Also, three Americans, former members, were sitting in front of me,
and they each took turns telling me that they had been brainwashed by
Moon.

				I had the first negative thought about Moon in over two years:
“What a snake!”

				That was it. Over two years of programming started collapsing like
an elaborate house of cards. It had all been built upon one belief,
that Moon was God’s greatest chosen man in all history—the Messiah.
But if he was a liar, that meant he wasn’t trustworthy and wasn’t of
God.

				I believed in a God of Truth.

				I started to cry inconsolably.

				I asked everybody to leave the room.

				I cried for a very long time. Someone returned and gave me a cold
compress for my forehead. My head pounded, and I felt like a large
throbbing open wound. That night was the most painful time of my whole
life.

				Recovery: Returning To Me

				After rediscovering myself, I had a whole new string of questions
in my mind. How could I have ever believed that a multimillionaire
industrialist from Korea was the Messiah? How could I have turned my
back on almost every moral and ethical principle I’d ever had? How
could I have done so many cruel things to so many people? The fantasy
I had used to inspire myself day after day and month after month was
gone. What was left was a frightened, confused, indignant person. I
felt as though I had awakened from a surreal dream and wasn’t sure
what was reality—or as if I had stepped off a skyscraper and was
headed toward the Earth, but I kept falling and never hit the ground.

				I was overwhelmed by many emotions. I was sad and missed my
friends in the group, particularly my “spiritual children,” the people
I recruited. I missed the excitement of feeling that what I was doing
was cosmically important. I missed the feeling of power that
single-mindedness brought. Now, all I knew was that my leg was broken.
I was broken. I felt tremendous embarrassment about having fallen for
a cult. My parents had told me it was a cult. So had my friends. Why
hadn’t I listened to them? Why hadn’t I trusted them? It took me many
weeks before I could thank my family for helping me. It was months
before I could even refer to the Moonies as a cult, publicly.

				I read for months. For me, the burning issue was how the Moonies
had ever managed to convert me and indoctrinate me so thoroughly that
I could no longer think for myself. I read everything I could get my
hands on about brainwashing, attitude change, persuasion, thought
reform, mind control, undue influence, and cults. At first, the act of
reading itself was extremely difficult. I had read only Moon
literature for more than two years. I had trouble concentrating and
was sometimes spaced out for long periods, not comprehending what I
was reading. I was told that the mind is like a “muscle” and would
regain its power through exercise. I forced myself to look up words in
the dictionary. I forced myself to read line by line until I worked my
way back to being able to concentrate and read pages at a time and be
able to explain what I had read.

				Living at home was difficult. I was pretty depressed. My leg
needed a second operation. Since I still had a full cast on my leg, I
needed crutches to move about, to eat, even to go to the bathroom. I
was unaccustomed to being so dependent. I had been running a house and
controlling the lives of many members. Now I was a captain with no one
to lead. I felt terrible for what I had put my family through. They
were wonderful to me, but I felt a tremendous sense of guilt.

				I felt even more guilt for what I had done as a Moonie. I had lied
to people, manipulated them, tricked them, and induced them to abandon
their families, education, and relationships to follow a would-be
dictator.[44] The guilt turned to anger the more I studied mind
control.

				I tracked down Dr. Robert Jay Lifton and arranged a meeting at his
apartment in Manhattan. He was curious to know why I was so interested
in a book about Chinese brainwashing he had written 15 years earlier,
in 1961. He was amazed when I described to him, in detail, what the
Moonies do to recruit members and how they run their 3 day workshops,
their 7 day workshops, and their 21 day, 40 day, and 120





Tail of Chapter 1 Endnotes

                                25.  James Ridgeway, “Bush Sr. To
Celebrate Rev. Sun Myung
Moon—Again: Ex-president’s keynote speech at Washington Times bash
this month is latest link between Bush and Unification Church
founder,” Mother Jones magazine, (April  29, 2007).
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/2007/04/bush-sr-celebrate-rev-sun-myung-moon-again
                                26.  Sun Myung Moon, “The Significance
of the Training Session,”
Master Speaks (May 17, 1973).
                                27.  Frank Greve, The Philadelphia
Inquirer, Knight-Ridder News
Service (December 20, 1987).“Moon/Mormon Conference for Legislators,”
City Paper (Washington DC July  25-31, 1986).
                                28.  Andrew Ferguson, “Can Buy Me
Love: The Mooning of
Conservative Washington,” The American Spectator, (September 1987).
                                29.  Frank Greve, The Philadelphia
Inquirer, (syndicated by
Knight-Ridder News Service, December 20, 1987).
                                30.  James Ridgeway, “Bush Sr. To
Celebrate Rev. Sun Myung
Moon—Again: Ex-president’s keynote speech at Washington Times bash
this month is latest link between Bush and Unification Church
founder,” Mother Jones magazine, April  29, 2007.
http://www.motherjones.com/politics/2007/04/bush-sr-celebrate-rev-sun-myung-moon-again

Chapter 2 Endnotes

31.  Douglas Lenz, “Twenty-two Months As a Moonie,” Lutheran Church of
America Partners (Feb 1982), 13-15. Josh Freed, Moonwebs (Toronto:
Dorset Publishing, Inc., 1980), 191.
32.  “Jacob’s Curse and Our Life in Faith,” (May 27,1973), 3. Robert
Boettcher, Gifts of Deceit–Sun Myung Moon, Tongsun Park and the Korean
Scandal (New York: Holt, Rinehart and Winston, 1980), 343-344.
33.  Kamiyama was co-convicted with Moon for conspiracy to defraud the
U.S. government of tax revenues. U.S. vs. Sun Myung Moon and Takeru
Kamiyama: Kamiyama accused of aiding/abetting filing of false returns,
obstruction of justice, and perjury.
34.  Michael Warder, “Bribemasters,” Chronicles (June 1988). Fraser Report, 313.
35.  “The Seven Day Fast,” Master Speaks (Oct 20, 1974), 19.
36.  “Children’s Day,” Master Speaks (Aug 4, 1974), 12.
37.  Moon and Hak Ja Han, his third wife, were regarded by members to
be the perfect Adam and Eve. Moon’s theology says that the original
Eve was tempted into sexual intercourse by Satan before she had grown
to perfection, and then she seduced Adam. Therefore, all mankind were
the offspring of tainted blood. The kingdom of heaven will be
established when God sends a perfect man again in order to establish
the “pure” lineage. Jesus was killed before he had a chance to marry
and have perfect children. Therefore, Moon (being ‘perfect’ himself)
can spiritually “adopt” members into his “true family” and assign them
marriage partners in order to redo their spiritual lineage. Moon
married more than 2,000 such couples in Madison Square Garden in 1984.
38.  Vernon Scott, “Controversy Shrouds Obscure Movie, ‘Inchon,’ ”
Santa Barbara News– Press (Oct 10, 1982). “Times Kill Review,”
Washington Post (Sept 18, 1982), C1. “Stars Tricked into Making Cult
Movie,” Globe (June 8, 1982).
39.  Fred Clarkson. “The Messiah Who Bilked IRS,” The Sacramento Bee
(Sept 15, 1985). Herbert Rosedale, “Moon’s Conviction Justified by the
Record,” The Cult Observer (Nov 1984).
40.  Douglas Lenz[…]”
40.  Douglas Lenz, “Twenty-two Months as a Moonie,” Lutheran Church of
America Partners (Feb 1982).,12. Steve Kemperman, Lord of the Second
Advent (Ventura, California: Regal Books, 1982), 14.
				41.  Christopher Edwards, Crazy for God (Englewood Cliffs, New
Jersey: Prentice-Hall, Inc., 1979), 144-145.
				42.  Douglas Lenz, “Twenty-two Months As a Moonie,” Lutheran
Church of America Partners (Feb 1982), 12. Jerry Carroll and Bernard
Bauer, “Suicide Training in the Moon Cult,” New West (Jan 29, 1979),
62.
				43.  “God’s Plan for America,” Sun Myung Moon (Dec 18, 1975).
				44.  Marcia R. Rudin, “The Cult Phenomenon: Fad or Fact?” New York
University Review of Law and Social Change (Vol. IX, No. I), 31.
				45.  Fraser Report, 311-392.
				46.  To learn more about Aureet’s life and her important
contributions, please see http://bar-yam.org/aureet/ Aureet Bar-Yam
Hassan’s (index all) Theory of Interpersonal Development, which
deserves much wider attention, please see
http://bar-yam.org/aureet/Psychologist/Theory/index.html