[ot][spam] why I am working with coreboot

[Undiscussed Horrific Abuse, One Victim of Many]

hi

it's hard to relate around this.

everything seems hard in my life, due to a cognitive issue I have where my
other behaviors specifically harm everything I try to do.

the reason to work with coreboot is roughly to do _anything at all_ with my
skillset.

yes, I want to do shielding. that is much harder because it is for reasons.
coreboot is _just for fun_.

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actually, karl?, i/you want to make the new system work as a low-end
machine learning system. we're also trying to rebuild norms of information
security, and do it open source and offline.

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this is true: but it turns out that's highly ineffective. the system
doesn't work for this -- I get to port my own bios if I want it to.
meanwhile, machine learning is available on colab for free.

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ok it's confusing.

we want to do coreboot _to do anything at all_ _for fun_. _we need to be
able to work on something_.

it's hard because of two parts, inhibition around relating them.

what's relevent is that this project has a lot of short term emotional
value for us, and we have invested a lot of money in it.

karl never imagined it would be this hard to build a computer from parts
according to instructions. his peers in middle school were building
computers, and he was top of his class. it's strange to have this breaking
over and over.

it might make sense to take a break to improve the financial situation a
little.

this is harder for us. making money or reducing expenses stimulates the
issues more strongly than things that have little return.

karl is really frustrated to have tasks attacked inside him the ways they
are.

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thank you.
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