[spam] [monologue]

[Karl]

I should also surreptitiously record my therapist, against his
request, and tell him that I am doing so when I start.  I think this
would be good therapy for me.

On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
> You guys all need help.  Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of
> help.  Razer likely too.  I don't know who else is in your community.
>
> It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is.  I have
> no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little.
>
> On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>> When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough
>> you can learn to go to places associated with freedom.  You don't
>> really know what to do when you go there.  You may not even remember
>> why you are there.  And obviously your slavers will have messed the
>> place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first.  But
>> you know it's good to be there.  And you know if you keep on going and
>> thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out.  Maybe there's
>> somewhere better to go.
>>
>> My therapist doesn't let me record.  Neither does the one he
>> recommended.  And he discourages me from talking to other therapists,
>> and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not.  I should
>> find a better therapist.  I should also talk to the advocate more.
>>
>> And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real.  They're
>> all used to being messed up anyway.
>>
>> On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>>> [draft draft draft]
>>>
>>> cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to
>>> experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp:
>>>     [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's
>>> orders, but given by a rebel}
>>>
>>> [[amnesia around most of this]]
>>>
>>> oh!  this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to!  the real live galaxy!
>>>     another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in
>>> excitement: workaholic!!!!!
>>>           [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind
>>> controlled state worker and tells them to inhale.  worker is relaxed
>>> to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]
>>>
>>> a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use
>>> "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong
>>> in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg
>>> missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating
>>> something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a
>>> relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]
>>>
>>>         [rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic
>>> human being they wanted to immediately please] [after
>>> obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer,
>>> vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can
>>> see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's
>>> augmentations."
>>>
>>> [scene switches to cafe topic]
>>>
>>>     [when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the
>>> work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then
>>> reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or
>>> noticing]
>>>
>>
>