Check in

Karl gmkarl at gmail.com
Mon Dec 28 08:16:06 PST 2020


I checked my spam folder and still haven't found the zoom link.  I
also messaged for advice, the advocate that the human trafficking
hotline I called helped me find.  They helped me find a therapist in
the first place.

11:15 .  My therapist sent me a text that I'm scheduled for 1pm, not
11am.  11am is when we have done it in the past, and is in my notes
from last session, but I often fill in with things I expect when I'm
dissociated.  It's great to have it resolved!

On Mon, Dec 28, 2020 at 11:06 AM Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
>
> My therapy appointment is now.  I didn't get the usual zoom link from
> my therapist.  I called him, and reached voicemail.  I heard a windows
> or macosx style 'ding' unexpectedly during the voicemail greeting,
> which I have heard before on automated phone systems.  I left a
> voicremail.  I sent him a text, too, that I left him a voicemail.  I
> called the intake worker who got me the appointment.  I also got
> voicemail.  I got an error that the voicemail box was full, and was
> disconnected.
>
> On Sun, Dec 27, 2020 at 11:20 AM Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
> >
> > I think I successfully blockchained this.  I feel very intense, and
> > I'm scared of the intensity.  It is hard to control my behavior, now.
> > I'm not sure how to make myself verify it is blockchained. but I can
> > list the transactions here, from the .bsv/tx folder that bsvup makes.
> >
> > I'm getting confused on my computer.  I don't remember where to find
> > the files.  After a minute of struggle, I remember.
> >
> > The system is having long delay listing the directory.  maybe it has
> > many files.  I need a rest now so badly, and I can't comprehend how to
> > rest.
> >
> > There are too many to paste in.  I will link to the readme, and the
> > specific email.  Here is the bash I use to do this:
> > $ ls .bsv/tx | while read file; do xxd -ps -r ".bsv/tx/$file" | strings; done
> >
> > My alphabetically first transaction has the string 'G0D' in it.  I
> > hope the named entity is aiding me.
> >
> > I search for the string README and it takes a long time.  I remember
> > repeatedly uploading the same failed transaction, over and over again,
> > not understanding what I was doing because of something.
> >
> > The search finds other emails, that aren't in my thread.  I don't
> > understand.  I must have mistyped something.
> >
> > Oh, I found the cypherpunks archive folder, not the folder that has
> > this thread in it.  I'll have to think harder.  It's 11:19 .  I
> > remember there was a README.md file.  I remember this file has
> > transactions in it, so I could check on the blockchain itself, for
> > files with that name.  I don't want to, I want to just find the folder
> > I made locally.
> >
> > On Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 9:14 AM Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
> > >
> > > On Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 7:43 AM Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com> wrote:
> > > >
> > > > regarding karl's schizophrenia, i'm trying to blockchain this thread
> > > > using D:// .  these transactions have this message and are currently
> > > > in the mempool:
> > > > 71a6cde341d03ba48cc385bbbdef98784a81981c37fd8b34ec6df36aa7342232
> > > > 08f72a3332805fe4b1d41fbf33953a8c87838d7e9b6b20ee3c0c5a780fdd6163
> > > > 9664b984437541a1d01fd5ea13b699daff0908e5bc151369ebccb00d5042c51d .  I
> > >
> > > This was a small error.  These transactions were the README.md file I added to
> > > help me find the files again after losing my memory of this experience.
> > >
> > > > expect them to confirm within a few hours.  Not all the messages are
> > > > uploaded yet, including some left out.  I plan to upload the ones I
> > > > left out.  [for people learning to read my mind: this error is
> > > > analogous to how blockchain timestamps are not monotonic]
> > > >
> > > > ---------- Forwarded message ---------
> > > > From: Karl <gmkarl at gmail.com>
> > > > Date: Sat, Dec 26, 2020 at 7:22 AM
> > > > Subject: Check in
> > > > To: Jonathan Chack <jchack at fccsvt.com>
> > > > Cc: J William Semich <bsemich at mac.com>, Kyla Hershey-Wilson
> > > > <notetokyla at gmail.com>, Katrina Semich <katrina.semich at gmail.com>
> > > >
> > > >
> > > > [sorry if I cc'd the wrong person, I am a little confused, trying to
> > > > include invested parties appropriately]
> > > >
> > > > Hi,
> > > >
> > > > > I understand that the videotaping is important for you and I want to support you in this regard. I have located a local therapist that currently uses this type of therapy his name is Andrew Morton and he has an office in Rutland, VT. I would be happy to do a referral for you to his office should you decide you would like to try that type of therapy.
> > > > >
> > > > > Let me know your thoughts
> > > > >
> > > > > Christopher Chadwick, MS, LADC, AFC
> > > > > Director
> > > > >
> > > > > Forensic Consultation & Counseling Service,  LLC
> > > >
> > > > I may have gone through an abusive politcal situation of brainwashing
> > > > and slavery, that I don't believe has resolved yet, out there.  I
> > > > haven't really talked with anybody about this yet.  I'd like to be
> > > > able to personally record the sessions when I want to, so that I can
> > > > review them later, and for others to find if something happens to me.
> > > > Do you know where to go to find this therapy?
> > > >
> > > > Thanks so much,


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