from brora

                           what an adventure it is

   say hi to gilbert and the kids with love km

   i spent a few hours organizing my yarn and needles into that armoire

   i really really need my bedroom to be simple and uncluttered and white
   for calming purposes you know what i mean

   i swear nothing makes me happier than a peaceful space and some needles

                                       one more thought about best friends

        we gave the universe one out- if grant found a job he loved before
    springtime wed stay put even though we wanted to go to cali really bad
     and even though grant had been looking for a different job for a long
                                                                      time

      all the sudden im 30 i thought id be driving a mini van full of kids
     and happily decorating my own home but life has shown me again that i
    am not in control and as i wait for more children and a sense of being
                                                                   settled

                               cate what did you play on the computer then

               what a few hours on a sunny day can do for you

   it made me happy

      all day the kids hung out at that corner played on that grass got
     drinks out of that hose went through the secret passage way in the
    juniper bushes and only left the area to go around the block over and
   over again sometimes it was on bikes with banana seats sometimes roller
     skates sometimes big wheels sometimes walking even occasionally on
             skateboards with cardboard boxes on them (our cars)

     snacks NUTS i would die without nuts i love roasted almonds cashews
     peanuts i also love those roasted edamame they taste like nuts even
   though theyre not and nuts taste really good with a few slices of swiss
     cheese also deli meat slices celery with peanut butter on it a few
     whole grain crackers with cheese beef jerky sugar free snack packs
   stuffed mushrooms hard boiled eggs string cheese protein bars crudites
                                and more NUTS

                                                      hey my little family

   ten months after we were married i was a stay at home mom living the
   student life again while grant went back to school a few months later
   another unplanned event- my mom passed away suddenly

   it was the first time i realized that things dont always go how you
   think they will and that it all can turn out better than you imagined

   messes are piling up around me making it hard to relax and get well i
   cant cuddle grant or cate- they need to stay well- so they are steering
   clear of me i am bored and tired and achy

                          im just obsessed with him

                              off to the kindergarten valentines day party