but i couldnt stop looking at the picture because it shows the place
              where i played for the first 12 years of my life

                 cate what did you play on the computer then

                   and then i realized i love her so much

   and then suddenly and to my surprise i met and married the man i had no
   idea i was dreaming of but he was perfect for me and better than
   anything i had imagined or sought after before

    at 18 i planned to live the tahoe hippie life forever one day i felt
   compelled i knew it i just had to leave i packed up my car and moved to
                              the central coast

      all day the kids hung out at that corner played on that grass got
     drinks out of that hose went through the secret passage way in the
    juniper bushes and only left the area to go around the block over and
   over again sometimes it was on bikes with banana seats sometimes roller
     skates sometimes big wheels sometimes walking even occasionally on
             skateboards with cardboard boxes on them (our cars)

    i really really need my bedroom to be simple and uncluttered and white
                                 for calming purposes you know what i mean

   i swear nothing makes me happier than a peaceful space and some needles

   we lived on a corner in a typical oc tract neighborhood

   but the commonality between each experience was- it was out of my hands
        i occasionally fell in love with someone who couldnt be had i
         occasionally had to run from someone who wouldnt let me go

   do you have to be obsessed with yarn and needles and hooks like i am to
   think that is the most inviting little space youve ever seen

   did anyone else sustain life with saltines from the ages of 13-17

               what a few hours on a sunny day can do for you

    one of my resolutions for 2009 was to stop ignoring the etsy shop and
    to not spin my wheels all day (these two problems are very related) i
     am the queen of walking in circles around the house and not really
   getting anything accomplished i wouldnt care except for that it drives
     me nuts part of the problem is my insomniatic nights which leave me
       only half there during the day times ( which then leads to high
      caffeine consumption) so i decided step one is to get good nights
   sleeps i am trying to change my night time routine to a peaceful herbal
     tea quiet inspiration seeking few hours it helps if i keep our room
   clean and the sheets freshly washed and calming reading more- tv less-
   at night is a goal then hopefully my days will be a little more with it
                         because i hate wasting time

     we gave the universe one out- if grant found a job he loved before
   springtime wed stay put even though we wanted to go to cali really bad
    and even though grant had been looking for a different job for a long
                                    time

       grant and i listened and danced to his music on valentines day

   im just obsessed with him