seriously though my closest friends are fun real and honest good
   entertaining in love with life a little crazy down to earth deep and
   incapable of bs

   i have never been an animal person i swore id never have a dog who
   wants to pick up poop not me but somehow in my baby hungry weakness i
   was convinced to relent by the other two mccalebs who said they
   desperately needed a puppy fine whatever just take care of her and pick
   up the poop

                                                       feeling so inspired

     i have been laying in bed sick since monday it seems to be getting
      worse by the day not better i am so irritated and antsy i miss my
                     family and i want to clean my house

                                                 im just obsessed with him

    and i cheat like alot well usually i ease up on weekends but i feel so
        crappy and bloated again that i cant wait to start eating right on
         monday but i have kind of had to tell myself this is just the new
        lifestyle and if i want to indulge every now and again im going to
     cause id rather die than not be able to have some chips and guac or a
   slice of cake every now and again so if i eat like this 90% of the time
     then ive noticed that my body or the scale doesnt mind if i wander in
    my choices a bit the other 10% exercising everyday helps with this too
     i feel like its a great trade off- feeling great and a regular period
                                                 for a little self control

   i went to the fabric store tonight in search of prints to make some new
   spring scarves with some will probably end up in the shop too i just
   love this look also i love toast (the catalog and the cooked bread)

   and that made me think of all the insomniatic nights that she stayed up
     with me and mirrored my every move and snuggled me right out of my
      anxiety into dreamland long after grant and cate had drifted off

           it makes me too happy drawers full of yarn too glorious

   from toast

    i thought id live there forever one day when i was 12 my dad quit his
          job and we moved to lake tahoe it rocked my stable world

   one thing i enjoy about facebook is the old pictures that friends and
   fam upload to walk down memory lane together with you

    at 18 i planned to live the tahoe hippie life forever one day i felt
   compelled i knew it i just had to leave i packed up my car and moved to
                              the central coast

                           a few months in the life of this infertile girl

     (but honestly i dont snack alot when you eat so much protein you dont
                                      get hungry as often through the day)

     breakfast i always have two eggs and salsa always i dont really get
   sick of it and it would really stink if i did because theres not a lot
   out there for breakfast actually when you are at your ideal weight and
     ovulating regularly you can have any kind of whole grain hot cereal
   without a problem you know steel cut oats etc i am not quite there yet
     berries and grapes are pretty low on the glycemic index and i have
              those too oh and i love cottage cheese with fruit

     i bet that block is not nearly as big as i remember it being but i
                       remember it being quite a trip