[ot][spam][crazy] behavioral coping
after discovering relaxing is supposed to help with trauma symptoms i’ve started playing video games more i’ve started having dreams about the videogames which is not pleasant to me i really like being productive, but doing this stimulates my alter who thinks i am engaging in either terrorism or ratting _no matter what i do_. yes it switches roles between law endorcement and organized crime.
saying these things helped some. i suppose if the parts is expressing both law enforcement and organized crime one could imagine it as the latter corrupting or within the former. other options exist but corrupt or coerced authority is a quite common one seen in popular media, it was nice to have reduced urge to cope with video games. —- i’m thinking about goal, plan, act/behavior. my goal atm is roughly standing up, how easy this goal seems appears related to what i plan to do when standing. i can also plan to just stand up for a time which gets more and more difficult as i spend more time doing it for some reason,
it’s interesting to hold that multipurposed recursion goals are for plans, plans are made of goals one can view such things as having multiple potential goals or plans or as being individually associated. real life has multiple potential ones, and relevence flows associated with utility and value
goals are for plans, plans are made of goals
goals are pursued via plan development plans contain proposed goals there are 4 viewpoints from the 2 parts between. hard to conceptualize. 1. [sub]goals can be part of plans 2. plans can be built to meet goal in 2 the plan is happening after the goal is held in 1 the goal is considered within a plan
——— the dirty cops are forming plans to destroy everything using the surveillance system with will also be destroyed blimk
On 2/11/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
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the dirty cops are forming plans to destroy everything using the surveillance system with will also be destroyed
this is roughly where the 4 infkuences balance for me goal/plan crime/enforcement stimulated by plan inhibition, assoc bomb
it’s interesting and if true i hope corruption reduces with minimal suffering i’m still thinking of getting out of bed
“nobody is planning a bomb this 8s ridiculous” :) i like the brief? idea, i’ve had bomb inhibitions and fears for years. shielded room was equated with bomb, which is also ridiculous. but it doesn’t balance so i star5 8magining i’m plotting bombs in shielded rooms. the other phrase balanced.
a bomb is a physical touchable dangerous object. it is generally only deadly when physical and touchable etc, _only_ the word is relatively rare
bombs tend to contain explosive material which can detonate and pulverize and shred and burn things in the surround8ng environment from sudden violent release of high temperature and high velocity gasses and shrapnel
bombs are physical and rare and terrifying and would generally result in immediate paniced rapid evacuation of an area and the deployment of a physical bomb squad who physically approach the bomb and carefully and professionalky disassemble it so as to protect everyone.
bombs are very very rare and require many things to combine, usually military experience, also access to incendiary material as well as combination of that incendiary material to an explosive device there is also arson, which is also very very rare
a controversial point is that it is legal to plan to build a bomb, and would be quite immoral and likely illegal to punish people for simply imagining this, especially if in a private rage
here found a useful space of when things are likely to happen, and the debate around precrime, which seems to primarily need some way to prevent misuse. i have big inhibs from all the bomb talk.
really we’re progressing so far with tech a different precrime argument could be to act on what actually will happen rather than just plans, and _to act at appropriate places_ e.g. bomb deployment or direct communication rather than journals or purchased resources. i guess that could mean making a general prediction model that works so there isn’t as much controversy about who has access to it
plans, and _to act at appropriate places_ e.g. bomb deployment or direct communication rather than journals or purchased resources.
i’m guessing this is overlap with corruption since that seems quite obvious and normal. not a cop. don’t know what limits and things there are. don’t know what makes sense for somebody else.
- - mourning a voice/part who tried to protect me by preventing fake bomb building, and was attacked/harmed
the reason for prevention was the experiences around significantly increased suffering later, after very temporary reduced suffering. understanding a little that it also opens a space where some choices could be made[ kind inbetween the two.]
well i’m handling the inhibs maybe a dialog between a robot building a fake bomb and a robot preventing bombs fake bomb building robot: “i’d like to buy some fake dynamite” prop store: “here is your fake dynamite” prevention robot: “you are under arrest. we cannot have bombs here.” fake bomb building robot: “it is fake, it is to try to help your algorithm.”
dirty robocop “those times i can help the old woman rescue her cat from the tree are wonderful. i love helping people!” “but most of the time i file fake reports and hurt people, with digitally augmented precision, while my digitally augmented senses pretend to me that i succeeded.”
the debate around dirty robocops dirty mayor: “what do we do about this? it seems dangerous enough to risk my life to make better!”
maybe that’s unrealistic, i don’t know for certain. i’m thinking people who work in enforcement could be in a scary situation, seeing themselves as the go-to resource for justice and dispute resolution. what is the world if one’s own work to resolve harm appears nonfunctional? i’m thinking we have other branches of enforcement, as well as activism, lawyers, blockchains, and other things . of course i think a lot about rescue services as well, which are also present in other countries.
———————- thinking a little again of goal, plan, action i spend mornings laying prone, looking for approaches to stand up. this takes me some hours. it’s a psychological issue.
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