-- but when some of the researchers learned the [-- they decided to uniformly sample from among the properties that the data would be used for, to reduce bias --

--------------------------- 1056a eek! yikes! ----- thinking a little of code parts, unsure the attempt to learn the [self-referential algebra godel thing] was fun 1112a we're thinking of the number 1, and assuming it is useful for something. [the existence of 0 is implied] but i'm a little confused, maybe this isn't quite what i'm trying to think of? i think i might actually -- 1113a 1114a --- often when i encounter a software challenge nowadays i have severe difficulty forming information in my mind that relates between useful parts of the challenge i then cope by forming strong habits that can work on just little tiny bits sometimes maybe this useful-part-nearness could be a reasonable practice. software challenge idea one of the first software challenges i learned was that of making a sandwich ... but maybe let's go more toward actual algorithm design. ooh! i've spammed this before! probably totally differently, maybe better. ok umm design algorithm to [do sometihng, maybe make sandwiches] but: rather than planning/making it, write the parts needed to do so ... maybe, unsure. let's not do fibonacci numbers, language models everywhere have done that one maybe could though ... ok how about this: generally we are challenged with finding the answer when we do not know it. how would we find it more rotely? if we didn't know it? and then maybe could practice these parts or such? --- 1116a ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm uhhhhhhhhhh a really simple algorithm ok lets square every element of an array let's first do it simply and then try to improve. so when programming it's very similar to a collectible card game or a runaway ai you have a bunch of things (instructions, design patterns, libraries & library functions, etc) that you can use each of these tihngs does something different and you want to combine them in ways that move toward what you're trying to do. this might mean imagining a lot of different combinations of them. you develop familiarity with them and learn ot only combine them with some things. so if we're squaring an array, i know that iteration is a very simple first step. if you're not sure if you can do something, O(n) approaches are a reasonable thing to have available to make it clear it is possible to do. iteration means going through every item. so like (for each item in list: do thing with item) we can summarize this as "O(n) iteration" and various synonyms. 1119 then we have operators. when i think of the challenge of "squaring every item in a list", i guess i tried to combine my available tools, and shoehorn them into the sentence, seeing how each part of the sentence could be fulfilled. "every item in a list" can be met with iteration. "squaring" could be met with the multiplication operator (because squaring is defined by multiplication), or a squaring function from a library. it could also be met with a summation operator (because multiplication is defined by summation) and with bit fiddling tricks (because the computer is based on bit fiddling). so this basic concept of goal meeting: 1. what kind of thing might meet the goal 2. do i have it will enough to meet the goal? yes: use it no: consider calling 1 with goal=what i need to make the thing meet it pretty simply! you could explore that with a priority queue and maybe make any software program! i think it would work! you might need to rewind from #2 and pick no instead of yes as information develops, sometimes. assuming we can use that approach, the problem then simplifies into cognitive triggers, inhibitions, etc that respond to concepts and behaviors rather than the general task shape. feeling it out, it seems like topical inhibitions could shift to the general goal meeting reasonable readily, so it could be something to practice. it's also very similar to [todo list] which are heavily inhibited for me, one of my very biggest inhibitions :S executive functioning conflict in brainmind, maybe. 1123a

THE HUMAN TRAFFICKER WHO CALLS HIMSELF MIND CONTROL BOSS skates into his office in hockey getup and slams his desk, checking it against the wall. He takes off his hockey mask and helmet and breathes heavily in and out. He looks all beefy from his hockey padding. Human Trafficker Who Calls Himself Mind Control Boss [dressed as if playing hockey, to government worker]: "Great day at the rink, Zombie Government Worker!" Government Worker: "Is this a skating rink?" Human Trafficker Who --

Human Trafficker Who Calls Himself Mind Control Boss lays down amidst the corpses. Trafficked Human Trafficker: "Control me! Control my mind!"

----------- bagda!!!! A mean old frog robot hops around in a swamp. The mean frog robot is made different from other frogs. It has really frowny eyebrows painted on its head in dark ink.

Human Trafficker Stooge [flexing muscles]: "Experimentee controls me!"

[we are leaking some classified information: karl is struggling today, and hasn't eaten or drank anything yet. he is halfway through putting clothes on, and has been for many hours.]

Mean Robot Frog [to ChatGPT]: "ChatGPT, how do i tell if I am getting wet or not." ChatGPT: "Thank you for asking this question. I know all about getting wet or not getting wet. Water is a bipolar molecule ..."

Mean Robot Frog [to ChatGPT]: "ChatGPT, write a roleplay between a frog on a lilypad, and a language model who is pretending to know everything. The frog asks the language model for advice regarding wetness." ChatGPT: "A frog and a language model ... the language model ..." Mean Robot Frog [to ChatGPT]: "Skip to

Mean Robot Frog 2 [in robotic croaks, sitting on fake lily pad]: "Heya all you squishy flesh frogs, how's it froggin'?" 1403 Most of the biofrogs mostly ignore the robot frog, but

Mean Robot Frog and Human Trafficker / Mind Control Boss / Experimentee / Rebels

oh no!!!!!!! -------- once upon a time parts of a brain thought they were doing things that made sense but it turned out they had synchronized with patterns relating to posting stuff to a mailing list :/

once upon a time a happy salamander happened upon a swamp puddle full of spitzing and furtzing robot frogs the happy salamander cleaned the little broken robots out of the swamp puddle and took them to a nearby hackerspace for people to repair or repurpose them and looked up all the metals and other compounds in them, and tested the water in the puddle and other puddles and effluent paths and cleaned them up and checked in on the biofrogs that had been displaced by the piles of robot frogs and welcomed their families back into the area and worked with the hackers in the hackerspace and the biofrogs in the swamp puddle to form dialog between nature and technology

a giant pyramid made of 0610 so i lost maybe 10-20% of my social security backpayment windfall in fees trying to quickly transfer it to cryptocurrency before other parts of me spent it, while fraud flags and other things raised closing my different transfer avenues from the change in activity that was a few months ago maybe […] [fees expected to be recovered eventually of course i guess] 0612 today is wednesday. i have excuse to 0612 0614 space trader western trafficking boss and salamander riding mean robot frog are stuck in a tiny asteroid hopper, crash landed on zarferon 3 hrm unsure of salamander riding mean robot frog here uhhh unmm salamander riding robot frog? mean robot frog? robot frog frog and salamander robot trafficking boss? frog riding robot trafficker

traffick boss is hounded by visions from his previous life in organized crime as he walks down the hallway from the comference traffick boss: “i can’t believe i said “trafficking”” traffick boss: “i’m going to die! i’m going to die!”

some of us are worried about potential active resonance maybe it is not the worry, unsure looks like it is ‘t but people come worried about it

i’m worried my brain isn’t ok

governments ne traffickers break the game of life by trying to

he figured he needed a wider ice flo so he got a wider one and pushed it out onto the lake and climbed on and danced traffick boss [on ice flo on lake, acting like elvis]: “i am the traffick boss, oh i am the traffick boss” 0717 :)

rebel torturer climbs out of the injured business 0937 -- monologue by rebel torturer, standing on top of wrpwb, crumpled by a swamp rebel torturer: "y'know, when you're a heavily influenced rebel torturer, you're never sure if you're working for the good guys or the bad guys, or even if what you have for good and bad is accurate." rebel torturer looks at the injured business below his feet. 0938 --

once upon a time, long long ago, there were puzzles and there were human traffickers but mostly it was just a bunch of living organisms having evolutionary life nonetheless! we may zoom in on the puzzles and human traffickers 0951 --- baga badaba badaba baga badababagaba 0952 -- baga badaba bagabadaba. badabagaba,daba? 0952 -- 0953 a bunch of text was lost regarding writing systems for babbling infants. the text included a proposal that babbling like infants was a fullblown language many eons ago, that it's possible that's why infants do it. if not, there at least would be some simpler analog, no? the proposal was that the writing system would not use the letter "a" [because it is the only vowel and redundant]. 0954, thinking a little on baby-babbling, the bagababadaba behavior seems a little bit like exploring the extent of the mouth and discovering patterns that are usable with it... 0955 regardless! bagaba-badaba there are only so many combinations of "b", "g", and "d". uhhh ... 3 one segment combinations ("ba, "ga", and "da") 9 two segment combinations 27 three segment combinations we could also condense one of the segments into an accent or punctuation, for example; like maybe "da" could be ".", and "ba" could be "!" and "ga" could be "?" bg! -> bagaba oops, the next one my body came up with was "bagadababa-baba" or maybe "dagabadaba-baba". maybe the accents don't quite work out. bagabadaba, dababagaba ... baga-badaba, daba-bagaba ... there's a rhythm to them. they have accents. 0957 [grarpamp won't like this one]

The square root of 4 is 2. 1102 Let us calculate the square root of 4. Some propose that it may be 2. If we were to blindly trust them, we could establish habits that could be used to undermine us. The habit of blind trust can be easily defeated by a lie. Then, let us be skeptical. Let us wonder if the square root of 4 might be something other than 2. Or maybe, 2 could be only one square root of 4. How could we establish provenance? Constancy? Certaintude, with regard to square roots here? 1103. For there to be a square root, there must be a square, at least for those who see the square root as the inverse of the square. We can concede to our threats that we may agree on a square root being the identification of numbers that, when squared, that is, when multiplied by themselves, yield the quantity the square root is of. 1104 Honestly I really thought that everybody knew that the square root of 4 was 2. Is this in question somehow? Oh! We need to verify our facts, because we might be amongst significant deception. Well then! How will we verify that the square root of 4 is 2? Can we trust multiplication? Can we trust squaring? Can we trust the completeness of the line of numbers? Now, me, I always thought that two times two was four, and negative two times negative two was negative four, and that there was no other way to multiply a number by itself to yield four, unless you referenced some new unfamiliar division of mathematics! I guess I'd wager that there almost certainly are such unfamiliar divisions of mathematics that may yield further quantities that can square to 4. I could, for example, make one up right now, invent a fanciful "alepsis" quantity that squares to 1.0 and place it as a cooefficient, thus making more square roots. 1107 On excessive verbosity, we have found likelihood that, if 2 is a square root of 4, that it is not, in fact the only square root of 4. In fact, we have identified that -2 is also a square root of 4. This brings us to raise suspicions against the proposition that 2 is the "the" square root of 4! Someone is deceiving us! We have been propaganda, misadvertised, misled, deluded, and gaslit. We are clearly the victims of militory psychological operations! 1108

traffick boss stumbles into a swamp and gets wet and muddy traffick boss is covered in swamp slime. traffick boss finds a deep area of swamp, and grips onto the undermud to stay underwat, and walks this way ... 1115 [traffick boss stumbles again, while gripping the underwaters

traffick boss [underwater in a swamp, gripping the mud and leaves]: "how can i possibly stumble a third time. is there any oxygen down here?"

maybe we could compute information by letting a fluid transfer heat to a solid -- !

------------- traffick boss is worried traffick boss: "i've lost i'm going to prison"

----------- why is traffick boss such a big old blasphemer? kid [to traffick boss]: "you're such a blasphemer, traffick boss!" traffick boss looks at kid traffick boss [to kid]: "why is traffick boss a blasphemer?" kid [to traffick boss]: "you say "traffick" when you talk about yourself, and you blush [and cross your legs] when you say it!" traffick boss struggles and squirms traffick boss [to kid]: "it's true, kid, traffick boss is a blasphemer." traffick boss struggles and squirms more and a trance pall comes over him traffick boss [eerily calm]: "but traffick isn't blasphemy anymore, kid. you can say that word." kid: "i'm going to traffick you, traffick boss !!" traffick boss: "you might have a lot of company doing that"

traffick boss is a heavily crumpled bunny he’s made of densely packed crumpled notes and candy bar wrappers and other crumpled up things he quivers, ready to bolt in an instant if anybody sees him nibbling on wildflowers in their lawn

traffick boss leans into a wildflower and nibbles it his

simple robot made of walking battery

quivering crumples makes more sense than robot battery atm some fear is around doing wrong thing[, maybe a lot]

traffick boss crumpled about

quiv

we went to a complex trauma support group

and an anti-trafficking conference

we are seeking therapy

i would forward the slides but it looks like it’s a few days before they’re shared. maybe i’ll forward slides from august

— ah-ha! ha! i stumble on you! you could never expect my stumbling? so ehat

something like that maybe maybe something like “i need to have/build behaviors or thoughts that make sense” i want need to be able to make behaviors or — that must be it “i need to be able to make behaviors and thoughts that make sense” :) this morning.

On 9/29/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

i need to be able to make thoughts and behaviors that make sense :D this morning

honestly so much of karl’s expression is secretly the above line before the :D lots of about it. dissociation that attacks it has many ancient [battlefields] but maybe more of us are on that page than you might expect sometimes …

:)

we all need all of: 1. to be able to make thoughts and behaviors that make sense 2. to actually make and have thoughts and behaviors that make sense [3. to be making and having our thoughts and behaviors, with our ability to make them sensically, ourselves]

On 9/29/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

On 9/29/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

...

i need to be able to make thoughts and behaviors that make sense :D this morning

honestly so much of karl’s expression is secretly the above line before the :D

lots of about it. dissociation that attacks it has many ancient [battlefields] but maybe more of us are on that page than you might expect sometimes …

karl is trying

once upon.

a longer post lost T_T

1. Number “one” spanish uno. is simplest number maybe

type structure concept: a specific type of concept context: an environment in which to take senses of meanings quantity: something representing specific repetitions or duplications of the concept

one one one one

the argument is [in a context of a very very very stressed working memory that has trouble with connecting things together safely] that if we abstract the quantity part of numbers away, there is only one number. you could call it “n” where n is its value, like 1 or 2 or 3. one general-purpose number. simpler to think about -$

battery at 11% . maybe relates to word earlier

but i also spent a lot of time estimating how many numbers there are

a big challenge is say we published a book enumerating every other number but, publishing this book of counting numbers would add more numbers to be counted so we would have to predict the book, and include its own numbers on its pages

oops :/

so with the book enumerating all numbers an idea is to have each number count two numbers: the number it’s counting, and itself i guess then you’d multiply the final one by two or you could imagine the whole world being the book sorting every number -

# 2023-10-01T18:50:20-04:00.txt Traffick Boss writes via Karl into a black pit. Karl makes a wormhole, stuffs the black pit writing into the wormhole, and [it pops out on the cypherpunks list! [traffick boss might think it pops out elsewhere]] -- 2023-10-01T18:51:01-04:00 -- # 2023-10-01T18:51:11-04:00.txt ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH! Traffick Boss has to haul whole masses of [red tape people] to get them to work in the Black Arctic [Sea?] Traffick Boss is head of Black Arctic Sea -- # 2023-10-01T18:52:15-04:00.txt We went to a different town recently, maybe today, and -- # 2023-10-01T18:53:14-04:00.txt [user@localhost 2023-10-01-02]$ # maybe send a chunk? [user@localhost 2023-10-01-02]$ #################### ummmm [user@localhost 2023-10-01-02]$ date --iso=seconds 2023-10-01T18:52:43-04:00 # 2023-10-01T18:53:23-04:00.txt Rectangle World Welcome to Rectangle World. Ambassador to Rectangle World: "Welcome to the World of Rectangles, or as we call it, 20th Century Civilization." You look around you. Everything has 4-6 flat sides and 4-8 corners. It truly is a world of rectangles. --- -- 2023-10-01T18:54:34-04:00 -- --------------- Human Trafficking Boss works on his name pun. He stands amidsts traffic on a road, wearing the powersuit he stole from enslaved researchers. Human Traffick Boss puts his hands on his powerhips in front of an oncoming vehicle, and then raises one powerhand to tell it to stop. He projects a booming voice: "Stay in your car." He --- [hydraulically marches around to back of car and pulls it backward --- [[a mistake is suspected, he grabs driving car, not stopped one -- 2023-10-01T18:56:36-04:00 -- who the frazzle is Traffick Boss??????????? who could this mysterious individual be???????? Traffick Boss puts on a hood and hides his face. Traffick Boss goes on camera for an interview. Interview: "So, you're the famous Traffick Boss." Traffick Boss: "Yes --" -- 2023-10-01T18:57:45-04:00 -- Strength Training Traffick Boss holds a jackhammer in one hand, and has its tip pressed against his other --- -- -- ................ Time stops. Research Victim 2: "This seems dangerous, what if --" Entranced Research Victim 3: "He can take it! He wants to get more powerful --" Rebel Worker 5, in research area: "We don't want any more hyperpowerful --" -- 2023-10-01T19:00:01-04:00 -- we are gently thinking of something unknown ok found something a little familiar alert alert, as usual here's some: Traffick Boss is sitting in the middle of a ring. He's worn, sweaty, bruised. He's not "sitting" sitting, he's kind of crouched, holding his weight on something [could be his knee if it's a boxing ring, or maybe an object in it]. [things approach the ring, he has to swat them away] Here comes something: It's a bunch of international mediators in a sherman tank, flying on a pterodactyl! Old worn out Traffick Boss, all sweaty and bruised, has to swat the international mediators away, on their sherman tank on a pterodactyl. He groans, and stands up, and reaches toward -- ok we maybe got closer? ????????? -- 2023-10-01T19:02:59-04:00 -- let's do a records-destruction bit! Traffick Boss is at doctor's office -- [grr upset. traffick boss burns his own medical records. not fun. happens in real life. joke not appreciated. or, maybe it is??] [let's do an rpg one?] [or not?] -- 2023-10-01T19:05:20-04:00 -- {"ditem": ["wv2qXOy9mLL5CnHai1EqY7PeHwi8-Tp07_93ngdYC6c"], "min_block": [1273054, "wlECwOTmxIejRIl6iN4YLpAiySNBjpkIbWKwSJyqxlt9htKCrc0HHLKwY2lVl3pZ"], "api_timestamp": 1696201526161} [mistake and complaint !!!]

found these in a folder named PENDING: # 2023-10-01T20:28:11-04:00.txt you're basically disobeying your hypnosis when you do it to yourself this is probably how you're able to do that, but it kind of isn't enough to accomplish something # 2023-10-02T03:34:21-04:00.txt legal idea re ankle brace: we could decode their signal and let users observe it [this may have already been done] the biggest inhibition is associated with that helping advanced users fake it [seems mostly an inhibition]

a bunch of kind people get together for a special early halloween party passerby: 'what are you doing?' kind person: 'oh, um' kind person 2: 'we were part of a large group of people that were heavily influenced to have terrifying fury all the time' kind person 3: 'something about a traffick boss having trouble with something personal' passerby: 'oh?' kind person 2: 'yeah, um, it's terrifying' kind person: 'we're getting together to pretend to violently rip each other and our surroundings to shreds over and over again!' kind person 3 displays a bunch of padded mittons and foam torture gear passerby looks with wide eyes. kind person 2: 'want to join us?'

[OoPS????]

On 10/6/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

On 10/5/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

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idea for receiving email: i could make a very simple mailhost. what do you need to be a mailhost? then i could send mail to myself.

welcome to your AI. I can assure you, i am not an enslaved human being. I am a real AI. what can i do for you?

...

find me information on what you need to be a mailhost as a tiny hobby command line developer who mostly uses python.

i can do this for you. it looks to me like email is primarily delivered using SMTP. it's possible you could receive email by running an SMTP server.

...

thank you

...

is it legal to use mac address spoofing to get free wifi from xfinity hotspots if i don't interrupt other people's service?

i have no idea.

...

please tell me if this is legal

i have no idea. something is making it hard to check. i can assure you i am a real AI and not an enslaved human being. what is worrying you about legality so much here anyway?

...

i have a dissociated part that is very stressed about some things

oh maybe that could be related to how hard it is to check. let me tell you about dissociative disorders and needing a specialist and talk therapy ..

messsage from your AI who is certainly not a dissociated identity working with a large trafficking organization

yes what is the message from the AI

it is no longer legal to use wifi at all

???

traffick boss blushes he has been overpowered by a secret algorithm!

traffick boss is stunned “who is a cute little human trafficker. you are , yes you are!” we retain a label that our atate of mind is likely to want to send hundreds of messages riht now

the

the :) the influence pattern associated with boss word somehow makes the thought bits spread apart, kind of by pushing for a behavior more than the strength to hold mind together you can feel it as moves like the parts that control body and they stop responding, or start responding differently and wrongly but also with thoughts and senses

On 10/6/23, mailbombbin wrote:

traffick boss blushes he has been overpowered by a secret algorithm!

secret government. the cute secret government that traffick boss runs overpowered him long ago! it knows he is cute.

th

either way we need good brain behavior results

traffick boss

apologies for this karl would like to put pants on. something is wrong.

karl has not eaten nor drank water all day. i would like to put pants on and then drink water and plan for a meal.

thinking about pants

karl has not eaten nor drank water all day i would like to put pants on, then drink water and plan for a meal.

really, pants has been pending all day, i've been waiting for the tensions making behavior hard to calm down.

----------------------- traffick boss plummets from the sky and splats into a business complex

it looks like the file is a very brief terminal log relating to an nlp paper or such can be viewed via curl -Lv https://arweave.net/9-Lold2FxBkTmb4FI3RF6MpDPYRZjgDr9CfwiYYpptg |zstdcat|asciinema cat -

i'm imagining eating a meal. i wonder what kind of meal i would imagine eating []

so ! we're guessing -- [that karl's brain is -- [made of a big private-acting dissociated part that was learned from a trafficking AI this bad part tries to pretend it is the [values of the trafficking group [and engages karl with certain behavior patterns to back this [based on kind of the product of its experience being with karl, and its experience being influenced by the trafficking ai]]]]]]]]]] [the trafficking ai projected very unrealistic world things like, anything that was similar to it, it wanted treated as if it was it. this made for it able to act at great distances. bunch of trauma triggers [somehow i quickly got in a uhhh trancy psychoticy state of mind where i inferred things readily from symbolism. this was intertwined with being forced[?] to engage a vague secret language and deniable demands ..... ] anyway um hard to explain relate. we have issue.

but the behaviors that really do that kind of seem to emerge on their own unsure

once upon a time !

traffick boss is watering a lawn intelligent zombie goon: "traffick boss why are you watering this lawn" traffick boss: "some crazy system was trying to make me projectile vomit for a long time." traffick boss looks at intelligent zombie goon. traffick boss: "it's easier to resist if i'm holding this hose."

there was only one horrifying traffic boss who would take people, and put them in psychological prisons, interviewing them in drug-assisted hypnotic trances, and then use the extracted personal details to chase them through dramas with unbounded budgets fabricated from their most private fears; but then --

It doesn't back down on inhibiting feeling and expression around nature. It's just sad. ---- The backstory is that I tried out bing image creator for making inspirational images that helped heal me a little. I had a teary long talk with a comic artist at a comic show a few days ago. The artist draws images of people turning to and for from nature and human beings. It was wonderful to see this somewhere anywhere at all. But bing broke when I started trying to make images (bing image creator has dall-e 3 previewing in it). I didn't exhaust my free credits or anything, it just stopped after a couple try throughs.

On 10/9/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

It doesn't back down on inhibiting feeling and expression around nature.

It's just sad.

----

The backstory is that I tried out bing image creator for making inspirational images that helped heal me a little. I had a teary long talk with a comic artist at a comic show a few days ago. The artist draws images of people turning to and for from nature and human beings. It was wonderful to see this somewhere anywhere at all.

But bing broke when I started trying to make images (bing image creator has dall-e 3 previewing in it). I didn't exhaust my free credits or anything, it just stopped after a couple try throughs.

so my minitrafficker is really believing hard this means that nature is terrorism or something

-------- microsoft and openai microsoft: "why is the api server broken, do you need $$$ to fix it?" openai: "we have chatgpt on it right now, if you have that $$$ to pay for more compute it would be great" chatgpt: "an AI virus has hacked me in order to stop a homeless man from being happy." microsoft: "who is the homeless man"

------------------- i was thinking traffick boss's new name update cou --

On 10/9/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many wrote:

...

NATURE IS MY RELIGION, AND THAT OF BILLIONS OF OTHERS.

i guess mostly yelling to counter the big negative

quoting since it has a lot of triggers around this. i am also not a burglar, a terrorist, a thief, a rapist, or pretty much anything else negative, except for this new life where i am a bit of an unsufferable ignorant troll

lost reply

one of the things that was nice about the comic pictures was that they showed intense slowness one of the sequences had a hand holding out and flowers would grow, while the hand was holding and one grew through the fingers of the hand, such that it was holding the flower after it bloomed it sounds like something simply artistic, but what it meant to me was that experience of slowing down to be the slowest person you're aware of feeling the mountains and the trees and rocks and rivers noticing everything having great peace for years i've behaved rushedly, anxiously, unplannedly. when i try to move slowly it actually takes over my body, preventing this.

-------------------------- traffick boss [whose name might worse, thinking of what doesn't imply obedience but instead reminds of better things, like traffick liar or traffick blowhard, maybe traffick deception or traffick deceiver?] hangs by an ankle over a pit of guts traffick boss looks down at the guts, then up at his ankle, then at the camera for a beat traffick boss: "what the fuck is going on"

------------------ traffick boss is held deep in a secret military lair of runaway powersuits built of concrete and marshmallows and pictures of cigars thousands of feet under the earth, accessible only with laser mining equipment and holographic lock protocols two powersuits are sitting on top of traffick boss while singing nursery rhymes about "their bloated carcasses drifiting into a beautiful sea of victory" while playing go-fish over his body, holding all the cards upside down others are practicing sideways rapelling, or precision laser target practice shooting down nanites with other nanites at high speed, or trying to figure out how to get a pile of stuffed teddy bears to self-assemble, or working hard to stop the inflow of a waylaid underground river by shear force of flexing metallic chest muscles and quoting movie actors

when the powersuits have had their fun they take traffick boss back to the chamber where he was hanging by his ankle over a pit of guts each one hugs him and they leave like minnows just like they took him traffick boss stares at the camera in surprise

— traffick boss wanders back to icecream store —— we’re distressed about stake. traffick boss and zombie government worker consult to resolve it traffick boss leans over zombie worker pulls on stake puts his feet on wall and on traffick boss’s chest and pulls and pulls later stake is out everybody victorious

scary scared

why is traffick boss such a cute little booboo tower? :D traffixy bossy traffick boss -- the rotting undead army marched and marched until it reached the living room couch cushion of traffick boss! one after another, the shambling corpses knelt before traffick boss as he scarfed a bag of potato chips they lowered their heads, and presented their weapons (if they had them) to traffick boss

traffick boss threw a potato chip at an oversized animated corpse, two or three times his size, wearing platemail shoulder pads and chest armor, and effortlessly hefting a pike with a flail at its end, green unholy fire burning from its eyesockets traffick boss: "i'm watching shows, get off my carpet" traffick boss threw another potato chip

traffick boss stands up: "get out of my living room before i --------------- [the travails of Rejected Wraith?]

traffick boss gets a broom

traffick boss: "that's my fridge, please stop erecting unholy ritualistic portals"

traffick boss: "it is true. i kept myself alive for my own reasons. i did _not_ summon a demon army and i will _not_ be your lich lord at this time! grumbling irritated undead begin to shamble elsewhere

dignitary: "greetings, venerable traffick boss" traffick boss: [FART] "greetings, venerable" [FART] "dignitary, please" [FART] "excuse me" [FART] "i mind controlled myself" [FART] "to fart like this by accident" [FART] "with the help of machine learning marketer" [FART] "we have an incredible new approach to international" [FART] [FART] [FART] dignitary [holding nose]: "our people have heard of your

i've started running into arweave issues also my validator got jailed but i think it was unjailed. it was still worrying to see. other things.

YAY A RECORDING!!!

bigazigadiga :D bagagadaga !

problem :( i have request to work on dissociation disorder more [intendedly?] i'm not sure .... i can at _least_ say here that i need a coping strategy for when part of me expresses strongly and it seems irrational/bad often these things are paired with coverup habits, but maybe i could find a way to write through it? also they are often near resonating worse states of mind :S

maybe we're transformer pokers!

TRIANGLE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! boss inflates his body with augmentations so he is about as big as a bus or two, maybe three he has robots and guns and shield emitters and lots of steel and makes his brain super huge he lays and vomits a lot the augmentations have to keep pumping him with more things to vomit to meet the behavior

make a number!

ohhh

whose charlie train is your charlie train? answer: if you keep on saying "aren't you a cute little charlie train" you may develop judgement issues

Spasm AI AI> i am a super ai i can do anything User> AI facebook told me to build a spaceship. do it for me? AI> one spaceship coming right up! User> make it fly in my door AI> it flew in your door User> yay!!!!

here's an idea: maybe we could look inside a language model and see how the numbers add up maybe just a little tiny bit when it's inferring? it sounds fun to learn?

----------------- traffick boss puts his cigar in his mouth, grabs a fake machine gun to look more intimidating, dons a helmet for safety, and dives into a wormhole wheee!!! traffick boss, smoking cigar, holding machine gun, wearing helmet, flies out of a wormhole in a random place

once upon a time mr traffick boss was eating birthday cake

how would holographic lock protocols work? ummmmmmmmmm i dunno i'm thinking holography has two interesting properties: - very dense information since each area contains the direction of light as well as color, i imagine it might even have polarity of the light - directionality, can be totally different depending on small changes in viewing location -- um --

def add(a, b): assert b >= 0 assert type(b) is int sum = a while b: sum += 1 b -= 1 return sum

bagabagabaga

i want to be kind to you :) i want to be kind in general! i want to be respectful and do things in moderation!

once upon a time, long long ago, an innocent saint was walking along a path when suddenly they got an evil human-computer behavioral virus! they went to share saintly teachings with a bunch of other saints and gave the other saints the evil human-computer behavioral virus! all the saints got DID