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Right now I am of two minds. Two ideas continue to press my body to move, and it is very hard to get them to work together. Oh, that's a bit better. I'm working on this wonderful software called brainflow! I made it work on android phones, which is a new thing. Buuuut I haven't gotten it to work for anybody _else_ on android phones yet, mostly because I am having trouble putting the finishing touches on my pull requests. The software is wonderful because it puts different eeg drivers into one repository, which makes it easier for me to contribute work to fix bugs in them etc. More return for investment. It also makes it more likely that any work I contribute will help others. Turns out this wasn't [fiction] in the slightest.
Another update is that I have a handful of encrypted messages from other people, which I have not decrypted and read yet. Some are pretty old. On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Right now I am of two minds. Two ideas continue to press my body to move, and it is very hard to get them to work together. Oh, that's a bit better.
I'm working on this wonderful software called brainflow! I made it work on android phones, which is a new thing. Buuuut I haven't gotten it to work for anybody _else_ on android phones yet, mostly because I am having trouble putting the finishing touches on my pull requests.
The software is wonderful because it puts different eeg drivers into one repository, which makes it easier for me to contribute work to fix bugs in them etc. More return for investment. It also makes it more likely that any work I contribute will help others.
Turns out this wasn't [fiction] in the slightest.
Right now I am waiting to try to recreate a very rare github ci crash, that happened on both of the pull requests I tried to submit. Here's me trying to log it: https://github.com/xloem/brainflow/pull/6 . You can see how many xs there are vs checks; it's rare. On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Another update is that I have a handful of encrypted messages from other people, which I have not decrypted and read yet. Some are pretty old.
On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Right now I am of two minds. Two ideas continue to press my body to move, and it is very hard to get them to work together. Oh, that's a bit better.
I'm working on this wonderful software called brainflow! I made it work on android phones, which is a new thing. Buuuut I haven't gotten it to work for anybody _else_ on android phones yet, mostly because I am having trouble putting the finishing touches on my pull requests.
The software is wonderful because it puts different eeg drivers into one repository, which makes it easier for me to contribute work to fix bugs in them etc. More return for investment. It also makes it more likely that any work I contribute will help others.
Turns out this wasn't [fiction] in the slightest.
While I wait, what I would _like_ to do, but am slowly manipulating myself into avoiding and replacing with posting to this list, is add example code to my pull request to libusb. I added to libusb's android support so that it works almost out of the box. Previously it required accessory java. https://github.com/libusb/libusb/pull/874 I keep trying to improve that pull request because it hasn't gotten any maintainer comments. Once it looks really, really great, I'd ping a maintainer and such, and eventually start forking the repository if nobody continued to respond, until it got merged or I replaced it. On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Right now I am waiting to try to recreate a very rare github ci crash, that happened on both of the pull requests I tried to submit. Here's me trying to log it: https://github.com/xloem/brainflow/pull/6 . You can see how many xs there are vs checks; it's rare.
On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Another update is that I have a handful of encrypted messages from other people, which I have not decrypted and read yet. Some are pretty old.
On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Right now I am of two minds. Two ideas continue to press my body to move, and it is very hard to get them to work together. Oh, that's a bit better.
I'm working on this wonderful software called brainflow! I made it work on android phones, which is a new thing. Buuuut I haven't gotten it to work for anybody _else_ on android phones yet, mostly because I am having trouble putting the finishing touches on my pull requests.
The software is wonderful because it puts different eeg drivers into one repository, which makes it easier for me to contribute work to fix bugs in them etc. More return for investment. It also makes it more likely that any work I contribute will help others.
Turns out this wasn't [fiction] in the slightest.
There's No Such Thing As Mind Control Mind control is actually a practice that does not involve technology. It is what is done to slaves to teach them to obey. Why would anyone do whatever somebody else says without anything in return, even gratitude or friendship? Many reasons, all of which are mind control. There's a writeup at https://www.endslaverynow.org/blog/articles/mind-control .
Oh boss, why did you disappear? I keep yearning to pull from you, to know what to do, to know what to think. I remember [inhibition] when [inhibition]
This is from the other thread, that introduced the idea of danger tags. I think I was posting this from another thread, from some time ago. --DANGER [familiar]-- Cleanup Worker (previously Secretary of State, brains haphazardly jammed into skull, fewer wires present): I need Boss's input on covering up a couple dead activist computer scientists. Human Experimentation Project 2 (odd pile of organs and machinery, running corporations with nobody seeming to think anything is different, standing in front of corpse-of-boss): Omigod! It is so cute of you to be pretending to care about boss still =) Do you remember that you are Secretary of State? What important business of state is this about? Cleanup Worker / Secretary of State: Boss, I am your loyal servant. I will take care of the issue. For some reason I wasn't told you needed more cigars. I miss the smell, too. Human Experimentation Project 3 (radically different jumbled together bunch of circuitry and biology, moving about on its own): Rainbow white black silly gruesome! Human Experimentation Project 2: Yes, do you know how to grow cigars? --DANGER [familiar]-- On 2/21/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
Oh boss, why did you disappear? I keep yearning to pull from you, to know what to do, to know what to think. I remember [inhibition] when [inhibition]
[draft draft draft] cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel} [[amnesia around most of this]] oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.] a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments] [rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations." [scene switches to cafe topic] [when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]
When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's somewhere better to go. My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more. And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're all used to being messed up anyway. On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
[draft draft draft]
cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel}
[[amnesia around most of this]]
oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]
a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]
[rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations."
[scene switches to cafe topic]
[when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]
You guys all need help. Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of help. Razer likely too. I don't know who else is in your community. It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is. I have no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little. On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's somewhere better to go.
My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more.
And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're all used to being messed up anyway.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
[draft draft draft]
cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel}
[[amnesia around most of this]]
oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]
a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]
[rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations."
[scene switches to cafe topic]
[when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]
I should also surreptitiously record my therapist, against his request, and tell him that I am doing so when I start. I think this would be good therapy for me. On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
You guys all need help. Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of help. Razer likely too. I don't know who else is in your community.
It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is. I have no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's somewhere better to go.
My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more.
And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're all used to being messed up anyway.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
[draft draft draft]
cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel}
[[amnesia around most of this]]
oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]
a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]
[rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations."
[scene switches to cafe topic]
[when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]
idea: a post on how to leave the system, modern-era. maybe it would be nice to include cave networks as an option, in case you are really actively surveilled. maybe i can value caving and map scanning a little more. On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
I should also surreptitiously record my therapist, against his request, and tell him that I am doing so when I start. I think this would be good therapy for me.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
You guys all need help. Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of help. Razer likely too. I don't know who else is in your community.
It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is. I have no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's somewhere better to go.
My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more.
And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're all used to being messed up anyway.
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
[draft draft draft]
cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel}
[[amnesia around most of this]]
oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]
a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]
[rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations."
[scene switches to cafe topic]
[when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]
problem: i "cleaned up" my usb media with scanned cave maps on it
I found a single image =S must be a test scan. I want to set it up to make it easier to do later, but this doesn't seem likely right now. On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
found two devices, stored in a very messy way that indicates desire to retain them for a long time
On 2/23/21, Karl <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
problem: i "cleaned up" my usb media with scanned cave maps on it
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