- with amnesia, it’s important to find ways to make steps on things that persist across amnesia (strong habits, pairing a step with an addictive behavior; involving other things people places; visual exposure of safe reminders) - amnesia is an extreme experience like the others. i think there might be a way to consciously apply this list to amnesia to build memory skill [new idea needs daydreaming; for example microm-memory-practice with an intention of respecting duration and content [triggers] and finding avenues that avoid them]

On 8/5/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many
 wrote:
> - honestly my path has been involving getting really “tough” with a
> skill, to persistence it across extreme experiences. i chose to do
> this with only one skill, not kmowing what would happen. the end
> result is you can perform that skill much better than other behaviors,
> and you also develop skill at doing things through extreme experiences
> in general, which is quite useful. however, the skill becomes very
> simple and rote, like a dumb muscley athlete in the brain, because it
> was maintained through hell with formation and association of triggers
> to exhaustion. i get the impression that therapists and psychiatrists
> try to avoid that route.
also its utility shrank a lot from the formation and association.
- a better way to preserve a skill is to have it be what you do when
dissociating, distracting, indulging, coping. this could mean adding a
lot of reward, changing what it is some to be more about fun and
relaxation, and/or suffering by not coping in ways that are easier,
demanding it be how you cope. it seems likely helpful to find a way to
do it for fun with others somehow, and to keep it in areas that are
easy and simple and develop slowly from there.

- another i left out is the value of notes. notes can be super hard to
make but they provide much more conscious understanding of one’s
experiences. comparable things include talking with others, making
stories or music or art, or even getting angry. things that help you
comprehend and notice what you are doing and experiencing, what works
and what doesn’t.

- left out [tension, forgot other things]: tension, worry, fear, concern, etc seems to increase the probability or density of extreme experiences. if you can maintain not exceeding any maximum degree of tension, maybe by attending to it possibly managing thoughts and behavior when it is higher, then you can lower the average tension by working to grow areas that are more relaxed. this is expected to build skills that reduce the extreme experiences and maximum tension.

[why does this happen? i’ve always said that it’s roughly because trauma breaks parts of the mind that learn to look for new avenues to meet goals of e.g. safety that are no longer logical but instead mutate the functioning of the brain. this is horrible and should never be used to manipulate people. my experience, i think my mind also thinks an abusive AI can read my thoughts to harm me, which makes thinking harder to make safe.]

[- learning: repetition, especially in different contexts and states of mind. found this in a paper regarding late stage dementia. works.]