"... I'm always worried I might be harming a community so I try to warn people and stick to the sidelines. ..." Try a little harder - like sticking to a daily post limit  - say 10.

If he wasn't pretending to be so obtuse wouldn't he have a qualified helper advising him?

Not atm.  My family pursued a lawyer to help us get disability for me but we lost contact with the lawyer.  Other stuff in the works. Very good, Karl. This is a huge step forward in wanting to change harmful behavior. Keep moving ahead with this - you have a right to get help for yourself. Even govt help is permissible if that doesn't clash with your cryptoanarchist views. GET WELL SOON!