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My trauma was around covering up my own hurt for those who caused it. Just a mess of freakin weird pain. I partly work for them when I post.

*What's your trauma*

eh something with a lot of power brainwashed me to mess my life and communities up, for politics. I live as flashbacks to this. *mistakes*

My mistake was sharing my legal name on the internet, and then trying to continue to live a normal life after I was taken. Everything I did seemed used against me. Now it's my habit to do this, I think enough time has passed it can work out.

bully

The only time a person "A" bullies a person "B" who is being kind to person "A", is when person "A" is being coerced or misled to do so, although person "B" could be brainwashed to stimulate that further. So, there is not a lot of transparency around our intentions, unfortunately.

*why are you sending*

*who you*

* were working for?*

I think I'm working for a right wing group that are trying to gain power by supporting other groups with plans to protect them after the power is gained, but they stay anonymous. It's a messy and potentially violent path to get near a top. The list was a hub for people like me to share technologies used to escape them, so they seem to want power over it. Additionally, I was avoiding the list, so they seemed to want to engage my potential behavior of using it. But it's very hard for me to think about, due to the brainwashing. I'm very confused. I might be describing delusions based on flashbacks, rather than a complete reality. I'll be forwarding this snippet to the list, to model transparency.

Thank you