imagining a computer program where something pointy or long comes out of something else like the end of a toothbrush growing bristles
mcboss stares into a mirror as big as a skyscraper there is nothing in the mirror but maybe something confsuing where mcboss is the mirror is reflective and flat and maybe shiny or somethin* maybe like ice
a ladder of rope and wood drops from a hole in a rock ceiling over a grand well-lit expanse
a special kind of seizure where people near you have seizures first, and then you do
my friend the sentient seizure god made of other people’s seizures a bunch of such seizure spirits
talking to a seizure god talking to wind golems talking to mind control, who needs to navigate a seizure when their name is spoken mind control complains, why dont you call me anymore
mind control, spirits, and brain lobes. brain lobes are having severe difficulty communicating. sometimes various severe and localized brain issues are imagined. this is not evidenced.
On 10/16/22, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
mind control, spirits, and brain lobes.
brain lobes are having severe difficulty communicating. sometimes various severe and localized brain issues are imagined. this is not evidenced.
maybe the “seizure headache” is part if m6 brain trying hard to communicate normal brain things
this is labeled the cypherpunks mailing list. i have been spamming it with psychotic writing.
cypherpunks agree on supporting discussion of cryptography, which is roughly a kind of math and uts use in computer software
boss and the rainbow fairies ritate reality and step out if a tv show i just tried watching my brain is trying to manage part of my short term memory
i have strong experience going on tht has a very distinctive oscillation. this experience can harm my senses, cognition, motor skills, etc, unless i manage it well. i have been completely focused on managing it. it keeps moving and adapting to my attempts to dissociate from it.
this experience is undiagnosed by a doctor. i am not aware of it being noticed on any lab test.
it could be a bundled set of concepts around severe trauma habits/responses i would have bundled it away so as to function more normally not certain, seems similar though considering feeling and think8ng in ways that avoid it?
i am not scared if being free. i am scared of imaginary things associated with trying to be free.
one thing i’m scared of is being followed and responded to surprisingly for so long that i forget how to relax and develop habits of reliable response behavior that are then encouraged and used ro direct me
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