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It was _so hard_ to do that probability calculation! Omigod! My brain is all confused and I _succeeded_! It totally works on live data I just need to go through and fix edge cases. The first one I poked at was handling the impact of data from outside the histogram range. Basically it gets totally wrong results if that stuff isn't modelled or avoided. My project is now somewhat interwoven with posting to this list in my mind, which is a little irritating, so trying to reduce that. Pushing hard through an inhibition can cause me a huge variety of weird experiences including forgetting where I am and what I am doing, having weird beliefs that I am in the middle of other unrelated tasks, etc etc. As I push more frequently those experiences shift and can improve, but there's a certain degree of pushing that can do just about anything to your brain, and I may have hit that again, kinda. It gets better with practice. It's confusing! It's so satisfying to have reached that goal, but I'm not sure how to continue after it. My habits for doing something I choose are all a little injured from the behaviors involved in reaching it.
One of the things my mind is defending is my right to live outdoors. It's very hard to sustain being outdoors. My
It's kind of a tough topic. Living outdoors takes a certain degree of carefulness, respectfulness, labor, preparation, and reliability, kinda.
One of the huge parts of being outdoors for me is attending to the small indicators of everything going on around you. These things make being out there easy. Where all the animals are, where all the plants are, and what all that stuff indicates for survival. So, my topic of interest now is hunting down the billionaire slavers. Because I have a brainwashed inhibition against noticing the implications of what is around me.
Some of the parts of the mind controlled vivisectees got out of their vats. Their brains were being used for calculating who boss's next competitor was most likely to be, and their bodies were being used as part of his immortality research, but something about their nature, something about their community, somehow survived. They had been through so much of this torture together, and together had learned how, even to meet the continuous demands of the computerised research, it was necessary to hide part of your mind from it. It was these parts that communicated in shared symbols and references, and these parts that showed the computer why it was good for boss, for them to get up and leave.
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Karl