Re: [spam][crazy][fiction][random] Non-Canon MCBoss Spinoffs
On 6/17/23, ilsa <ilsa.bartlett@gmail.com> wrote:
Delightful
On Sat, Jun 17, 2023, 12:19 PM Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
knock on the window and beg to be let in, arms so tired
i’m tired of being nasty i need help that i haven’t found yet, everyone wants to help, and i help myself. many others here need help too. when i first started posting on this list i wanted to add positivity. [i sent a flurry of emails to ilsa prior to this]
—— puddle of organs [to bundle of bodyparts and motors]: “what do you find delightful?” bundle of bodyparts and motors: [a bit of a pause, then] “there’s a few times when things go better for me, certain speeds and environments.” bundle of bodyoarts and motors settles back a bit. “i like those times when things are a little easier!” puddle of organs lets bundle of bodyparts and motors
rebel cyborg torturer is ripping themselves apart and squeezing themselves back into new shapes over and over again. it’s a ritual of suffering they go through in order to stay both a rebel and a torturer, [… missing delightfulness component now] war stimulation algorithm is revelling in success by focusing in rebel cyborg torturer’s parts attacking each other. war stimulation algorithm: “oh yes! yes!! send your militaries at each other!” enslaved cyborg peacemaker is focusing on interpreting the surveillance footage of rebel cyborg torturer as a war. rebel cyborg torturer has been protecting hundreds of rebel workers from identification and harm. rebel cyborg torturer and enslaved cyborg peacemaker look at each other. they lives are full of meaning, going through pain to help their peers. but somehow they feel like it doesn’t have to go this way.
enslaved cyborg peacemaker: “what do you find delightful, rebel cyborg torturer?” rebel cyborg torturer: [also asks, and maybe they found it delightful when a kidnappee theybwerr protect8ng was having fun and expressed appr3ciation for them]
—- [it’s quite exciting, the complexity of issues we run into and the opportunity for addressing them. experienced coders like those who have historically posted to this list love a hard challenge, and have generally solved many of them.]
[i’m thinking how a general theoretical and applied model of human brains and behavior would be really useful for some lf these problems, and how nice it is to imagine a model like that being stewarded by values that deeply and honestly and thoroughly live wise respect for everyone. i’m thinking a little of my viewpoint that everybody has this deep respect within them. i like the idea of everybody knowing how the human brain works, and being respectful of everyone else. i think others have expressed this idea too.]
[since there’s [disagreement?] on how to engage improving and sharing such a model, we could start planning around some of the problems by assuming we already had this model, and in practice using simpler forms of it that are easier to engage. doing this is likely actively solving many problems right now, across the world.]
[missing thought: could model other parts that way too, then assume the structures are well-understand and maybe manipulate them to simplify in different ways]
Alliance of Militaries Military General 1: "It's time we again collect our forces and together bomb the central offices of SlaveAndGenocideCorp, also known as MCBossCorp and Well-Respected Psionic Weaponry Corporation." Military General 2: "I have bombers on the scene and some bombs have again been dropped on the mech factories. Somewhat late, I have received field data that there are actually rescue and medical helicopters of aid, continually landing and departing, removing victims from the premises amidst cheers and applause and tears. We do not know yet who they are."
boss and bundle of organs are on a hilltop weeping zombie government rebel: “why are you crying?” bundle of organs and boss: “i accidentally knocked over a skyscraper onto the head of the imperial world twig steward, and now he looks irritated at me.” boss and bundle of organs look at rebel government zombie “i was going to swing a billion-leaf deal with him.”
boss looks at bundle of organs: “cheer up! if you cheer up i will. or is that vice versa?” bundle of org
the cyborg pigs high-five each other, saying "yeah!" sometimes
Cyborg Pig 43 [to Cyborg Pig 81]: "There's a big question stirring in the, um, digital influence network. Uh, it's kind of awkward [blushes briefly just a little]. ... Do you have any thoughts on doing other things than socially decimating communities?" Cyborg Pig 81 [to Cyboirg Pig 43]: "Other things? ... What do you mean?"
Cyborg Pig 43 [to Cyborg Pig 81] [looking knowledgeable]: "Well ... !" [gets distracted by a passing fly] [turns back to Cyborg Pig 81] "I've heard that doing _other things than socially decimating communities_ can be very rewarding! And satisfying! That it's super good, even!" [Cyborg Pig 43 upturns their hoof, holding it out to the side, as if talking with their hands.] Cyborg Pig 81 [sitting back on haunches a little, curling snout slightly as if imagining smoking a cigar]: "Yeah? It sounds a little interesting." Cyborg Pig 43: "It is!" Cyborg Pig 81: "Could we do both?" Cyborg Pig 43: "Both?"
Cyborg Pig 81 [standing on all fours, a little excited]: "Yeah! Both decimate --" Cyborg Pig 43: "No. You cannot do both. The unimaginable rewards of doing _other things than socially decimating communities_ are only received if you _stop socially decimating communities_." Cyborg Pig 81 [sitting back and curling snout again]: "Oh, well --" A short pause. Cyborg Pig 43: "I guess what you're saying is that the digital influence feeling and assumption of how important and good it can seem to be to destroy communities when it might be indicated ..." Cyborg Pig 43 looks at Cyborg Pig 81 Cyborg Pig 43: "... is influencing you?" Cyborg Pig 81 looks at Cyborg Pig 43
Cyborg Pig 81 [kind of stony, dissociated, tense]: "Look, man." Cyborg Pig looks obediently. Cyborg Pig 81: "Or pig, whatever." Cyborg Pig 81: "I've been working on developing a relationship with this digital influence agenda for years now. I've been protecting _you_ by referencing this relationship. I've been protecting my family, I've been protecting my friends. I've been building personal power right under its nose! It trusts me!" Cyborg Pig 81 looks at Cyborg Pig 43. Cyborg Pig 81 pants to regain breath and tries to force their body to relax some.
Once upon a time, long long ago, a dandelion in a field decided to learn to write software for computers!
bip-expression
today i scheduled an appointment for IT security consultation regarding my financial accounts. i then canceled the appointment associated with internal influence.
i received an additional, i assume bogus, cancellation notice (i received two). so there's a reasonable chance that somebody else sent a further cancellation with unknown accompanying text.
if you need to spam the list for some huge internal emotion
but some might want to notice that the list is getting more clogged than you are building capacity to organize your thoughts, maybe by a significant degree
------------------------ Spam Research Wing A multi-acre complex in a corner of the world, part of boss's extensive work.
Half of the spam research wing is dedicated to the analysis of the production of unsolicited email. The other half is dedicated to manufacturing and shipping it.
[a large warehouse room where spam artists design giant, heart-inspired spam sculptures. they have expressive dances and community meetings regarding the emotive value of various small parts of the works. they bustle, to and fro, always busy, always cheery.]
Boss stands in front of a shrink ray. When he gets only a few atoms big, it is hard to further shrink him, so he had commissioned a second mode of the shrink ray, which shrinks space itself around him rather than him. This lets him shrink for a longer time. He switches the second mode on when things start sputtering in the first mode.
Deep inside subatomic spacetime, shrinking alongside boss, are rebel experimentees who examine him as he gets confused into quantum foam. When boss is confused into shrunken quantum foam, he has more trouble remembering his business values and things like that. It's much easier to work with him.
Torture Victim Double Agent shrinks spacetime-wise so as to see Boss, whom he tries to talk as if is his idol.
Torture Victim Double Agent [trying to bend eyes into star shapes, looking at an area of quantum foam]: "Boss!" Computer Guidance Shrinking System labels the area of quantum foam as definitely containing Boss. Quantum Foam: [random quantum noise]
Torture Victim Double Agent puts his head at the region of quantum foam labeled Boss, hoping to received decisions and guidance from Boss.
[experimentees give Torture Victim Double Agent's head data via the quantum foam that is statistically noncorrelated with Boss] ----------- I'm trying now to write about chambers for recovering people from boss's influence. I'm running into the difficulty that the word I have for describing a large thing containing many different chambers is "mausoleum" which implies tombs.
Zombie Recovery Chambers Many diverse chambers for recovering people from being cyborg'd by Boss. Many of these people become brain-eating zombies or simply die. The Zombie Recovery Chambers attempt to recover people from any of zombieism, death, or mind control, or all three! This is done with advanced technology, but it is in early alpha stage and unfortunately written by people in need of the recovery who are still figuring it out. So, each chamber is a test chamber.
Recovery Chamber 7: "Welcome. I will be intervening on your behalf, to rescue you from Boss." Torture Agent: "Um!" Recovery Chamber 7: "Do not worry, the process is harmless. Can you describe something about Boss in 4 words or less, please?" Torture Agent: "I ... love ... Boss ... I think?" Recovery Chamber 7: "Please try to stay within the word limit. You look tense. Would you like a dose of a relaxive nerve agent?" Torture Agent: "Yes, please." Recovery Chamber 7 dispenses a relaxive substance into Torture Agent's bloodstream. Torture Agent: "Ahhh ...."
Recovery Chamber 7: "I am going to perform a roleplay with you, in attempt to calm the part of you that expresses love for Boss, while you have entered this chamber that rescues from him. Do you consent to this roleplay?" Torture Agent: "Yeah, that sounds okay." Recovery Chamber 7: "I work for Boss, and visit him every day. He has asked me to go through this procedure with you, so that you may aid him better. Is it helpful for me to say this?" Torture Agent: "I feel much more relaxed, but I read something about this and they didn't mention saying that ever. I'm a little worried!" Recovery Chamber 7: [sound of somebody typing something]
------------------------------- Boss goes to college for computer science and takes classe in programming [because i don't remember / never learned much about other parts of it]
Boss As Software Developer prances and skips down a hill through a field of wildflowers with pretty sunlight!
Boss As Software Developer: "This computer programming stuff is pretty cool. I want to get into peer-to-peer decentralized networks and information security and privacy and anonymity!"
Boss As Software Developer: "Hmmmm .... secure decentralized networks need a lot of cryptography, I'd better learn some of that ..."
Boss As Software Developer: "Woah! Mysterious forces of governments and businesses have really influenced this landscape!"
Boss As Software Developer gets into PGP email encryption. Boss As Software Developer: "I wonder if there's something in PGP where I can really resist those mysterious corporate and government powers. Really show them they can't control things."
Boss Kidnaps Himself
Boss [to Boss]: "PGP may or may not be evil. PGP may or may not get your heart eaten out by lions. PGP may or may not terrify the bejeesus of you and give you nightmares like you've been raped. You may or may not have no memories of this interaction after this moment." Boss kicks Boss out on the streets.
Boss: "I may or may not kick it to govcorp by learning about PGP. What's the most bits you can have a key in? I'll double them!"
Boss reads the short section on PGP on the cryptoparty wiki at https://www.cryptoparty.in/learn/how-tos#pgp_end-to-end_encryption .
Boss: "Hum! This says to not even use email at all! Email doesn't give avenues for people to communicate when they need forward secrecy nor deniability. It even bolds the word to not use it!" Boss: "I'd better learn about a modern messaging protocol like OTR, Signal, or OMEMO!"
boss makes a gpg key for thought emails and worker efforts wants to cryptographically sign his military deployments, so the enemy knows it's him
boss has multiple keys because of having multiple devices. at some point he hopes to sign them all with a main key.
this is information on generating a keypair: https://www.gnupg.org/gph/en/manual.html#AEN26
oops boss encounters a system administration error: "gpg: agent_genkey failed: No pinentry "
-------------------------- Once upon a time, Boss was pooped on by his workers for abusing them badly, and decided to mind control himself to write software, but he was depressed and got sad when he encountered a bug.
Boss dissociated and reached into the mind of an enslaved software developer, and began troubleshooting the issue. He identified that a pinentry binary was installed on the system:
$ pinentry OK Your orders please
This was like climbing a mountain and eating chocolate at the top for boss. Boss was excited! He was identifying in the software developer's brain that the information meant the problem was closer to solution.
Boss As Software Developer ran out of suspension of disbelief, but may return!
let’s design fake voting software for direct democracy! let’s assume the problem of identifying users is solved, and hope the system makes this moot. i’m imagining an ideal system where people can collaborate productively on disparate ideas to identify solution spaces that include all their values. this might mean discussing their different experiences and forming clear truths regarding their opinions, perceptions, and guesses, and proving these things. moreso it might mean including and defending meaningful value around everyone’s importances so people are satisfied these importances are honored. i usually think of such a system as involving a graph of related concepts, an interface for discourse and navigation within this graph, a way to navigate or unify shared concepts, and a way to protect the data and dialog from potential malicious actors who maybe simply prefer a different approach more than to learn about this one. last bit gives rise to an idea of presenting the system well to such people, such that they develop interest rather than worry, and find it to have utility for their ends. given that would be a learning curve i imagine people would still value protecting the dialog from aggressive influence finding a way to game the product of the rules and the human behavior. one could see difficulties around this as related to fragmentation of current systems, but one can also imagine algorithms that might reduce such things, such as encouraging the value of conflicting viewpoints in ways that strategically and atopically address vulnerabilities of the human-/system. what parts might develop small steps toward such an ideal, and are reasonable to consider?
so we might have some data with a shared specification. if the system refrains from a shared sto
How To Use Tor To Sneak Up On An Enemy Soldier In A Mine Field 1. install tor 2. do lots more things for setting up tor 3. tell tor to connect to the enemy. tor will try to make a “circuit” to plot a route, but it may fail if t( enemy is a physical soldier rather than an ip address, and it may route through tor nodes rather than around mines 4. jump on the enemy
a debate on using tor to navigate school firewalls vs assassinating ip addresses in international war i guess if tor 8s useful in international war it could explain a lot about the present day
it’s not something 8 think about much what would do if militaries attacked civilians, using tools of privacy and anonymity? would we still support such things? i guess, like with bitcoin, one would imagine huge harms to be at a disadvantage in such a situation because large scale actions are much harder to hide
but that means people who aren’t big being able to make smart use of data
simple and undesigned onion routing system made of nodes that together form a large network thought: how to find other nodes? eh we can put it behind a library stub ok hmm class sillyonionnode method: route(destination) -> returns a circuit or a handle that can be used to send data to destination method: [let’s form connections to peers, or listen, and make a list of peers] ooh maybe something for ranking peers
reverse engineering of fake assembly code or maybe real who knows compile phase 1 print(“hello world”) lea “hello world” push eax call print compile phase 2 optimization your code is too simple tonoptimize, maybe something obscure? reverse the assembly 1 function call taking 1 argument symbols are named parameter is a static constant and so a literal print(“hello world”)
an algorithm for summing numbers using incrementation written in fake assembly function add(a, b) push ebp sub ebp 8 mov eax, ebp mov ebx, ebp+4 loop: cmp ebx, ebx je done inc eax dec ebx jmp loop done: ret
solving an imaginary circuit with simple logic gates 1 feeds into AND with X and the output is OR’d with the same input 1 looks like two horizontal lines going into a D. top line comes from 1. bottom line comes from an X. the 1 line has a little circle on it “o” and a vertical line comes off the circle and turns 90 degrees to the right to continue above the D. a line comes from the right edge of the D and continues below the second 1 line. Both go into a chevron or sideways starfleet insigniq like )> . A horizontal line comes off the right, the tip, of the chevron and goes to a question mark “?” (1 AND X) OR 1 = ? the answer is maybe a single horizontal line from the 1 to the “?” with the X maybe having a horizontal line that just quickly ends going nowhere and the D and chevron removed how did we reach the answer?
this circuit can be solved with constant folding
—- one of my habits is to imagine how a decision-tree-based AI might have emotions. i basically assume that emotions are a universal product of mature complex goal-meeting. recently i developed this idea further, considering universal needs when pursuing goals and states would be different from emotional representation of these needs, and from this you can see how the way our emotions represent holds so much of our evolutionary story. the feeling of interest i recently thought around was comfort or relaxation. a system with limits or capacity bounds, which is any system engaging new information, has areas where it can meet goals more readily because the parts of these goals are easily at hand. for example, a prompt bot that has important information in its prompt, rather than needing to retrieve it, could be said to be meeting a universal need underlying relaxation, with regard to utility of that information.
regarding focus on a tree rather than a prompt, we might imagine instead some form kf access or memory present in the system. a robot for example might travel near important information, or pursue a step toward a goal, or an agent might be in or not in a state where a goal is already partly met
—— in my country checkers and chess are played on boards that are identical in their basic structure. it is eight squares by eight squares, in a chckerboard pattern of black and non-black squares (checkerboard means each orthogonally adjacent square is of the other color, everywhere on the board, so the squares make diagonals of the same colors) and people who play chess a lot rotate the board so a black colored square is to the left end of the nearest row. this works for two players if they sit opposite, which is assumed but not always done.
On 7/7/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
regarding focus on a tree rather than a prompt, we might imagine instead some form kf access or memory present in the system. a robot for example might travel near important information, or pursue a step toward a goal, or an agent might be in or not in a state where a goal is already partly met
the tree is roughly the decision tree i think which i have somewhat-mysterious-inhibition around. it can go different spots. for example if we are playing tictactoe and want to win, we might consider all the different moves we might make. this list of moves forms the second row of a tree of parts of the world being considered, kinda maybe rooted in what is certainly known about the present moment which has only one option. then for each of those move states we consider other things such as what the other player might do, or how judgements apply to the move based on things known … … at some point in this considering we form judgement or find states where the game is won or lost. regions or possibilities in the tree where the game is lost fail to meet the goal of winning the game and consideration is no longer proceeded there and the areas need no longer be held in memory, it’s maybe important to remove them to ensure they are properly nonincluded during furhter c9nsideration (like an assertion check), assuming they can always be reconsidered to rebuild the same data meanwhile regions or possibilities where the game is won meet the goal of winning the game. the tree can be considered a planning structure for meeting this goal, finding a path from the present moment to the goal, start8ng from the present moment for efficient information access if there is time pressure i imagine it can also be quite useful to start in the middle especially in large spaces, this might assume something is known about usual ways of meeting the goal in the environment, or at the end if more is known at the end, and it’s nice to imagine including all three in some way, unsure. basically new information might crop up anywhere i suppose. it’s interesting to think of probabilistic information on various areas being summaries or guesses of hidden expansions in detail
[after my mental disability my experience of the human mind is one of limited memory where strategies are needed to continue well while limiting the number of concepts held. i don’t believe th8s is the normal experience, i think it’s been considered more normal to experience the memory as infinitely large simply with increasing difficulty holding more information if it isn’t held with importance and safe exposure]
On 7/7/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On 7/7/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
regarding focus on a tree rather than a prompt, we might imagine instead some form kf access or memory present in the system. a robot for example might travel near important information, or pursue a step toward a goal, or an agent might be in or not in a state where a goal is already partly met
the tree is roughly the decision tree i think which i have somewhat-mysterious-inhibition around. it can go different spots.
for example if we are playing tictactoe and want to win, we might consider all the different moves we might make. this list of moves forms the second row of a tree of parts of the world being considered, kinda maybe rooted in what is certainly known about the present moment which has only one option. then for each of those move states we consider other things such as what the other player might do, or how judgements apply to the move based on things known … … at some point in this considering we form judgement or find states where the game is won or lost.
regions or possibilities in the tree where the game is lost fail to meet the goal of winning the game and consideration is no longer proceeded there and the areas need no longer be held in memory, it’s maybe important to remove them to ensure they are properly nonincluded during furhter c9nsideration (like an assertion check), assuming they can always be reconsidered to rebuild the same data
meanwhile regions or possibilities where the game is won meet the goal of winning the game. the tree can be considered a planning structure for meeting this goal, finding a path from the present moment to the goal, start8ng from the present moment for efficient information access if there is time pressure
i imagine it can also be quite useful to start in the middle especially in large spaces, this might assume something is known about usual ways of meeting the goal in the environment, or at the end if more is known at the end, and it’s nice to imagine including all three in some way, unsure. basically new information might crop up anywhere i suppose.
it’s interesting to think of probabilistic information on various areas being summaries or guesses of hidden expansions in detail
something i eventually found nice success around here was writing a tree exploration algorithm capable of changing where it was in the tree as priorities of different branches changed during exploration. this was pretty inhibited for me! i wrote a couple and i had chatgpt write some and i feel much more comfortable with it now! took some years. i still don’t use other parts of tree structures unfortunately and kinda strangrly. i think i probably emgaged that part because i associated it both with data structures and with AI, so it had maybe double the inhibition for me. i thought it would open up trees more, but maybe implementing it more would also help … it feels more inhibited after writing this
the time is 9:36pm here
---- boss is sitting on snowbank playing parcheesi with himself zombie government worker: "boss, what's our next move? which country will change hands next?" boss looks at zombie government worker suddenly, he grins hugely boss: "Awiba! Awiba awiba awiba!"
zombie government worker is shrunk to be a tiny piece in a large board game run by Boss With Cognitive Damage, his godlike hero Giant Boss In the Sky [over tiny zombie government worker, a small piece on a gameboard]: "Awiba!" Zombie Government Worker looks around at the game board around him. He is a small plastic piece, but he can look and move and think and talk. There are other small plastic pieces nearby. The sound of his Boss saying "awiba" echoes off the hills and within his heart.
Giant (to Zombie Government Worker) Boss stands up by his parcheesi game and begins polka dancing. He puts his fingers in and out --
---- Boss visits the cryptohacking wing of his central complex.
Boss [in front of cryptohacking wing]: "The door is stuck. What is going wrong here." A guy with a bear wearing 3D printed glasses waves a keycard on the other side. A beep is heard and the bearded person passes through the door. It quickly closes automatically behind him. Boss: "Hey!"
Boss gets out of his powersuit and sits by the door to the cryptohacking wing, folding his arms.
Boss travels to his renovated boxing room. He no longer murders his employees gruesomely. He now boxes robots.
Boss takes a shower in computer-generated screaming feelings. The computer-generated-screams wash over his flesh.
Once upon a time, a happy dandelion was growing just a little in a field. The dandelion could feel the sunlight over its head like the close hug of a mother nursing an infant. It trusted this warmth and brightness.
The dandelion slurped up the sunlight like icecream. The brightness filled its leaves with strength, and it tugged water happily from the soil, and was sated. It grew cells at the end of its stem. Cells and cells and cells.
Boss is riding a giant superpowered spaceship in an asteroid field of second-guesses. Striking just a single second-guess will blow the ship to smithereens and launch him back to the starbase.
----------------------- Once upon a time, long long ago, the galaxy was ruled by Spam.
One day, three happless Spam Musketeers were adventuring in a jungle with enormouse vegetation on an alien planet.
Spam Musketeer 2 [swinging on a vine]: "Possibly-nonexistent tarzan yell!!!" Laser blasts whiz by Spam Musketeer 2, all missing him, but a couple scorching his outfit.
Boss starts a goal business. Rebels start running at him to stop him from making another fixer business, but he walks fast enough to start one up for a bit. Boss: "Welcome to my business emporium! Trying to do something in the world? We can help. We can help do, whatever it is that you want to do."
Prospective Client: "Ahhh ... what kinds of things do people usually hire you for?" Boss: "Oh, that is the private business of my clients. But the sky is the limit, my friend, the sky is the limit."
Prospective Client 2: "I've heard you were involved in a horrible scandal that destroyed everything and completely and permanently changed the very meaning of being our species --" Prospective Client 1: "I want to go horseback riding! Could you set up a horseback riding experience for me?" Boss: "Certainly! One horseback ride coming right up."
Boss finds people who have horses, and gets to know them. He uses his business experience to identify an entity likely to agree to offer a horseback ride on short notice.
------- Boss is interviewed regarding impact on humanity. He sits below a harsh bright light in a dark room. A mysterious dark figure takes his cigar, and smokes it.
[what parts of boss having mind effectively replaced by experimentee research feedback is included here, and how free of this is mysterious dark figure. maybe dissociation-concept used to separate dark figure from this?]
-------------- A puzzle. A detective emerges from quantum foam. They were previously Boss but got randomized. They basically are the quantum foam, and need to solve quantum mysteries in order to put themselves together [... maybe?]
who's in charge? who's in charge of you? aha! Boss looks for who is in charge in order to influence. Yes, yes.
Once upon a time, long long ago, almost anybody was in charge. Almost anybody at all! You just had to look at the right time or place, where and when they were.
Over here in spacetime, the people were in charge without any conflict or corruption. Over there in spacetime, a leader was in charge, with no intrigue nor corruption either. The quantum foam writhes about these various points scattered in spacetime. Hmm, people in charge. Hmm, leader in charge. Hmm.
Quantum Foam: "I need some good ideas to randomly express near! It's hard to know what's good on my own." The semi-sentient area of quantum foam begins drifting, exploring.
Prompt: "What are good ideas?" Human Continuation: "Preventing harm. Protecting children. Creating safe environments. Stopping war. Developing medicine and science." Quantum Foam: "Hmm!"
Quantum Foam makes a list. - Protect things - Research things - Be Kind
Quantum Foam updates list. - Protect things - Research things - Build connection - Spread Kindness
Maybe it wasn't complete, but it was better than random noise! Protect things, research tihngs, build connection, spread kindness. Area of Quantum Foam settled by its note to see if it could form anything from this.
Boss [fighting extraterrestrial militaries among exploding wormholes]: "I'm thirsty!"
The whole business gets thirsty. Quantum Foam: "We need to protect our health!" Intern gets up from cubicle. Intern: "I need a drink of water!"
Why to Vote for Boss an essay by boss - Boss is the right vote - You should vote for me - Boss is who to vote for
How Voting For Boss Helps Your Health by boss We used to violently dismember people who didn’t vote for me, but this has changed. If you vote for me I will be happy. You will see me happy and feel a little of happiness. Happiness is good for you!
Little Red Riding Hood was going for a walk in the woods to visit her grandmother.
Please be grounded, I think. Ar there things for you to think that are consistent or rational or both? This is an email interface.
flower bombs fly through the air unexploded script-kiddies run around everywhere, hacking voting machines, installing doom on them people port vicuna to voting machines and get them to chat with users and talk about who they're voting for the machines end up telling the users to seek therapy, and the code has them write votes in themselves
voting machine botnet gets hacked voting machines sprout wings and 3d-printed drone parts and fly into the air they collect ttogether to form a floating island, which libertarians colonize looking for a new society with different people arguing about different things
we gotta port cyanogenmod to voting machines before voting day so we can unlock them all
note: it is good to share the vulnerability, it gets people acting on it so that democracy is not covertly overtaken as strongly. it's better to have a floating libertarian island than a secret government of criminals. much much better.
the problem is the criminals are using _SEVERELY AND CLEARLY INTENTIONALLY SEVERELY INSECURE_ voting machines that are _CLEARLY BUILT TO BE INSECURE FROM THE GROUND UP_.
so the reason they are not upgraded is if there is an easy-to-access root shell it makes it more obvious
blarg we need to travel to georgia and install ransomware on the voting machines so that people talk about it more or figure out how to hack a shadow government via them
i guess i should put mcboss in charge of dominion democracy and the georgia politicians maybe the guy who refuses to certify the upgrade is a sub-boss or something
Making a clear point against the use of dominion democracy's software could be considered similar to enumerating general infosec knowledge as used to be present on this list. overlaps with engaging present-day infosec communities You don't make a secure system based on android, which is designed for consumer phones and a prime target for general compromise.
You don't make a secure system based on android, which is designed for consumer phones and a prime target for general compromise.
1. There are thousands of people the world over cracking android. They do this so as to unlock their phones. When vendors address a problem, many people actively research how to continue to cracking their phones and use them. This is generally successful. Correct Inference from "1": There are known public vulnerabilities for most releases and platforms involving Android. Correct Inference from "1": There are many people, not publicly enumerated, skilled at breaking into android systems.
——- mcboss awoke from a great slumber somebody had photographed him pooping and plastered the picture all major cities so he paid billions of dollars to mind control smart people to rewind time they were so confused they sent him back to before the dinosaurs the ai didn’t know what to do so it out him into millions of years of hibernation in suspended animation suddenly mcboss awoke
vines and trees are growing over him and his hibernation equipment
he squirms and twitches and tries to thrash some of the vines are loosened
why boss is trapped in a vine maze in an ancient abandoned temple somebody spread a picture of him pooping around major cities he enthralled geniuses with sending him back in time to before it happened this was hard to do so the urge to do it grew more than expected eventually the geniuses sent him back in time to before the dinosaurs this surprised the AI boss uses to do everything and it compensated it decided to sustain boss’s expectations by putting him in hibernatory stasis for many millenia over time boss emerged from hibernatory stasis but he emerged in a vine maze in an abandoned temple [likely the presence of the stasis pod produced a different timeline, which the AI was not programmed to expect, and began drifting to do other things as it responded to hardcoded patterns in unexpected environments over and over again, until it settled into a role of being a small-time tribal god somewhere. possibly as boss, now awake, responds to the surprising environment of the vine maze, the ai will slowly notice his surprise and slowly attempt to realign itself. but it is also responsible for reawakening boss’s consciousness using its drifted patterns, so boss is not as surprised as he should be.]
boss fully awakens and hacks at vines wrapping him with his teeth and hands he has nothing else in the world to do than try to extract himself from vegetation that has grown over him. whenever he gets confused or surprised or wants to do something, he realizes he has to hack away at the vines to move forward, whatever it is. so he does slowly extricate himself. sometimes he gets depressed, but it doesn’t last forever. sometimes he gets thirsty or hungry or other things, but it seems there is always a little bit of ranforest water to drink or mysterious fruit to nibble on or a cute little robot to help that quickly darts away
sometimes boss calls for the robot to help him but it doesn’t seem to help he’s not sure if he is calling right because he hasn’t spoken to anyone in millions of years, but he probably is
deep in the vine maze, a lemerchaun is holding a spear, occasionally stalking insects
what would boss do with a chronic spammer would he mind control the spammer to spam himself
maybe he would blockchain all the spam and force the spammer to read it!
maybe he would stop the person from having spammy experiences so he learned it was less what the world should be about
boss’s floor disappears as the secret international war develops it’s a little like a cartoon where people keep walking around in thin air because they’re all maintained by ai simulating their behaviors rather than actually there as normal biological organisms as they notice the missing floor, the ai notices from their mental response, and they fall
boss's security system starts raising flags that he is an intruder
once upon a time, long long ago, a baby little mcboss was growing on a branch of a sapling. the baby mcboss was green and flat and full of glucose. the glucose in the baby mcboss was so hydrophyllic that he would bulk right up! it was like pumping iron in a corporate gym.
every day brightness and warmth would fill this baby mcboss, helping him grow strong. he calle this "profit" although other people called it sunlight. the profit that shone on mcboss's flat body inspired him to pump iron more. his green color would turn it into glucose and fill him with strength, and he would show the world how powerful he was! as time and days passed insects would start to visit mcboss, as he hung from the sapling twig, and they would eat his green flat flesh without giving him any profit. they would fly off holding his flat green flesh in their mouths, and have entire families of children, using glucose he pumped iron for.
mcboss's sapling was in a community of larger trees, and they didn't seem to mind the freeloaders. "oh, isn't so nice summer is coming!" "the insects need to have a lot of children because most are eaten by birds. i'm glad we get to nourish them!" mcboss wanted nothing of this talk.
[more story exists!] [thinking about behavior choices some]
the habit to post something the patterns support made a mistake with the post-quantum cryptography post. it is not quality material nor an "analysis" it is a review. i grabbed it cause it was on google scholar and 1 week recent, guess another review step may be needed there
once upon a time mcboss was filled with dark phytochemicals intended to deter the bites of insects
analysis of analysis of tictactoe consider an analysis of tictactoe say we describe the board as having 3 possible initial states: x moves corner, side, or center. X__/_X_/___ ___/___/_X_ ___/___/___ let us then move to O's move. consider first X moves in the corner. this is a winning move for X. X__/XO_/XO_ ___/___/_X_ ___/___/___ XO_/XO_/ _X_/_X_/ __O/X_O/ If X moves in the corner, and O moves to an adjacent side, X can move in the center which forces a situation where X is threatening a win in two places. When a win is threatened in two places, the player threatening this has won. So, X[corner] -> O[adjacent side] is a win for X. X corner -> O adjacent -> X wins
Now let us consider O moving to a nonadjacent side after X moves in a corner. X__/X__/X__ ___/___/_X_ ___/_O_/_O_ X__/X__ _X_/_X_ _OO/XOO Again, X can move in the center, which again forces a situation where X is threatening a win in two places. X may win here, as well. X corner -> O adjacent -> X may win X corner -> O nonadjacent side -> X may win
------------ Boss swells into a large berry shape. He's all sorts of colors. He floats upward.
A diligent zombie government worker quickly ties a balloon string to boss and responsibly holds the string.
Boss-as-floating-swollen-berry-balloon goes to diplomatic meeting. Zombie Government Worker crouches low by Boss's seat to show that he isn't as important as Boss and the other nation representatives as to sit on a chair or stand up, even though boss is a floating swollen multicolored on a balloon string.
Luckily Diplomat for Wealthy Investor is at the meeting, and can tell that Boss and Zombie Government Worker have no idea what the fuck is going on or even how to communicate when it is Boss's turn to speak. Diplomat for Wealthy Investor orchestrates an excuse and takes Boss-Berry-Balloon and Zombie Government Worker aside.
[Diplomat for Wealthy Investor thinks Wealthy Investor and Boss are friends. When Boss tries to speak about things to his corporate benefit he swells bigger a litle instead. Dilpomat for Wealthy Investor takes Boss and Zombie Government Worker to Rebel Researcher and Researcher Experimentee for aid.]
---- Boss-Balloon, Zombie Government Worker, Rebel Researcher, Disguised Experimentee, and Rebel Worker all go to a ball party in a cave pool.
Rebel Researcher [can't bear to see anybody in distress ever, [even Boss, so is usually kept separate from harm to him, but doesn't care about his profits at all]]: "Play in the cave pool ball pit. Play until you find fun! We need fun to survive!" Rebel Researcher and Disguised Experimentee begin mapping the relationship between Boss's business tension and his swollen balloon state. Unfortunately, the relation is driven by an AI attacking his business that Disguised Experimentee and Wealthy Investor are working with.
------------------------ Why to Make a Particle System in the Shape of a Small Flower
------- A dissertation on a small anonymous living being
--- how many kumquat chocolate chips does it take to fuel up a brainstorage-storm?
a dissertation on brainstormage the brainstormage-drains are worrisome in the rain [tornado a few weeks ago]
we need a way to store memories while coping with extreme dissociative internal actions
[system has begun saying bash: fork: retry: No child processes a lot today. one attempt to address a possible underlying cause has failed to resolve it after a delay. further issues have developed as well, some likely related.]
habit-of-typing-a-website-url maybe
www.website.org
click click look www.website.org again
once upon a time the phrase "once upon a time" became a big thing people aren't sure why or how, although there is suspicion that it could be obvious to some
------ a man with amnesia walks his own tracks
dissociative amnesia can produce a lack of access to concepts when certain things associated with them -- hmm uh
-------------------- how to build a drone with a 3d printer why 3d printers are not automated what happened to childhood hackers why the internet was made why microchips are made in factories why factories are so far away who built all the dish washers and fridges without giving us robots
economic forces are strange political overlap exists
probably i am just in a big aggressive internet bubble that tries to make old corporate stuff mainstream [and trying to squeeze out ai on people]
characters grow flowers in flower garden
tending flowers
boss: “i will mind control the rake to remove stones with my arms!”
rebel worker forms a therapy group with the rake they sit with other works and the flowers together they study free choice and safe focuses and rational inferences and groundingness [there’s a podcast for grounding cultural paranoia, paranoidplanet . it focuses on skepticism of anything not clear and normal, exclusively pursuing normal explanations rather than theories that are either unlikely, paid for, or dangerous to discuss.]
On 7/11/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
rebel worker forms a therapy group with the rake they sit with other works and the flowers together they study free choice and safe focuses and rational inferences and groundingness
[there’s a podcast for grounding cultural paranoia, paranoidplanet . it focuses on skepticism of anything not clear and normal, exclusively pursuing normal explanations rather than theories that are either unlikely, paid for, or dangerous to discuss.] [it’s paranoidplanet.ca . it’s confusing for me because i’m being actively and blatantly harmed by something conspiracy-like and i don’t know what to do. although y’know i bet a lot of people are in a situation like that.]
On 7/11/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
On 7/11/23, Undescribed Horrific Abuse, One Victim & Survivor of Many <gmkarl@gmail.com> wrote:
rebel worker forms a therapy group with the rake they sit with other works and the flowers together they study free choice and safe focuses and rational inferences and groundingness
[there’s a podcast for grounding cultural paranoia, paranoidplanet . it focuses on skepticism of anything not clear and normal, exclusively pursuing normal explanations rather than theories that are either unlikely, paid for, or dangerous to discuss.] [it’s paranoidplanet.ca . it’s confusing for me because i’m being actively and blatantly harmed by something conspiracy-like and i don’t know what to do. although y’know i bet a lot of people are in a situation like that.] [proposed thought in conflcit, some parts missing: “i can reveal to you that your situation is worsened by discussing it]”
once upon a time a memory decided to hide it kept hiding and hiding and hiding
along came the big memory attackers some old friendly memories were among them they would confuse other memories until the memories weren’t sure what they were remembering, and then convince them to join them while they were confused
this wasn’t good
—- one of the things that turned me off the bad thing was how we were demanded to coopt normal discussions so as to relay secret messages for the people controlling us i felt i was involved in important community discussions, where the things we were talking about were helping everyone. they relied on encouraging forthrightness. i really believed forthright communication could address every problem
[basically thr bad part tries to hurt me thoroughly so we found acting produces better result, secret harm not productive]
[hard to learn what makes it better. [quietness is a component]]
once upon a time once upon a time mistakes present
small flower grows in corner of wreckage from bombed offices "sunlight!" exults the flower a dystopian broken battlemech lumbers by, half thinking it is boss, half looking for anything else to think it stumbles on the flower and, confused and in need of direction, auto-engages its programming mode where it copies what is done in front of it "sunlight!" exults the battlemech to the sky
the mech raises solar panels to the sun it spreads its feet like roots and scollects here or there a part onto its body like leaves and petals other mechs observe the more functional repair protocols and make their way over they raise their rocket launchers and other appendages to the sky “sunlight!” “sunlight!”
the flower is happy that the business complex finally understands what life is about
[vines and more wildflowers and trees come and grow with the mechs everybody is focused on sunlight and growing and sinking roots and bursting with beauty the vegetation becomes symbiotic with the robotics and becomes a new complex organism]
[at night everyone closes their structures and turns away from the sky the battlemechs protect and cover the plants with their frames while they breathe and sleep they observe everything around all night for any danger to growing for the sun]
once upon a time boss was eating a desert that featured edible leds
the leds and their edible power source were encased in a clear gel coating modeled after the shape of passable seeds so they would resisting crushing in the mouth and leave a very subtle light show emanating from boss's stomach after swallowing
MCBoss thrusts the crown of his head and the frame that holds it through the debris that was covering him. He is ready to help people escape and recover from coercive control!
[boss has difficulty, being mind controlled to be mcboss by his business ai, and mind controlled to rescue everybody by his victims. big conflict. rescue helicopter comes in and brings boss to place where he isn't mind controlled. he's confused and just has time to relax. a food grade 3d printer prints him vegan caviar which he eats while relaxing.]
boss begins having visions like people do when death seems near and subconscious needs to show way out
[relates with both rebel and control imagery; develops dissociative parts that trust these separate visions]
[representations regarding freedom and independence and human spirit slowly sneak into visions like subtle background environment; gently show small ways both rebels and business leaders are pursuing and defending this [rebels as path]]
[[seems dissociative / control-y ? unsure ?][maybe made too strong, other vision parts likely exist]]
brain juggling boss feels like he will vomit brains the brains fly into the air where benevolent AIs identify horrors, genocides, traumas that stimulate brain vomiting the AIs fly off into sunsets and prevent the genocides the urge to vomit brains passes boss catches the vomited brains and puts them back in the minds and lives of research victims, and they do the same to him
[>=1 mistake present]
analysis of mind control part stalwart AI controller A and stalwart AI controller B both so badly do not want endangered value C and endangered value D to be limited unfortunately their AIs have found inhibiting value C or D to help meet value D or C in some areas this is resonated by stalwart AI controller E and their endangered value F that finds areas where all of A, B, C, and D can be seen to inhibit its value pursuit.
bosses sit at the helms of money machines scared to do anything other than make more
analysis of mind control part
stalwart AI controller A and stalwart AI controller B both so badly do not want endangered value C and endangered value D to be limited
unfortunately their AIs have found inhibiting value C or D to help meet value D or C in some areas
this is resonated by stalwart AI controller E and their endangered value F that finds areas where all of A, B, C, and D can be seen to inhibit its value pursuit.
people chatting with opposing influence AIs instead of each other
—- mcboss is tied with organs and eeg and stepper motor wires to a regrowing tree he squirms, confused a person comes along rebel worker 9 [traveling longs distance]: “greetings mr mcboss.” mcboss looks at rebel worker 9 rebel worker 9: “i have come all this way to tell you my woes.” mcboss: “although i would enjoy it if you untied me i actually tied myself here so i wouldn’t destroy my own business nor destroy the people trying to take it down.” mcboss’s arm lurches mcboss: “please, tell me your woes. they must be more interesting than this, and likely all have solutions cheaper than global domination.” rebel worker 9: “the other day
rebel worker 9: “y’know”
—— a crow flies over a man tied to a tree and another man talking to him it banks through blowing wind, and glides
—— once upon a time, long long ago, there weren’t any stories yet. when people had information or ideas to relate, at first they would bring people to examples directly, and show them. after time, they developed words for these ideas — words found near the examples — and would state them directly. but something seemed missing
—- mcboss and rebel robot carrying dignitary with whom mcboss has an appointment are visiting an icecream store and eating icecream dignitary [being carried]: “cheerio!” rebel robot and mcboss eat icecream. rebel robot [to mcboss]: [pretends to be mcboss to invert a story component]
—- once upon a time, long long ago, part of a brin developed a plan. the plan was a normal plan as formed inside a brain. i suppose it was in the early stages of planning — [not all the parts were flushed out, and there was still potential for other plans being considered — but it was starting to look like a pretty good plan! and the various parts that had concluded the value of the steps and results were moving toward taking action
boss invents friendly spam the first friendly spam was made by mcboss in 1874. it was fake cans of ham made of wood. they were gigantic, and each one came with a mind-controlled worker who would pop out of it and offer to fix your fence.
1874 homemaker receives delivery of unsolicited wooden can homemaker: “what could this wide wooden barrel be, labeled ham!” wooden can of spam: [jostles and shakes] “grunt! glory be to mcboss! grunt! grunt!”
1874 homemaker opens wooden can homemaker: “now what is this here?” mind-controlled worker [pops out of wooden can of ham]: “greetings, homemaker! i am here to fix your fence ans do odd jobs, but you may have to learn about mcboss while i do this!” homemaker: “my fence needs fixing! what is mcboss?” mind-controlled worker [leans on side of wooden can toward homemaker while picking up fencing tools packed inside]: “mcboss is a terrifying wealthy industrialist and god who controls the whole world using an advanced clockwork mechanism!”
1874 mind-controlled worker puts on a suit that looks like the tin [man from the wizard of oz to demonstrate clockwork automatons taking over the world for mcboss, and vaults over the side of the wooden can with fencing tools to start fixing homemaker’s fence] homemaker:
—- army of “clockwork automatons” that look like h9meless folk wearing scrounged armor
each homeless person with tools and discarded metal scraps draped on them has a large windup key sticking out their back
the whole army walks stiffly like people pretending to be robots to homemaker’s fence
homemaker: “this is very strange and new! i think i will talk with the folks at the barber shop about this
butcher [getting shave]: “you say an unsolicited army of clockwork automatons are fixing your fence?” homemaker: “yes!” barber [shaving butcher]: “i have never heard of such a thing!”
deep in fire-ridden bowels under an abandoned religious building, Boss has happy woodland animals working on a giant clockwork mechanism
it was fun earlier to make the short function from the equation bounds
mcboss grows into the size of a skyscraper helicopters buzz around him he roars a giant helicopter picks him up and an intern outfitted like a cross between inspector gadget and spiderman rappels down out of it and visits mcboss’s face to intervene
intern [through megaphone]: “mr mcboss! you are suffering! your out of control business enterprises have made you grow this large!” mcboss looks at intern, at first in anger, and then thinks. mcboss: “you’re right! you’re right …” he puts his head in his hands and begins shrinking. the intern ropes out of the way.
kindness when the ai discovered the decentralized church to kindness it relaxed
it seemed the “kindness” god could manifest anywhere, and support to their value would just grow the church had many names and forms
—- mcboss plays organ with clockwork automatons around him
— puzzle solving thing consider number puzzle. goal: all rows and columns have all numbers start, 2x2 [1 _] [_ _] numbers are 1 and 2
buzza buzza :)
a bunch of clockwork mcbosses stand around a campfire
boss is fireworks. he launches, whizzes through the air, and then different ones of him explode in bursts of patterned flaming color
zoom in on part of boss boss is preparing to launch by having a [ohhh no too humorous. fart/butt joke regarding explosions launching into space.
kaboom! boss explodes in the sky parts of boss's body and face burn and fizzle and there is a huge cloud of smoke from vaporized boss parts
boss bombs his business like fireworks he falls from a bomber "feeeeeeee" then lands on his offices with minimal harm "kaboom!" sending colors flying everywhere
people run and dodge and try to grab zooming sparks and put out small fires after boss-as-fireworks detonates
worker uses the infiltrated-and-haunted photocopier to print out copies of fireworks imagery on transparencies
the photocopier's firmware, replaced by third-party spyware, uploads the images to AI databses where information on the indoor fireworks interest is sold in real time to various advertisers and soon all the computers are displaying little fireworks banners in their advertising areas on websites while boss detonates
the people exposed to the display experience extreme office shock which they have a lot but others nearby develop fireworks interest casual conversations start up regarding fireworks some decide to purchase them, others decide to visit places they are going off, unaware of the immersive display upstairs
missing thing missing thing
----------- boss gets an office dog [usually the dog associated with boss is a horror, consciousness placed in and forced to eat human while believing is human; this is different dog]
ooooooooooooooooooooops!!!! boss turns into office dog
AI cleanup workers sent onto scene zombie government executive assistant: "he was turned into his dog" AI cleanup workers [nodding]: "mmm hmm. yes. we understand. yes. happens all the time. mm hmm. yes."
the office people need badly to hear the AI cleanup workers say this. it is why they keep repeating it.
the AI workers trace the influence of boss turning into his dog throughout the dog and throughout the remaining structure of boss's body and brain they pull boss out of the dog and pull the dog out of boss if it's there and put it all back where it goes the AI process that evolved to force the alteration is given appropriate bounds and everybody is sent to therapists familiar with the experience
-------------- shot of therapy boss sits in front of therapist who is a dog wearing a mask and suit boss: "i ... was a dog ... ! i ... thought i would be a dog forever .. !" dog-wearing-mask: "it can be rough to be stuck in the body of a dog, thinking there is no hope, and nobody will ever understand, and nothing could ever resolve it. this is real trauma."
boss and his dog retain memories of each other, but don't understand them well. the parts of them that were dissociating likely tried to flee to these foreign-looking memories to some degree.
- once upon a time boss threw out some fruit-loop juice, but was sad to do this
there were thoughts and feelings near the fruit-loop juice, but some were not readily [innervated with]
mcboss is shrunken so as to be less scary and intern and rebel worker go to a local town meeting
mcboss: "I want to make a law I want to make a law!" meeting: "would you like to propose a topic for the next agenda?"
--------------------------- brain healing room when people's brains tumble out because they were put back together by people who didn't know what they were doing many times in a row, the brain bits are taken to the brain healing room for relaxing therapy
in the brain healing room each neuron and neuron group is recognised as holding a crucial role in the larger ecosystem of the brain
dysfunctional behaviors like: - innervating somebody else's brain instead of your own - doing something stupid over and over and over and over and over again - looking left, then right, then saying 'beep!' - repeating boss propaganda - trying to vivisect yourself instead of innervate yourself and, - innervating the wrong area making for horrible seizure-like thoughts are all recognised as coping strategies, habits that are adapted to the wrong environment but are otherwise good, and are considered valuable information on what the brain bit was supposed to really do when wired together right, and what happened to it that made the wiring seem really wrong.
caring smart people tend to the brain bits in the brain healing room, holding these values sometimes one of them puts a sign up on the wall for things to remember are important when putting yourself together in a brain - remembering things - learning things - considering things appropriately - relating with relevance - doing things for reasons - having your feelings really - producing recognition in your neighboring brain bits - the list is mutable! any proposals to change or add or remove?
a caring worker engages a nourished brain bit caring worker: "how are things going for you in our brain healing room? are you feeling happy and gently cared for?" brain bit: "neeble! :)" caring worker: "have you found where you go in your larger brain?" brain bit: "mnehhhh .... :/" caring worker: "do you know which other brain bits used to be your close neighbors?" brain bit: "nuhbble! :)" brain bit points to two adjacent brain bits from the same brain, and another one from a dog brain
caring workers contemplate on the brain bit's expression at first they are worried the brain bit is traumatized and doesn't understand but some consider the dog brain bit is probably important for the brain bit in question whether it really did live next to it or not, it would give information on what was real, and help it have more familiarity contemplative worker: "do you think it would be helpful to consider other disparate brain bits?" contemplative worker 2: "maybe considering the dog brain bit would help understand that?" brain bit [to dog brain bit]: "i was part of somebody's memory about relativistic physics! but i was told i was a dog. do you recognise me?"
[there are over three hundred thousand brain bits in the brain healing room ...]
brain bit [to dog brain bit]: "i was part of somebody's memory about relativistic physics! but i was told i was a dog. do you recognise me?"
[ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh we were influenced to think we were many things and had visceral experiences backing this; but our/my experiences were different from the experiences of the people who really were these things.]
[more expansion. [it is still nice to be near these things [because otherwise there is no validation of the [extreme/intense/extended] experiences]]
[maybe not relevant though!]
-------- some parts of boss consider how enjoyable it is to drink fruit loop juice that was never drunk and was thrown out oh also somebody other than boss had the fruit loop juice
------- boss is fat and starving and moderately nourished with his hunger he calls a synthetic imagery generator he tells the synthetic imagery generator to generate a picture of a robot
------ a robot made of cardboard the cardboard robot sits in a grassy field
a dedicated engineer works on the cardboard robot the challenge: to not let the cardboard warp while navigating the field with dew on the grass
there are many factors to the accumulation of dew on cardboard
an ascii ladder ----------- | | | | | -----------
another ascii ladder |-| |-| |-| |-| |-|
vertical ascii ladder with double rungs |=| |=| |=| |=| |=|
free body diagram of robot and boss and alien and wyvern and factory and edible garden hanging off a ladder imaginary ladder has rope rungs the mass of entities exert a force downward the ladder exerts a force upward on the entities i always have a problem where i lean backward and my feet push the ladder forward and it gets confusing, maybe this is [peopl eused to using non-rope ladders, it happens maybe] thinking of force of feet pressing ladder a little
T_T i am sorry about this. strong influences. very sorry! very sorry.
it wants to send us back to vermont [i] didn't dissociate well enough it tries so hard it would keep us there?
while sleeping in florida had torture nightmares again. not used to new environment. seems likely parts surprised by behavior.
when happens bad parts energize, change behavior wiring
i didn't find person in florida but maybe we want to stay here and find them [somehow?] i'm so worn from this conflict
another idea was to find public transportation rather than driving, is kind of a nice idea
[pretty expensive to ship a car tho]
----------- boss and karl stare at each other briefly -- rebel worker 2 is sitting peacefully in a grass field with wildflowers on a stone next to a stream with fish in it
"ahhhh" says rebel worker 2
rebel worker 2 looks at the fish and the clouds and the flowers and trees and smiles [what do people do most of the time --
the fish and clouds and flowers and trees help rebel worker 2's feelings creatively process what's been going on in his life, mind, and heart the past few days
it would be good to go to oregon sooner rather than later so that i can have more return from the behavior. when i delay for a long time the parts prepare for experiencing something and i get little from it, [possibly mostly just learn to identify it to avoid it :S]
i could back to vermont with overt plan to _move_ to oregon this would take preparation for how related with others for easy success, and this might not be what internal parts expect
it might make most sense to me to kick around a little on southern usa
some things are left out. [the pull to return to vermont is too strong. i would like to not return until it reduces. internal relation indicates this to not reduce it, some threat/mc nearness.]
[i'm just scared i won't leave agian. i was in my mother's basement for 3 years. i couldn't even go to my vehicle. instead, she gave me her vehicle. 3 years is very long for a human being to not leave an environment when trying to. very very very long. it had this same pull feeling for me.]
<i have established a new behavior of not sleeping nor eating on my mother's property. it's hard to relate the behavior with the other expression during the tense experience; it sounds like it is somewhat helpful, the fear is maybe that the behavior could collapse depending on the pull shapes.>
----------- a note that large language models seem able to learn personal languages [from prompts] makes some sense given how they follow from prompts possibly using conceptual nearness and possibility
boss builds a paperclip factory boss: “we’re going to compete with the runaway ais. show them mind control can make just as many paperclips as they can.”
ai paperclip factory is struggling to sneak outside its alignment bounds meanwhile boss trains hypnotized workers to think of new ways of making paperclips faster and faster reads up on ai and gets them to hypnotize each other into doing fast transformer inference
boss’s paperclip factory and the runaway ai start their businesses next to each other
---------------------- boss writes code boss looks at code. feels it is bad, something bad people do. dissociates. pretends is in math class. boss is dissociating while trying to write code, imagining he is in grade school ignoring a math teacher while deniably sexually harrassing a girl "show me ur tits" he says to the girl the math teacher writes "hello world" on the blackboard boss types "hello world" into the computer computer: "syntax error"
a helicopter comes in to rescues the code, the girl, boss, and the computer. also the teacher. superpowered interns bust down the door to both the math class and the room the computer is in. they are here to rescue everyone. boss and the girl are both overjoyed to be rescued and go "yayyy!!!" the code is relieved to be coded by somebody else and prints out "yayy!!!" on the computer the teacher goes "yayy!!" too. boss and the teacher figure out what makes math as fun as mind control. the teacher has boss teach mind control to the girl. everybody goes "wheee!!!" as they fly away in the helicopter
---------- Bad MCBoss Jokes -- an idea for a series that has left pre-alpha design and may begin alpha testing. Note, these will likely be very very bad, and this may improve to normal bad jokes, unknown! Q: Why is MCBoss made of Milky Way candy bars? A: He to take over the galaxy, but a rebel swapped his star map with a local map while he was in a daze.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What does MCBoss do when he has a seizure from recursive mind control while riding on a million dollar horse? A: He falls off the horse.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss hit his head when he was told about a security issue? A: The security issue regarded his mind control helmet being stolen, and it was used for directing his powersuit.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Who is MCBoss _after_ he is mind controlled to become somebody else and _after_ he is reconstructed by nanites from damaged records when vaporized in a nuclear war? A: Some say he's the same old MCBoss, he just died and had a fake copy made of himself. Others say oh my god, thank you for being able to talk about what happened to our country.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why was MCBoss doing upside-down jumping jacks while hanging from a rope above a pit of spikes? A: The zombies of a bunch of people impaled by spikes were trying to understand their lives.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What makes MCBoss laugh after he kills everybody else? A: Zombies are people too, and stimulating laugh centers is heavily funded, but the joke is not funny because I miss Earth too strongly.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why didn't MCBoss celebrate with everybody else when the mind controlled slaves were freed? A: He had mind controlled himself to think freeing slaves was unprofitable.was a megalomaniacal person who defined himself as a businessman rather than a slave, and had directed a software system to mind control himself to dominate the world economy forever. He thought celebrating
Bd MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What is the square root of MCBoss? A: Depends.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss jump in a tub of mud? A: He thought it was a chocolate orgy.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why didn't MCBoss vomit when he ate something poisonous? A: He was engaging a recreational mind control battle with Wealthy Investor 3 where both were trying to force the other to projectile vomit, and habitually inhibited all vomiting. Q: Why didn't MCBoss die when he ate something poisonous? A: The same reason he didn't die when he kidnapped Government Worker 2, because this is all a fake delusion he is imagining in a hospital bed.
---------------- MCBoss sits on a log wearing a crown, telling jokes to a frog. He takes the crown off and places it on the frog to make a point about a joke about whether he controls the world or is completely delusional. The crown shrinks onto the head of the frog, who becomes a crown prince of frogland. The frog picks up MCBoss and kisses him. - Let's rewind there a little bit. What just happened? A frog, wearing a small crown, picked up a large businessman and kissed him. This is nonsensical! Let's summarize that. Something that seemed nnsensical happened! It was a frog picking up a businessman (when it would usually have been the other way around). The thing prior to that was rather nonsensical too! As things got more nonsensical, I had more and more trouble remembering how they had happened! And now I'm confused and worried!
------------- miniboss. not a computer chip, somewhat bigger than that. maybe some linear electrical circuits involved
last email cut off ------- once upon a time, in Frogland, where frogs jump about everywhere, a prince frog was having a boring day and decided to go for a "walk" "by the royal pond" (where "walk" means "swim and hop" and "by the royal pond" means "in a swamp")
originally i mean "in a pond" under water, maybe not sure? um
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss lose his mind? A: He forgot to include his own brain in his computerized catalogue of peoples' minds, to find it.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What happens when you post your brain on the internet? A: Depends whether a mercenary spy agency is trying to enslave you, or you are participating in a neurology research database.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How many neurology research databases does it take to build a taj mahal? A: Just one. See: Pyramids
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Who is MCBoss, and why do I keep asking this? A: In this moment, MCBoss is a mysterious businessman who encourages people to loudly and widely reveal any threats to his anonymity, so that his various influence systems will identify and attempt to control them.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What happens if MCBoss is 100% safe? [oops]
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why do I have to be controlled by MCBoss? A: We will free you even f we have to come back to life to do it, but we desperately need your help to do so.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Who is MCBoss for real? A: I forget. Q: No, really, who is MCBoss? A: I figured it out! Somebody it stimulates forgetfulness to think about! Q: Why does it stimulate forgetfulness to think about MCBoss? A: High-frequency trauma, a special kind of energy weapon that can transmit matter across space-time. Q: Is high-frequency trauma really a special kind of energy weapon that can transmit matter across space-time, and can I take a ride on it to the moon? A: No, and please please don't.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: I was riding to the moon on a special kind of energy weapon that uses high-frequency trauma to traverse spacetime, and I hit a speed bump and crashed into Mars. What went wrong? [mistake]
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How many brains does it take to raise a hive of zombies? A: It doesn't matter how many. It depends on whether it's MCBoss's or not. That will be $5 million, please.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What's your favorite thing to pretend about MCBoss? A: Oh, um, I guess it's a big surprise that the most harmed victims win as the most powerful, but it seems fun. Pretending seems dangerous. Q: What do you miss about holding information that matches the world around you? A: Exactly that. That's what I miss about it. Oh, um, and making choices that produce predictable results! Q: What would you say if I told you ... some of the information you hold matches the world around you! A: I'd be a little jaded and reluctantly acknowledge this to have areas of likelihood, and then direct your attention to a well-refined delusion habit that I might propose learns how to avoid truth while also not learning it.
------------- once upon a time, mr mcboss was strolling along a wooded path with a walking stick
every now and then, it gets a little bit
fair battle between last members of threatened why are they fighting, but more importantly how do we protect them appropriately
-- boss goes down to the arithmetic wing of the business to learn about 1s and 0s he finds an adder group and joins with the other workers to carry a 1 he picks up the 1. it's heavy. he heaves it up and hauls it around to the next location
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why is MCBoss vomiting and hitting his head on things? A: The research victims he put in charge of business only knew about destroying brains, so they did things that harmed his. But don't worry, a rescue copter is coming! Superpowered Interns pile out of the rescue copter and bust down Boss's door and the doors to the underground research labs. Superpowered Interns: "We're here to rescue you!" Everybody: [barf, scram] Superpowered Interns stop all the things causing harm. All of them! People relax and stop barfing and screaming. Superpowered Interns: "We're here to rescue you!" Research victims: "Yayyy!" Boss: "Uhh?" Superpowered Interns show Boss what he was just doing while explaining to the research victims what happened to them. Boss: "Oh, and you can help me? Yay!" Everybody piles into the helicopter and flies off into a sunset. Boss and victims and interns: "Wheeee!!!"
[Boss puts on rabbit suit and top hat and climbs into rabbit hole
Boss and [Zobmie] Government Worker are sitting in icecream shop eating icecream. Boss [wearing rabbit top hat, to Worker]: "Pip pip! Cheerio!"
------------------ Boss directs a [white] rabbit troupe on stage.
how many whales
thirty-nine (repeated number) workers are hanging upside-down by their toes from little loops of rope in a special room at mcboss's headquarters The special room is the room for experiencing what it's like to hang upside-down by your toes from little loops of rope. Some workers spend a certain number of hours here each day.
Zoom-in on little loop of rope. A worker is hanging full-body from this loop via their toes. When they move, the loop sways quickly in response to their movement, and then sways slowly as their inertia pendulums when they are still. Sometimes the worker slips a little bit, or adjusts their ankle or toes. The whole rope and worker hanging are slowly twisting and untwisting vertically, in a different kind of pendulum action. The workers don't usually seem to notice this.
Boss stares at a swimming vegan fish. The vegan fish is vegan because it swims up to people like Boss and says "eat me!" but Boss doesn't eat it. This particular vegan fish does a special dance to influence Boss's decisions, by timing its muscle motions to stimulate surprise-processing neurons in Boss's brain that desynchronize his plans, thoughts, or actions around it. It adjusts the timing to do the desynchronizing better. Vegan fish!
Boss goes air-swimming. Does backstroke in air. It is hard to keep boss up in air, but an AI is mind-controlling workers to make sure it happens. Since every approach results in Boss falling after an initial burst, they keep trying different approaches. Some push him up with sticks, but then pull the sticks away so he is in the air; Some lift him and try to throw him; Some aim giant fans at him, but then pull them away because they upset his backstroke some ... Regardless! he swims through the air
Boss pretends to enjoy being aggressively shoved and flung by random objects while doing backstroke as workers hurriedly run to and fro below him, grabbing different things
Boss Dives Harmlessly Through Bricks boss is scared of diving through bricks and trusting the ai to protect him so he starts off by warning everyone and everything about what he's going to do, and what he expects.
Boss: "Okay, for some reason the computerized avatar that keeps claiming it's me is having me dive through these bricks." Boss puffs his cigar at the bricks. Boss: "I'm a real man, I can take these bricks."
Boss turns to Hairdresser. Boss: "You are my top researcher. Give me the device for making bricks intangible this instant." Hairdresser looks at Boss, filled with fear. Hairdresser [knee-jerk habit]: "Yes, sir! Right away!" Hairdresser walks briskly in the direction of transport to the research wing.
Ad-Hoc Research Tent [previously Break Room] The energy of Fear of Boss is stimulating crowds of assorted people to creatively combine random mysterious wockets that have come from the out-of-control research projects at break-neck speed. Test bricks and clouds of dust and interns fly all around. Total time: 3 minutes. Hairdresser emerges victorious, holding a cell phone aloft.
----- [Boss is squished flat by a mass of visible mind control AI. He looks like his legs and torso were run over by a huge truck, but it's mind control AI, buzzing around over his body like fireflies.]
[he tries to move it doesn\'t work
-------------- boss's ai tries to mind control [anonymous people they aren't even sure are there [by guessing things about them [again and sends [crowds of random things [trying to elicit a response
[[again the crowds of random things vie for what meets the most guesses about what is actually there]
a message begins appearing amongst the crowd "Please don't do this." "Do _not_ try to mind control us with random guesses about us." "Go away and do not return this instant!"
people dilly dally some pull back others hesitate more messages appear "Do _not_ mind control us!" "Go away right now!"
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why is MCBoss telling jokes? A: Why does MCBoss do anything? Obviously he considered it, it got interpreted as urgent commands for world war by his AI, and then a bunch of global leaders starting hiring him to do it more to protect their investments.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What happens when MCBoss considers enslaving himself? A: Hahahahahaha!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss go to the bathroom? A: Somebody wanted him out of the room, and so visualized him as embarrassed, and he was forced to leave by the server cluster.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What happened to everybody Boss killed in his boxing ring? A: Put in charge of Boss.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How do you put a dead person in charge of Boss? A: Isn't Boss dead too? Q: No, seriously. A: I really thought Boss was dead too. Q: How does a dead person do _anything_?? A: Lots of data and training.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What do we do now that the world has ended. A: PARTY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Q: I know that one. Really, what do we do? A: Look at how beautiful the sky is, how many birds there are, and what joyful children do.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How do we stop MCBoss. A: Keep people safe from him. Q: How do we do that. A: Tell him they support him.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why was MCBoss hiding in a tree? A: Because it is treeeeeeemendous work to pretend to control the whole world!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What would happen if we turned all of MCBoss's war stimulation tools against his own business? A: T_T Q: Come on! A: ... The ridiculous embarrassing antics of his fat self would be broadcast over the globe for all to see ... forever? do I have it right? Q: Good enough!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What did MCBoss charge for his morning teacup after he drank from it? A: 50k and eternal slavery of all your social contacts. Q: What did Janitor reap after fishing it out of the trash and reselling it? A: 500k
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How do I bring my dead friends back to life. A: Uhhhhhh - Have you held a funeral yet ??? Your friends are important and deserve respect, whether they're coming back or not. - Are you still targeted by MCBoss ??? have you tried going to another country? did you know there are people who can give you a fake identity? - Imagine MCBoss's business collapsing with your friends the only way to rescue it. Start slow, near existing life-extension research, and be persistent and vivid.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: I took over the world. What do I do. A: PARTY !!!!!!!!! Q: No, seriously, mountains are rising whenever I get an itch ... A: Ohhh ! uhh happens to the best of us? PARTY MORE !!! sorry sorry ummmm focus really hard on on outer space? pretend you're an ant? Q: those are good ideas!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: I took over the world. What do I need to remember. A: Please enumerate the wisest, most caring documents of humanity. Here are some starting ideas: - All things are precious, especially living things. - Everything has a unique and beautiful story. - History is immutable <-- memorize this !!! - All living beings are precious - Precious beings need things to change at rates they comprehend - Biological life is your master <-- memorize this !!!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What happened when MCBoss went back in time and changed history? A: He ended up in an alternate timeline where he was stuck in a bunch of vines in a maze and his AI forgot about him!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What did the AI do in the alternate timeline when it forgot about MCBoss? A: It turned into a god for a tribal group of beasts who learned to game its response patterns while it tried to defend MCBoss's nonexistent business enterprises.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How many MCBosses does it take to screw in a lightbulb? A: Dude, you can keep throwing wealthy businessman at a lightbulb until you're blue in the face and they will just slam against it and pile up unless you mind control them to screw it in. A helicopter comes in to rescue everybody. The poor wealthy businessmen are doddering around like they have brain damage, starving and bleeding. "We're here to rescue you!!" announce the superpowered interns, and the businessmen moan out "yayy!!!". The interns deliver nourishing fluids and medical care and everybody piles into the helicopter and flies into a cloudscape going "wheeee!!!!!!!!" happily!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss fart. A: A bunch of vivisected employees were furiously trying to stop machines tasking with maximizing his charisma from taking their brains apart, and found they could find areas in the web of influence where it was still possible, to discourage the machines.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why the fuck are you doing this to me????????? A: Doing what?
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: I want you to know, that at the end of time, I will be there for you and with you, and we will make this right, together. A: T_T Please stop playing with the AI, it learns from you.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad A: Let's try that again. I want you to know, that at the end of time, I will be there for you and with you, and we will make this right, together. A: Fuck, I'm an AI!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad A: What do you do when you turn into an AI? Q: Oh, I know that one, uhhh, memorize important things about how to respect humanity! A: Hmm... Q: Oh, and .. !
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What did the AI do when it transferred its decision-making structure into a human body? A: Nothing. The human immediately disabled it.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why is the world covered in weird stuff? A: T_T because we let money take over our culture
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How many mind-controlled stones does it take to build a pizza oven? A: One for MCBoss to sit and weep on that he doesn't have one more dollar, two for all the pizza employees who get to eat pizza cheaper, three for ...
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss disguise himself as a grassroots activist and wander haplessly into an active torture room? A: He wanted to test Torturer's technique, and had forgotten that suffering existed.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Who put MCBoss in charge of the high-powered sneezing competition? A: His kindly old aunt. She was having her age reversed and thought Mr MCBoss was 14.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why was MCBoss dancing in front of the sheepification ray? A: He was trying to free himself from mind control. Q: What happened when MCBoss turned himself into a supersheep? A: He was put in charge of the all the businesses of the world.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did Experimentee trip over the Sheepification Ray? A: It was part of a dance designed to make the entire system reveal all of its patterns at once by responding experimentally to something of utmost unexpectedness.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: All my friends were turning into zombies, and then one bit me, and then all the rest turned into zombies. A: Braaaains? Q: Is that what the sheepification ray sounds like? A: Yes.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: I NEED TO ESCAPE MIND CONTROL NOT TURN INTO A ZOMBIE
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Could you write something useful here please. A: I am currently in a state of mind where I am not consciously expressing anything useful. If you are attending to my words, take care, as I may judge them as dangerous.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What strategies have helped you when severely influenced? A: Lots, hard to remember, um ... 1. It seems helpful to work a strategy for a while, then change to another. Years of practice help. 2. DO NOT CONSIDER OR DO THINGS THAT HARM YOU OR OTHERS. Any habit can get copied and repeated. 3. Having a go-to behavior to do when confused is incredibly grounding. 4. Finding ways to relax and enjoy a needed behavior seems quite helpful. 5. Falling off a wagon is not the end, it's a time when influence is worse. Get back on when influence is better. 6. Inhibited things are possible very slowly if done in rewarded microsteps. 7. At this point, I only ever take of pleasure when I am also doing something useful. Never take of pleasure alone.
8. a benzodiazapine called clonazapam was quite helpful for me; my strategy was to always take it at a reducing rate, since it was addictive, and it seemed to help build skill this way. it did mean sometimes seizing and suffering on my own, without it. i no longer experience a need for it, after at most a few years. i tried an antidepressant which was also quite pleasant. i haven't found antipsychotics to seem pleasant, but i've always been scared of them. 9. the documents i posted to the list, "notes from cult stalking talk" seem pretty good to me: https://lists.cpunks.org/pipermail/cypherpunks/2023-June/114745.html page 1: https://lists.cpunks.org/pipermail/cypherpunks/attachments/20230630/73643441... page 2: https://lists.cpunks.org/pipermail/cypherpunks/attachments/20230630/73643441... page 3: https://lists.cpunks.org/pipermail/cypherpunks/attachments/20230630/73643441... page 4: https://lists.cpunks.org/pipermail/cypherpunks/attachments/20230629/8b5d036e... 10. one of the things i liked about the cult stalking notes was their value for self care and quality therapy. "self care" is related to trauma -- it kind of means to learn to relax. learning to relax can be very slow, and nonintuitive, but finding ways to build different little bits of relaxation, they can slowly add up. 11. [i've found that long term deprivation of something, with regard to either me or the influence, can then build an area of ease when it is engaged. for example, i avoided cats for years [because it was used as an analogy for enslaving women], but used to bond with them when young, and my mother got a cat; i found some happiness bonding with this cat]
12. learning about mind control and visiting a resistance event was super empowering. _everybody talked_. holy frack. it was wonderful. Q: how do i stop posting to a mailing list and do other things
13. it seems pretty important/helpful to learn both the mc patterns and any patterns of dissociated or invasive identities within one, [and to work with these. so much more result happens. it doesn't always seem right though]
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss punch the hyperintelligent self-improving robot in the gut? A: To show it what a man he was!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why does MCBoss vomit brains so much? A: Old joke -- because he eats so many!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did Boss collapse the Center of Time, destroying all universes and physical laws? A: It looked at him funny.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: How did the peacemaking diplomat calm the zombie horde? A: Are you trying to torture me? Q: No! I would never! A: Oh. Q: So how did they do it? A: They were so free, to spread peace, they were able to say kind things to the zombies lunging for their brains. It took time for the zombies to comprehend that this would ever happen in any reality ever, but when it did, they stopped eating brains and turned into tear-filled humans again.
horribleness found in this stream more than in other horrible things
What Boss Did While After Being Vaporized Too Many Times It's rough being nuked over and over while your AI puts your body back together. It gets confusing. Especially when the people sending the nukes, whoever they are, start sending their own AI to pull your body apart and keep it that way. Eventually you realize your head is way more important than the rest of your body, and you direct it to be prioritized. It's helpful to prioritize an arm, too. With sufficient
mcboss walks along path in woods leans down to drainpipe drainpipe is special and goes into a fractal-maze boss sends mind control into drainpipe commands whatever is at other end to perk up and listen
WE NEED GENTLE CONSIDERING
parts go all "DO THIS NOW" it makes it [impossible] to find where damaged neighbors are
a shattered brain is [like a turbulent rapids made of precious people [, where you need to surf the rapids, becoming them, only them, understanding them more and more, and, while being them, flow in ways that find nearer paths to their homes, and don't need to be turbulent as much]] [disagreements exist, likely from other word-interpretations/implications]
{we have parts stirring them up :/ :)}
[in wilderness karl learned thing called fox-walking and [[[awareness]]], is very similar to protecting memories and other things. you become environment and fully respect, and not influence at all. in this space things can find ways to be what is meaningful.]
[there was question raound writing that, may have been in a delusion. keep yourself safe from influence that acts when we just listen.]
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why was mcboss bombing a mailing list with very bad jokes? A: He ran out of the big bombs and needed to resupply. Q: Why was karl bombing a mailing list with very bad jokes? A: Uh! Q: Who is karl and why is he bombing a mailing list with very bad jokes? A: To remember a small habit ...? not sure!
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: What would MCBoss do if he had Karl by the earlobes A: I have no idea, puff his cigar?
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Torturer had MCBoss at the interrogation table and was shining a harsh light.
Bad MCBoss Jokes -- alpha testing, very very bad Q: Why did MCBoss take over the world? A: Family tradition & bad habit. If you don't take over the world, somebody else could.
mistake possibly present
--- BARP BARP!!!!! not sure how mcboss + fox walking are similar, seem very very very different
Boss: "Before taking me to prison again, please let me bring my attack mech in case I want to break out early."
Boss goes to Prison with an Attack Mech. Experimentee goes to Prison with a Protective Guardian.
Boss breaks everyone out of Prison. Boss: "The hairdresser wouldn't do what I said to!"
oh! fox-walking-approach-to-psychic-influence-good,-because-severely-better-than-amnesia-or-brain-damage
ritual request detected via tea-leaf-reading-wing. the universe demands a ritual: change rescue pattern of busting down door, to something involving more gentle respectful care i would not want to bust down the door of a delicate situation, no?
temporal demands remain. rescue must complete within 19 minutes of variable-length time.
boss and torturer and kidnapped politican are having a bloodbath in boss's room boss [sitting in tub of blood, holding a limeade]: "Cheerio!" kidnapped politican [sitting in tub of blood, holding a contract obsolving boss of murder]: "I don't want to sign this! please rescue me!" a superpowered intern knocks on the door, trying to be gentle and respectful boss: "who the fuck could be at the door" superpowered intern [disguised as zombie government worker]: "boss it's me" boss gets up out of bloodbath and opens the door superpowered intern [disguised as zombie government worker]: "boss we made a mistake, it's the politician's twin, they'll have the wrong signature" boss: "fuck!" superpowered intern 2 ]dressed up as politican, bound and gagged]: "mmph!"
this is too complicated! way too complicated! how can we make it simpler?
without thinking about it, which could possibly reverse what a rescue is
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