21 Oct
2022
21 Oct
'22
12:07 a.m.
I'm thinking a little of the word "entrapment". I typed this email once, but then developed difficulty controlling my right hand and erased it, which happens to me sometimes. To the point: I get "internal mental entrapment", where I can trigger myself such that my influenced habits try to further worsen my triggers and worsen my habits of responding to them. It can be scary, and occasionally sets me back for quite a long time, when it goes poorly and succeeds in becoming a feedback loop. Over time, I do learn to handle the danger and resulting situations better and better, but it can be very hard work.