one of my challenges these days is clean clothes

without cash or cards it's xonfusing

and i'm trying to stay away from my wifi phone because it's the most hacked thing left in my life (then smart vehicle also an issue), and it still is blatanfly messing with me and I have DID from that stuff which is what human trafficking survivors have

so it.s tense to use phone

but my options for washing my clothes include:

- by hand with rocks or washboard somewhere, involces sneakiness and extended physical exertion

- getting cash from crypto somehow, seeing if a device find cash exchange

- waiting and wearing the same clothes until my ID arrives, makes things like appointments and buildings more psychologically challenging

i have a lot of shame around cleanliness associated with the DID-causation

- asking for money or wash, begging for favor

- paying with device for wash using laundromats that let you pay with a device

- finding work to make money, means succeeding at finding work (quickly, but also helpful if slow too)

- using resources for the homeless to wash my clothes for free

- any other option

most of these options have a big problem or concern held bigger than it seems like makes sense. for some of them i am aware of the concern appearing grounded in reality, for others i am not inmediately aware of why the concern matters [like physical exertion]

[but then if i push physical exertion i can get triggered and have another rough w--

we should try _all the options all of them_ and show how tough and resourceful we are :D:D:D