7 Feb
2021
7 Feb
'21
1:11 a.m.
Here's what's actually true, rather than that bullshit: When somebody tries to control your behavior, they vomit on your soul in a way you can never, ever forget. Like they have told you they hate you in a way so real that you become it. Maybe you consciously forget everything that hurt, everything that is bad, maybe you can't bring to mind any memories of this. But it is written on ever fibre of your being, in a way every part of you understands and knows, like nothing else.
Maybe that is true for some people. I don't know if it is true for me. Part of me was probably trying to connect with your rebel expressions. I just want to be myself again.