the question of whether to “let the business still run” or “keep mcboss alive” engages my own mind-control-like-experiences. i really value eveyone, and my mind-control-like-experiences step in and focus on me valuing mean people in power: when i pull away from it, it then encourages me to see people as harmful, and get angry with them. this is alien and abhorrent to me. i end up flipping back and forth and never developing rational thoughts and decisions that are relevant. that’s one of the reasons why the experimentees stay within the research labs and keep making the business run. although we all know that many of them do reach utopia, and are 8ncredibly helpful in making the world a better place when they do. unfortunately it is very hard for them to realise how helpful they really could be, if they were more free. so, experimentee would have their own realisation, when hearing this crucial information from puddle of organs. experimentee briefly looks wide-eyed at puddle of organs they’re torn between the realisation that they can save more people if they stop the business more and their care for puddle of organs, one of their closest family, whom they protected through the most gruesome situations, who is now in need of emotional support. family comes first here. disguised experimentee: “it sounds like you’re aware more now of things that are going on, and have some ideas of how we can stop it more effectively.” [here, puddle of organs realises that experimentee is mind controlled, despite leading the rebellion for years, and takes charge themselves to help them and others. this is a major turning point where the most passive victim steps in with power.]