This talk you express sometimes is similar to the Boss story character in my crazy ramblings. It feels a little like it's about making things look criminal, too. I'm thinking it could be helpful to pull from some of the things you say, not sure.

To me, both of the things we say sound crazy, so you know. I'm not aware of any deadpools here, but after reading your writing I'm now familiar with the word, which could make me profile as more dangerous elsewhere.