somebody said he snapped or something and was taken away) who would use the computers to watch this video game called dota
to install it so we could play instead of just watching. he had no interest in this — he said he just watched, he didn’t play. the concept of esports was totally new to me. he said he wouldn’t be any good at it
developing new skills and strategies (since my old ones were litered with all sorts of triggers) and found some similar games on an ipad (dota doesn’t run on an ipad or i would have tried it again). total IP theft from the community (dota was a community mod).
levels are from attacking. i used to always played healer characters in rpgs (without a guild), the best ones let you bring people back to life at high levels. i ended up playing this game for adolescents
who was like boss’s passive aggressive criticism of caring women, she would take damage so as to heal others. the system capped my level as i spent more time stuck in videogames i would look more and more for ones that would model good behaviors for me to learn or relearn, and also be drawing for that part of me. very very hard to find, everything is about extremeness and war. healer characters were an interesting compromise, that unfortunately got influenced by the games which are generally mostly about combat and seem to trend player behavior to engage in more combat.
when it got high, it would just refuse to add more points whatever
"why would anybody ever spend time playing video games?" "ehh either their world is too small to know of anything bigger, or too big for them to handle anything else"