Re: [spam] [monologue]

idea: a post on how to leave the system, modern-era. maybe it would be nice to include cave networks as an option, in case you are really actively surveilled. maybe i can value caving and map scanning a little more. On 2/23/21, Karl wrote:

I should also surreptitiously record my therapist, against his request, and tell him that I am doing so when I start. I think this would be good therapy for me.

On 2/23/21, Karl wrote:

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You guys all need help. Coderman and cecilia probably need a lot of help. Razer likely too. I don't know who else is in your community.

It's my job to keep track of you guys, since nobody else is. I have no idea how to do that, but I'll probably remember about it a little.

On 2/23/21, Karl wrote:

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When you have to dissociate wildly to survive, if you struggle enough you can learn to go to places associated with freedom. You don't really know what to do when you go there. You may not even remember why you are there. And obviously your slavers will have messed the place up by the time you get there, unless you kill them first. But you know it's good to be there. And you know if you keep on going and thinking, that you'll eventually figure it out. Maybe there's somewhere better to go.

My therapist doesn't let me record. Neither does the one he recommended. And he discourages me from talking to other therapists, and said he needs a record of whether I am on meds or not. I should find a better therapist. I should also talk to the advocate more.

And I should hang out in an anarchist community that's real. They're all used to being messed up anyway.

On 2/23/21, Karl wrote:

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[draft draft draft]

cleanup worker / formerly gov worker, to experimentation-victim-leading-secret-megacorp: [let's go to rebel/spy cafe, we always hang out there] {was boss's orders, but given by a rebel}

[[amnesia around most of this]]

oh! this is the galaxy we sent the bacteria to! the real live galaxy! another life [human expderimentaiton victim] part squeals in excitement: workaholic!!!!! [uses cigar-likeness to blow smoke in the face of mind controlled state worker and tells them to inhale. worker is relaxed to be among boss again, at rebel cafe.]

a casual encounter immediately obeys the victims, who occasionally use "superpowers" in ways that are similar to normal things but very wrong in order to handle their truama (like morphing into a chair with a leg missing to hide at being talked to and politely greeted, or levitating something that would normally be manually manipulated to make a relaxing enviornment similar to recordings of relaxing environments]

[rebel cafe-goer treated the mush of organs like a charismatic human being they wanted to immediately please] [after obedience-to-vivisection-victim-relation with normal rebel cafe-goer, vivisection victim tells mind controlled state worker]: "nobody can see us and everybody obeys us because we used to be boss's augmentations."

[scene switches to cafe topic]

[when dictatorsoft is engaged, the vivisection victims perform the work with their body, suddenlyt acting like personal servants and then reverting to whatever htey were doing, with nobody minding or noticing]