( :S 2004 i ran the search for my phone model number again and this time it said
yeah! my username was my whole email, not just the username part ;p got logged in 2000 hrm the 'quick questions' forum where you're supposed to start free support requests (hey i already bought their course ;p) doesn't seem to quite be working, it didn't show my post, it shows an error when viewed ... hmm maybe noscript ... no, there's no noscript ... :S ah-ha! new threads must be approved by moderator before becoming visible. hrm >( 2003 i hit search to find more threads, it found only one, it had no reply !! that's not right earlier i found a post that had full support that was recent and did regard my device and even my work on it by someone else there were no hits so i'm engaging a different situation than i was before. 2005 thinking about this, i think one of the issues is a can psychologically participate in the problem like, if i started troubleshooting it to figure out what things were related to it being there or not, and how it might transfer, i expect i'd dissociate and do something to deter the troubleshooting developing information effectively, at a one or two specific kinds of points (hard to think about [safely maybe :S] but it's nice to get closer it's too bad i borked the new phone if i assume the specific image i flashed is what borks it, a quick solution might be to use another new phone, and not flash that image but set it up some other way oh and i wanted to try other download agents on the germanish phone :) but, i think i may take a break from this, and maybe consider a new phone model a little bit more cause i want to prepare for other things going on in life with parts of me that otherwise would focus on this a lot for example there is a therapy facility i wanted to visit but forgot to 2008 :) 2013 ok i looked thru the forums more and they are active, and i can find the thread i couldn't find using google. i think maybe just the forum i was posting to has the issue. i think the thread isn't showing up because it needs moderator approval. so i should - wait a day for moderator to show thread - if no reply, post in a more active subforum where i see similar replies 2015 2129 traffick boss readies his wooden spear he crouches, ready to [thrust it into the chest of an oncoming being {i wonder if 'traffick boss' is saying he needs to talk, maybe about being both karl + boss, like long term [don't know?] 2142 traffick boss is blubbering like a lunatic why? he's aiming a live camera at himself while shooting diplomats traffick boss: "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH FUCK BAGS OF BANANAS [bang!]" traffick boss slams his head into a wall a few times, cracking the plaster, then videotapes himself killing a second diplomat 2143 [dictator of d-- 2145? [ictatortopia understands this experience a little. some sympathy for traffick boss.] 2145 traffick boss dodges as he aims the gun at himself, firing instead into a random object near a diplomat after jerking his head away 2147 ---------------------------------------------------- a bunch of confused vivisection escapees are gathering up the dead diplomats after stealthily replacing traffick boss's gun with a banana from a bag they take the diplomat bodies and carry them to a field full of flowers they make funny noises while considering bringing them back to life or burying them or maybe putting on diplomatic flower plays with their bodies when they try the different approaches a little they crowd around and make cooing and jabbering noises putting them in the ground seems to make the best noises until they wait a bit and then it is so sad as the lives of the diplomats run over them some of them go and get the diplomats' families a sneaky one, while others are distracted, uses snapshots of the diplomats from prior to their deaths to quickly bring them all back to life with the bullet wounds undamaged another gets uppity about this when noticing soon there are two copies of all the diplomat bodies, one --- {we still haven't fully sorted it out. it's interesting. we suspect that people don't want their murdered friends "brought back to life" with mysterious strange actions, but nor do they want them [killed again?] if they have already --- [there must be so much to [-- :S --- i don't know that much about death, my small engagement with it overlapped this severe situation where it is hard to feel anything naturally my first encounter with death was when my grandfather died. then there were a couple people in our occupy wall street camp who died. and cecilia died. then i learned my close friend's sister died. i also bumped into believing in my own death, maybe really different, uses same word, a couple similar concept bits oh i also found a really interesting therapist had died and other acquaintances online, all during this experience, like shane, and people who had encouraged (rather than discouraged) us during facebook-event/experience and animal and plant and ecosystem death, which is big if you feel them as sentient friends and family a lot of dissociation. some normal, some severe. oh also my closest friend's father died. and my grandmother. the father was after the grandfather. the grandmother was after the craziness and facebook. oh and marshall rosenberg died after i learned about him and right before i actually tried to take his classes. also carl barks died. before my grandfather. he made comics i read as a kid, died while i was a kid. an interesting and really weird part is i feel like there can be good death, but that it's rare. i imagine some people feeling really satisfied with their lives and moving on; i guess i imagine that as what would happen in a really well-adapted society or culture. it doesn't seem like the norm. i guess thinking that helps me think of mourning a little. when somebody dies, the loss of their potential life, their being-alive, is big. they're gone. everything they might do or say or know or hold seems gone. another thing we've been really gently considering-realizing is [influence-spirits], which maps to reincarnation and heaven in logical and strong ways. if one makes a few assumptions there are strong ways to believe in life after death. < uhh i'm frozen or someth now {{{ oop < ---------------------------------------------- traffick boss hobbles on crutches bunny rabbit: "traffick boss where is your powersuit" traffick boss looks at bunny rabbit bunny rabbit: "are those janitor's crutches?" traffick boss hobbles on the crutches to a picnic table he trips and stumbles [The big issue with writing about life after death is that it depends on things the harmful behaviors can strongly influence.] --- [O_! <i'm guessing it's a little like "destiny", where describing it changes it just ideas {{{{ when karl attends to "spiritual harm" he doesn't mean it the way others do. he means that some mysterious influence is trying to counter the expression of his spirit, really strongly. like if you wanted an apple to grow into a tree, and something sensed this, and made the apple instead whither and trees falter around it. in many many ways, even in subconscious things. [some think of it is as like countering a political AI spreading influence, but a person in a normal life instead] {so we don't talk about some things because we desperately need the tiny tiny seeming ways in which that isn't happening. because the only afterlife and spirit we've logically found is normal influence [held complexly].} [ and it seems wrong to describe that in our language-culture, because we don't acknowledge the similarity between the words "influence" and "spirit" so a lot of really strange things can happ-- blargh mistake here, mistake there, etc etc 2205 :S :S :S -- 2208 2212 20240209 -0800 2227 writing code that has complex organization hmmmmmmmmmmmmm think of this occasionally roughly engaging some cognitive inhibs handling a cognitive inhibition the things i heard from people generally involve not fighting the inhibition (2 people) the feelings the boss-influence express aren't familiar to me well but [oops] 2228 2232 once upon a time, [th 2232 you're standing on a rock. a small rock. nearby are some other rocks and a blade of grass
look at rock it's small, maybe 2 inches long, a little bit bigger than you climb down rock onto other rock you climb down the rock, wedging a foot into the spac--
2233 the realm of mistak-- 2233 i'm practicing staying up late because i know most people stay up really lat-- [b-- 2234