1. Once upon a time .... 2. It's interesting to compulsively blither onto this mailing list where I don't really know anybody and have amnesia around most of the parts of the real content I actually knew. I would guess that one of the reasons my subconscious would have picked this list to spam was both that the people using it were probably pretty resilient to spam, but also that I don't really know many people here, and don't have a strong emotional attachment to the culture. That second point, it feels bad, and that bad feeling reflects on me: there are few things here that really strike my heart. I likely would have subconsciously worked very hard to keep myself away from communities I really strongly valued, perceiving myself as harming them. A counterargument could be that other communities could be targeted just as badly as this one, and maybe my additional targeting would be minimal. It's an interesting thought. Still, I like the tiny bit of safety of having [spam] tags and not having strong connection to the community. It's an interesting idea, that maybe I could find more communities by feeling like I am disrupting them, rather than trying to engage them. Of course things end up being a hybrid of both.